Wednesday, July 30, 2003

:[mood]: moody 'cause i'm listening to moody music

I think i'm allergic to the beautiful Hawaiian weather. Or something like that. On the plus side my skin looks better and my hair is not flat. haha. It does make a difference.

Yesterday night...watched 'Seabiscuit.' Eh. Eh again. I like horses. That's about all I have to say about that movie. haha. It was kind of long. After that went to our local favorite hang-out Zippy's. We must've stayed there a good 3 hours. Zippy's is awesome. There should be more places like that. In Boston there are none. Yeah. That's it.

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

:[mood]: yeah

Don't get me wrong. I am absolutely enjoying summer. I opened my eyes this morning, I was in my great big bed, a cool breeze was blowing in through the windows, I could see the light blue sky and the sun was shining. It was so beautiful I stayed in bed for another hour.

Okay...time for Amanda to rant...*sigh* Wait no maybe I shouldn't...it won't help. Okay so I won't. :X

song...

It's just a beautiful camouflage
when you move your eyes away from the stars
and say to yourself that its nothing
nothing but dreams you made in the back of your mind
and when you wake from these dreams
to your beating heart that's not quite seen
you want to remember the times
when it all felt the same
and a reality that could be erased

you tell yourself
that past will slip away
my heartache can heal all the pain
but when you wake up
and grab at nothing
when will it stop

there is a part of me that
still wants to break
wants to break free
and didn't i see that it
couldn't be any easier
easier you know the words
than what you do

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

:[mood]: okay

Oh my gosh I actually found myself saying that I want to go back to school so at least i'd have something to do. Scary! Watch on like the 2nd day of school i'm gonna be like 'I want summer back!' haha. So I was watching that movie Van Wilder. Pretty interesting. Actually what's interesting was I was actually learning something from that crude movie. "Are you stalking me? Because that would be super." Okay I gotta watch that movie again. :p'.

A lot of people (adults anyways) say that the "real world" starts when you're out of school, on your own, and working. So what i'm wondering is what the heck were the past 20 years of my life? Oh don't tell me I was living in a fictional world? I know gnomes are real dernit.

Lately i've been having goals (whoa Amanda having goals) that i'm excited to pursue. Long-term goals are important but I have been neglecting short-term goals and I think a lot of people do that. Short-term goals are just as important 'cause they lead to long-term goals. Right? heh Useless babble time here. In talking with a friend I couldn't readily assure her that the choice she made will be good for her in the long-term because you obviously don't know what's going to happen in the future. But she did give up something short-term (wait i'm not even talking about goals here any more) and it was a really hard thing to do but it was on the same level as long-term. *Just in case you don't know Meliss i'm talking about you here. :p'.

I wish I could spend time with somebody and know that it means as much to him as it does to me.

I like this song:

The Way That I Feel
Diffuser

There's a crack in the stack when you find that you're on your own
Raising stakes in the race, selling out so you don't get sold
Something for nothing hasn't been left for me
Tear away everything and I'm wearing memories

Take a chance on a chance, try leapfrog with a unicorn
Figure out when to shout when you sit on a corporate thorn
I bet you sleep tight every night wondering
If the one you've become is what you hated

The more I gave, the more you take
Why can't you stay?
What should I do?
Now that we're through
One thing is true
The way that I feel

Have a drink on the fink 'till we kill off the disco fad
Fuzzy dice mixed with ice, give it up for the other man
I'm getting cold shakes from the state that I'm in
Your getting colder, I'm getting older
Stop the landslide

The more I gave, the more you take
Why can't you stay?
What should I do?
Now that we're through
One thing is true
The way that I feel

I'm pulling hair in despair
Cracker Jacks for the funeral
Pull a shade, so I can break the walls around me

What should I do?
Now that we're through
One thing is true
The way that I feel for you

Monday, July 21, 2003

:[mood]: good

I'm having a good time this summer. Saturday my parents had a dinner party at the house. Didn't know anybody there. There was a girl who was 26 so like after the party my friends and I took her out. We went to the Maze in Waikiki. First time i've been there. Oh my gosh I had so much fun. I really like that place. Next day, hungover, went to the beach. That was fun. Clubbing and the beach. My weekend was complete haha.

Sunday, July 13, 2003

:[mood]: about time

Yeah. I think it's about time for me to babble since I haven't written in here for awhile. It's full moon tonight. So beautiful. I swear one of these days i'm just going to pitch a tent and sleep on the beach. Actually no need tent.. I just want one night on the beach... haha I need me to find a good guy who would actually want to do that with me. Okay too much sharing. :p'. So i've been sick for the past couple of days. That's about all the haps in my life. Yeah...uhm my mind just stopped thinking...right...there...

Saturday, July 05, 2003

:[mood]: sooooooo tired

Oh my gosh. I am so tired! I had the best night last night. Had a party at my house and it was pretty crazy. Thinking about it I think that all my friends were there that night. All the friends that mattered to me. Some even who I haven't seen in like 2 years. It was so great seeing everybody and catching up. There were so many people (I estimated at least 40) and they were just all people I really cared about. That was so nice! We stayed up...yeah I got only about an hour or so of sleep 'till the last person left my house at 4pm-ish. Good fun though. Oh my gosh I was just a little chatterbox that night. haha. I just said anything and everything that had happened to me in the past year. For those who were passed out, they missed some juicy talk. haha. Good good fun. Made me happy. :)

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