Tuesday, September 03, 2002

:[mood]: hehe

Aww give me a break. I might as well use that heart mood now 'cause i'm not going to be using it any time soon. I had an amazing night. I'll share that a little later. Like you care...well, I care! :p'. Uh yesterday was Labor Day? I guess so. Uh...oh my gosh how come I don't remember what...okay now I do. Helped my dad out most of the morning picking up junk for his office and organizing it and stuff. It was so hot yesterday so my family went swimming in the pool. Then went to some plant nursery. It was really nice there. They were just about closing and I was found by this display of hibiscuses. Hibiscuses? That's a word. Anyways I wanted to take them but the plant guy was there. I guess he saw me eyeing it and all and he told me since it was the end of the day I could take as many as I want. Can you believe there are like 20 different kinds of hibiscus in different shapes, sizes, and colors? I was in heaven oh my gosh. I was just so happy picking all those flowers. Even though they died in like an hour or two, I was sooooooo happy. :)

Yeah. I'm sure you're like flowers, who cares? I care yo. :p'. lalala. Okay now my night. Can't say too much because it was really special to me. Definitely one of those moments where you want to save it in a bottle and keep it right next to your bed... ;) Yeah it just dealt with someone special and it was just something I never imagined. I can't say too much. *sigh* It was just so special. So hard yet so special...

Monday, September 02, 2002

:[mood]: extremely bitter

I am so frecking bitter. I am home right now when I was supposed to be out. Out having frecking fun. I was supposed to go clubbing and then to a party. But nooooo. I was also supposed to go out with a guy. But he stood me up. Twice in a row. Freck. Not even a call tonight. Freck him. I can't believe this. Freck me.

Saturday, August 31, 2002

:[mood]: last day of the month...

Ack. Well. Went to the women's wahine volleyball game yesterday. Yeay volleyball. While the game was going on I was scarfing down garlic fries, nachos, and ice cream. hahaha. Disgusting. That was basically my dinner. Met a friend at my house. Oh yeah I gotta mention this! hehehe! We ordered pizza on the way home. I wasn't there yet but my friend was. He calls me and is all like 'uh the pizza boy is here already.' haha. So we get there like a minute after and there they are talking to each other. I'm sorry it was so funny him talking to the pizza boy which I have to mention was very cute! Dern it. After pizza boy left I asked my friend what they were talking about. One thing the pizza boy mentioned was that he delivered to my house before...oooh oooh what does that mean...hehe. Dern it he was cute! I wonder if he was that other pizza boy who delivered to our house before...

We went last minute clubbing at Venus for a bit. Hardly any cute guys. :\ But it was totally great. I love dancing. lala. Oh nevermind there was one cute guy. He works with Xtreme radio and he knows one of my friends. She was saying bye to him and they kissed each other on the cheek and stuff then he says good-bye to me and gives me a kiss on the cheek. What?? I don't think he knows me and I only saw him like once or twice before. Yeah. He was cute.

Got home pretty early. Called somebody... I forget what time I slept. I was watching Swordfish I think then I fell asleep on the couch with my clothes on. Yeck. haha I mean the clothes I went clubbing in. My friend fell asleep earlier in another room. So here I am in the living room with like the tv on, the lights on, still in my clothes. Yech. I think I got up at 5:30 a.m. to wash up and close the lights and get my blankie. I watched the sunrise for a bit then went to sleep for 2 hours or so. Dern my sleeping patterns. Hopefully going out tonight and doing some talking...we'll see. We'll see indeed. :p'.

Thursday, August 29, 2002

:[mood]: bleh

Amazing how like doing nothing takes up a lot of time. Yeah that's my deep thought for today. Oh you know why? 'Cause I like to do like virtually nothing before I hurl myself into a frenzy of activites and stuff which will be college and the whole packing, moving, flying, meeting, registering, and all that cr*p. Yeah. So i'm spending my last 2 weeks...doing nothing. Yeay!

Uhm. Uh...I was thinking something but I got distracted. Yeah that's about it. Waiting for my mom to get home so we can stinking eat. I think that's why I can't think right now 'cause i'm dizzy from hunger. And i'm also preparing for college by not eating. I mean not eating too much...you know how my freshman year went.

Oh my gosh how is this for weird. I grabbed the newspaper and this magazine. I was looking for my horoscope but first I looked at the 'word of the day thing' and today's word is journeys. And the magazine's name is also journeys. Hmm. Coincidence? I think not. What is this journeys trying to tell me? Hmm indeed. heehee. What? Okay my horoscope makes no stinking sense. booo. Justin Timberlake is a good dancer. Whoa where did that come from? I want to be a dancer!

Wednesday, August 28, 2002

:[mood]: bored

What? That was yesterday when I woke up early and hardly got any sleep? Wha? Oh my freckin gosh. Was that really yesterday? How come I don't believe it? I'm getting so thrown off already. Not that I don't like him calling at night 'cause I do. Talked to him again and went to sleep at around 4 a.m. again I think...woke up at 8 a.m. or so. It gets so hot in my house.

Eh...I am so tired and bored right now. Halfly not complaining 'cause i'd rather be doing nothing than being in Boston stressing over school and life and bleh!

You know what? I keep way too many journals freck. But I like journals. No wonder i'm all thrown off 'cause...yeah. Okay guy situation talk time. It's really frustrating when somebody says they like you and you like them back but we're not going out for some reason I still don't completely understand on my part. Oops I think i'm getting to into it. I'm just really tired right now in more ways than one.

Tuesday, August 27, 2002

:[mood]: dern it

I don't know what to feel any more. I'm just so tired in every way. Talked to the guy yesterday...actually I think I should really stop talking about him 'cause it's weird and maybe not fair. Ah well. So. Got off the phone with him at 1 a.m. or something and I couldn't go back to sleep so I stayed up 'till about 4 a.m. I was awaken by the sound of the doorbell at 6 a.m. Apparently my dad's car's hazardous lights were like blinking the whole night or something and this guy was just letting me know. Hello I answered the door in like...who knows what hehehe. The guy probably knew how out of it I was and he's like 'oops sorry.' I felt bad for him 'cause I think I was being a grouch not to mention looking like one. I was the only one who heard him in the whole house. So I had to fix the car in the stinking cold morning.

Since the sun was out I didn't go back to sleep yet again. Stayed up and watched what was left of the sunrise. Dern freck. haha I can't swear. Dern it! I don't even know why i'm trying...okay maybe I do. Is there such a thing as knowing that there is a very special person and this exceeds more than just being friends or boyfriend and girlfriend etc.? Of course that doesn't make sense...or does it? Dam* i'm tired.

:[mood]: ack

The guy I like (and he likes me too dern it) called me at around midnight. I can`t sleep. It`s like 3 am. Freck. I like him so much it`s hurting. I really can`t take the days passing by without him being mine. I know we`ve talked about just being friends but I don`t want that. Are long distance relationships that bad?

It`s just like there is this starving lion and somebody is like dangling a juicy zebra thigh just out of arms reach. Somebody you like telling them you like them back but not going out...that`s just totally killing me.

Tei. I really, really like you.

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