:[mood]:  simply happy
What? Did I just say I was happy? Okay. :p Anywayz...I hate school!!!! I stinking failed my economics test. Okay the teacher said that the highest grade from the other class was a 12 out of 15. Freck and I got an 11! Waaaa. I am doing sooooo bad this quarter! And I was so happy the other 2 quarters 'cause I did way better than I did in high school...now this quarter feels like i'm in high school all over again. Well...kinda. Then how about a little high-school like moment? Guess who sat by me???? Oh my gosh! I'm halfly being sarcastic but not really. ;) Gui sat by me. :D He is soooooooo cute! *sigh* Why can't I have a guy like that???? I gotta get a picture of him. He's got this really nice accent. Making me melt...
Fine, fine enough of my sappiness. Okay I already asked him to study (see april 17) and...dern I should have complimented his shirt today. He was wearing this nice red striped shirt with a collar. :D Or I should have complimented (or laughed) at his new haircut on Tuesday! Agh. Isn't that what guys like and what makes them think that the girl may be into them???? But of course I still don't know if Gui has a girlfriend but i'm sure he probably does because all cute guys have girlfriends! :( See here's how alike Gui and I are. We both didn't bring our notebooks so we asked my friend Crystal for paper and she was like 'why didn't you guys bring your notebooks!?!' haha. I'm in love with Gui. It sucks when you can't have somebody yeah? :( I'm in a weird mood right now. I bet it's the weather. It's very cloudy and rainy and I was carrying groceries and it was raining on me and I think i'm gonna catch pneumonia and die. :p
Okay since i'm in this weird mood i'm going to write a long journal entry today. If you're reading this now I recommend you stop reading right now 'cause i'm not normally this crazy. ;) I hate Boston but I kind of like the way it's changed me. Firstly, I like my body right now! I mean not in a shallow type way but i've always had a problem with my body. Not like an obsessive problem but, in Hawaii, my body just did not feel right. Probably because I was a lazy butt who ate too much... haha. No, but really in Boston, this is like the skinniest i've ever been! Well, I mean proportionate. I'm a pants size smaller now and my clothes just fit so nicely. And I don't even exercise! That's the good part. Well, I mean Boston is a pretty big place and there is a lot of walking to the subway, bus, etc. but I don't do any extra effort. Yes, there's Amanda always trying to find the easy way out. ;)
Ack but when I get back to Hawaii I totally intend on working out. Or at least walking...oh I hope I can do that! Okay let's see what's also changed about me...my outlook on a lot of things. Everything from friends, family, people walking down the street, my life... I won't get into *that* now. How about we talk about guys? haha. I hate guys! Now that's one thing that hasn't changed about me. I still do not understand them for the life of me! But I have been talking to more guys...heehee. Not in a ho kinda way. hahaha. Oh guys! Don't want to get into that subject right now either...
Wow this journal entry is not making any sense. I got distracted! This whole journal entry has taken me a spread of 3 hours to write! hehe. Let me make some notable mentions. My "friend" Greg called from Hawaii. ;) heehee. I wonder if you're reading this? Well, i'll find out soon enough. Then my friend Emily called also from Hawaii! Awww you guys that was sooooo nice! You don't know how much that meant to me. :~( And now i'm talking to Dean on aim. Hawaii man! haha. Nice Hawaii day. I'm terribly missing home right now.
Oh I want to cry right now. :( I mean i'm okay now but when I go outside and see all the Boston people...i'm not saying I hate Boston people...I just loathe them a wee bit more!!!! Nah, nah. Oh my gosh let me mention this one girl in my class. She is pure evil! We were just doing work in groups and I was in her group. We were all supposed to find something on the internet and print it out. Only about 3 (including me) printed it out of a group of 7. Anyways so this one guy was doing the work and she was just sitting there thinking she was the queen of the world. And then there was this other girl in another group and the evil girl started talking stink about her when she was only a few feet away! I mean she was like saying all the dirt about her. I don't know. I kind of pretended I wasn't listening but i'm sure the evil girl didn't care either way. I mean I just looked up from my work and looked at her. She turned into the most ugly girl. I just couldn't conceive how she just made it seem like the other girl was the most horrible girl when I think they are both horrible! Now I don't even want to go to that class. Evil thoughts are very powerful and destructive.
I'm sorry but I think some of the people in Boston are just horrible. Okay my old high school buddies, you thought like Maria them were bad? Hello people here are like 50 times worse. Oh and just as a disclaimer- I did like Maria. I thought she was cool. But anwyayz. Now I forgot what I was talking about. Ah but I don't think anyone's reading this...well, I hope not 'cause this is not making any sense to me! I actually just want to type. lala
Oh okay now I know what I wanted to talk about. Spring break. For some reason going back home during spring break just felt so different for me as opposed to Christmas break. Christmas time of course dealt more with how much i've changed in my family circle and spring break was more of me in terms of my peers circle. Does that make sense? Probably not. Aaah! Okay now Dean is making me cry...i'm talking to him on im right now. Oh my gosh i'm crazy right now. But being with just a few of my friends who were in Hawaii made me feel sooo nice and I just haven't felt like that in a long time. It was such a nice feeling. Just being with my friends and even some people I did not know really well but have known for a long time. They just made me smile to be with them. Shauna, Michelle, Emily, Talia, Paul, Korey, Herbert, Troy, Nathan...I was just so happy. And then there were the new friends I made. Greg...made me appreciate Hawaii more. haha. I gotta mention Derek! Retarded crazy boy coming up to me at Brian's. I didn't even recognize him but he recognized me. That was nice.
Hmm. My mind's a bit unsettling right now. But I think this whole entry was bascially a run down of what i've been feeling this last leg of my freshman year. I mean this is basically how my mind is running right now. A bit jumbled up wouldn't you say? Honestly my heart feels exhaused right now. Exhausted from being here in Boston. Is it college? Is it Boston? Is it simply a growing process in my life? I don't know. But for certain it is changing me...
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