Life never guaranteed me anything special. It never guaranteed that when I lost some of the most special people to me that I would find someone else to replace them. When someone says be optimistic about the future because one day you will find someone who you were meant to be with, I find it hard to even humour their wishes. Life has guaranteed me nothing except that one day I too will die, and that I will have to feel immense amounts of mental strain. Try to remember that not every person gets through life so easily that everyday things to you are just the same to them. When you go out and try to use someone for sex, or go out and get drunk for no particular reason, or shrug the loss of a friend off because you have so many more, just remember that some people have to try so much harder than you to live a life that's seemingly average and nothing more that they can't sacrifice anything they have for petty feelings and raging hormones experienced by every fucking teenager.
Try to imagine what it would be like to have to struggle to even live, let alone be happy day to day with the shit of a life you have had. Try then to even start to call me weak or dumb. I think I have done a pretty good fucking job to be able to live the way I do and be happy the majority of the time. Who knows, maybe one day I will get to be lucky enough to find someone who feels and thinks the same way I do. Maybe one day I will be special enough to live a regular life. Maybe one day I will get to be just like you.
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