Whats the Point
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So you're so interested in whats going on in my life or my head? Two words: Fuck You.
Christopher - 12/16/03 @ 4:33 PM
Horse With No Name
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Where to start? So yesterday my step dad tells me my car payment is due. I check my bank account and find out my funds are seriously lacking, probably due to the fact I don�t have any income coming in until I finish the Career Development Center site. So I decided to give the Olive Garden a ring and pick up a shift today. Meanwhile, my friend Jessi tells me over the phone that a �Beth Sanford� came in looking for me earlier that day and left a number. So I haven�t seen Beth in almost a year. Last time I even talked to her was last Thanksgiving. She was one of my best friends my senior year of high school and we fell out of touch. I decide to give her a ring and her mom answers so I tell her mom to tell her I called and gave her my cell phone number. The next morning I�ve got a voicemail from Beth leaving me her cell phone number. Now the game of phone tag is over, I give her celly a ring and she picks up. We talk for a bit and turns out she�s divorcing her husband whom she�s had for a year. Since I�m working 12 hours of serving, I�m guessing I�m gonna want to go out for a drink or two after work and invite her along. She comes into work and we shoot the shit for a bit. It was almost as if we never stopped talking. She got to meet all my friends and really clicked with all of them I think. We laughed for hours and had a really good time. By the end of our little venture she was pretty wasted so I drove her car to Hillary�s house where we all hung out and chatted some more while she sobered. I can�t even begin to express how good it feels to have someone who meant a lot to me in the past come back out of the blue and totally hit things off again. I really look forward to hanging out with her again. Now back to the income situation. I worked my ass off all day and didn�t reach my goal but I got damn close. I was $10 dollars short until we went out tonight. Now I�m $30 dollars short but I picked up 2 more shifts so I should hopefully have enough money to pay my car payment and then still have money for this weekend. I can�t wait till Friday. I�m getting really excited but at the same time I�m a little nervous I guess. Tomorrow I'm actually off in the morning. My advertising teacher gave us a break so I was thinking about running out to the the beach for an hour or two before my art class. I've got laundry to do though and I've got to work at the Olive Garden at 5:00 PM so I might not get to. Today was kind of chilly anyway for a change. Tomorrow might be the same way. I kind of hope it is. Change is a good thing.
Christopher - 10/16/03 @ 4:28 AM
The Blue Shirt or the Brown One
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Today�s word is: Analyze! Why am I always so indecisive? I swear it takes me at least an hour of debating before I ever make a decision on anything yet some how I remain spontaneous. Today I went to class, which like usual was boring. I did an ink painting in art that the professor really liked for some reason and wanted to hang it up. I thought it looked rather crappy but I didn�t want to say anything. I got my car payment bill in the mail today so now I�m forced to scratch my plans for Wednesday and work all day to try and pay it off so I can still go out this weekend. I�m going to go in at 11:00 AM and probably work till close. Hopefully I�ll bank. I just regret doing it because I don�t want to get back into the whole OG mess I was in before and it takes away time I should be spending on the Career Development Center site. I�m glad I made some major progress with that today though. I�m still trying to keep myself busy. It makes the time go faster and it gives me something to show Debra Sieloff. This evening I talked with some friends on AIM, mostly with Hillary. The entire conversation was one big �should I or shouldn�t I?� on a lot of things. I feel like such a weakling. I�ve never felt like this before. I at east settled on my plans for this weekend. Although I�m sure I�ll second doubt myself a million times before Friday but I think deep down it�s the right decision�or is it?
Christopher - 10/15/03 @ 2:01 AM
Loose Ends
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Wow, so much has happened the last few days. I finished a lot of unsolved business this weekend. Friday I had to tell a someone off which was kind of hard but at the same time left me feeling empowered. I don�t like to hurt people but I couldn�t see any other way. I then went to a party at my friend Courtney�s house which started off kind of slow but I had a nice time hanging out with everyone who I hadn�t seen in a while and really enjoyed hanging out with those I hadn't seen in a really long while. It made me realize how much I miss them all, some more then others. I didn�t expect or even really want anything to happen this weekend but I guess we don�t always have control of our lives or how we feel. You just have to go with things. My friend Brooke came back from out of town on Saturday and wanted me to pick up a shift for her girlfriend, Lauren, that evening at the Olive Garden. I didn�t picture myself working there again so soon but I owe Brooke a lot and I needed the money anyway. Everyone at work kept telling me how nice it was to have me back. I had to keep reassuring them that I wasn�t back; I was just picking up a shift now and then. I got out pretty late, which was kind of crummy and a lot of people were mad at me because I didn�t get to hang out with them. I tried to redeem myself but I don't think I did. Regardless, I had a good time. So now we�re on to Sunday. So the weekend started off so great and then like all good things it had to come to and end. Sunday would have been one of the most depressing days if not for Hillary who kept me company and kept me busy. We came back to my house and helped my brother Oscar with setting up his e-mail and fixing some business cards. It took about an hour and afterwards we drove to Waterford and watched Kill Bill. An excellent movie, by the way. I highly recommend it. Later that night we met up with friends and went out. It wasn�t all that much fun but it was productive. I spent most of the evening just chatting with Hillary and we danced a little. I�m really blessed to have such good friends in my life. I wish I could see some of them more often. Today I tried to keep myself busy. I got a lot done on the Career Development Site and got back into my work out schedule. I'm really proud I've been able to stick with it even with all the craziness in my life right now. I think maybe it's because it gives me time to destress and think about stuff and forget about other stuff. I talked to some friends for a while this evening which I always enjoy. I really felt like I might have been a little harsh on my friend Lisa recently. After talking to her, I know I was quick to judge her; one of my many faults. I just hope I can make it up to her and everyone else I've ever done it to.
