The Introduction

"Charlie The Ageless One"

He lived in the closet from the beginning. According to Charlie he has been with me since be I was born. When we were introduced I lost the use of my
legs. All those years he was in my closet he never walked and now he's old and paralized. He is very wise and good like an elder who is at peace with the world. He would help me when things would become too difficult and I needed an advisor. Sometimes when I wake up I hear him talking to me.
I can never remember what he is saying but I know he is still there for me when I need advice even if he talks to me in my dreams.

"Cindy and The Wall"

Cindy my crying child so alone and rejected. She takes care of the baby that cries all the time. It must be hard for her, the little mother who looks after all the children. No one took care of her so she built "The Wall" he protects her from the world.

"Nobody"

Nobody was a name and a feeling until recently. I was with my new therapist when nobody made her first appearance. "Nobody" is eight years old and came into my life when my mother died. I had always depended on my Father for a sense of security. "Nobody" is the me behind the shells that I put on to survive in this world. "Nobody" realized that she couldn't trust anyone to protect or take care of her. She was totally alone in a world that couldn't see her. She is "Nothing" invisible to the adults in her world, surviving without affection or comfort when death takes her mother. She will survive alone never trusting anyone. Adults need to be taken care of more than she does.

"Harry"

He's a loner and he likes it that way. He doesn't talk or care if anyone likes him. He's different the unacceptable.

"George"

George is three and hangs around with Cindy. He knows that he's the whipping boy. When anyone needs to kick someone down the stairs he's the one.

"Evil"

I met Evil accidentally one day when I was writing a letter to my therapist. He had no idea what he was dealing with and having my cousin as a client too he was in way over his head. He was being unprofessional and I was writing him a letter to tell him off. As I wrote the letter I realized I was reading the letter in the middle of the page but writing on the bottom of the page. This is usually called automatic writing but in my case the message wasn't coming from the spirit world it was coming from someplace inside my mind. My hand wrote the words but those words did not come for my conscience mind. The words being written came from my dissociative hand. My mind was not thinking what was being written, my eyes were reading the words as they were being written.
My hand wrote about all the sexual, physical and emotional abuse I suffered as a small child. She held all the memories of the hell we all shared. At first I was afraid of her then I realized her power and she became a great resource.

Jane and Joan
The Twins

Joan would talk back and fight anyone that gave her a hard time. She is a very angry child. She doesn't respect anyone until they earn it. She doesn't like phoney people. The type who say nice things to make you feel good but don't really mean it.
Jane would hide under the house with her doll and watch Grandma hack off the heads of chickens. As an adult I find myself being Jane more and more. I just hide inside the house instead of under it. They are four.

Sydney

Sydney is about twelve. She was powerful, faithful, and perfect in every way. She is the queen of black and white thinking. Her favorite words were; "I would never do that." Now she knows she is just like everyone else in the would so she keeps her mouth shut. She was excommunicated from her church and it destroyed her and all the children who relied on her for guidance. It was such an unjustified excommunication that she went away for a very long time. It has only been with-in the past year that she has allowed her memories to be accessed. My son Taylor is on a mission and she will share her spiritual experiences with him. I'm co-conscious with her at those times but she refuses to allow me access to her. She will only talk to Taylor. When I start writing Taylor I feel myself step inside the shell that is Sydney. When I'm finished with the letter I step out of the shell. It's a strange feeling.

Burney
She is the man hater. She is the one who wanted to get a knife everytime my husband wanted me to perform my wifely duties. She is also the one that got involved with the child molester. She didn't have sex with him but she did have plans to kill him. Her actions led up to the excommunication.