Christopher - 10/14/03 @ 1:19 AM
Brighter Days Ahead
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Ahh, finally some good comes my way. I got an 88% on my Advertising Midterm. Not great but hey its passing, and considering all I�ve been through this semester I�m not to upset. I really just chilled most of the day. Hung out with Deborah and Nidy a little while and we talked. She told me some really hilarious stories about her friend Fiona then we worked out for a bit again. I�m going to be like the Hulk in no time. So tomorrow I�m going to veg out on the beach for a few hours with Deborah and Nidy. I am so looking forward to just relaxing. Tomorrow evening I�m supposed to hang out with some friends and go to a party. For some reason I�m more nervous then excited which is really odd cause I�m always gung-ho for partying. Maybe it�s the company or maybe it�s just the situation. Hopefully I won�t mess something up this time like I always seem to do.
Christopher - 10/10/03 @ 12:40 AM
Slacking
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I was a real slacker today. I woke up and finished mowing the lawn this morning and after that failed to do anything really productive. I tried to work on the Career Development Center website but didn�t make any real headway. I guess my mind was elsewhere. I did get to work out for a bit today which I really enjoyed. This evening I talked to Hillary and Matthew again although I wasn�t really into chatting much. Guess I�m just having another down day. Tomorrow I�ve got class again and then hopefully I�ll make some major progress with the Career Development Center site. I want to try and get as much done as I can. I really want to take Friday off and maybe relax at the beach all day before hanging out with everyone that evening. We�ll see how things go.
Christopher - 10/09/03 @ 12:15 AM
Workin Out, Maybe Not
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What an interesting day. I ran around like a chicken with its head cut off this morning. I got to school early to take the damn test, which nearly killed me. I decided to drop my Networking class. It was way more work then I can handle right now. That and I don�t think I�m nerdy enough. I ran home and talked to Hillary and Matthew on AIM for a but, ran back to school, then ran back home during a break in Art to grab some coffee, play with Nidy, and grab a photo of myself for a self portrait. What an interesting morning. The afternoon wasn�t much slower. I met with Debra Sieloff and she gave me the material I needed to start the generic Career Development site my father and her want. It should be interesting and hopefully not too hard. Lauren called me and wanted to hang out since her girlfriend, Brooke, is out of town visiting a sick grandmother. Hillary, Lauren, and myself ended up having a fun time at the gym and then went out to R.J. Gators for a quick bite to eat. It was really nice getting to hang out with Lauren. I don�t get to hang out with her much. Afterwards, Hillary and me went to visit my friend Chris. We had a few laughs and Hillary got a little tipsy so I drove her home. There is more but I�m so tired, I don�t have the energy to continue.
Christopher - 10/08/03 @ 1:47 AM
Monkeyin Around
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So I finally have decided to start writing in this darn thing. I guess it will be good therapy for me. A lot has happened in the last month. I've just quit my job at the Olive Garden after working there for over 18 months and making the best friends of my life. Sometimes I regret my decision to leave but in the end I think it is for the better. It inspired me to make a change in my life and as any of my friends will tell you, I've very indecisive. I spent most of the day hanging out with Deborah and the baby, making a fool of myself. I actually climbed the tree in the front yard today and even climb onto the roof just for the heck of it. It felt good to act like a kid again. I ended up pulling lawn-mowing duty but I didn�t mind it. My mom tried to convince me by saying it was good exercise, which I won�t deny. I got to chat with my friends on AIM tonight, which was pretty humorous. It�s good to know that even though I still don�t work with them it doesn�t stop us all from still having fun and a good laugh together. Well I�ve got to be heading to bed early tonight, turns out I have to go into school an hour early tomorrow just to make up a test I missed last week. Such is the price we pay to play I guess?
Christopher - 10/06/03 @ 11:37 PM
