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Tamara worked hard to make her marriage work. She cooked his favorite dishes, made sure the house was neat and tidy and took pains with her own appearance. Steven seemed to appreciate her efforts. He was home every night after work and spent time with the children. After dinner, he was content to sit with her and talk about his day and to ask her how her day went...what progress she had made! He seemed to be very interested in her progress. He bought her little gifts now and then...a bunch of flowers...her favorite candy.

But Steven's double life was starting to tell on him. He would lie in bed and ask himself how he had gotten himself caught in such a web of deceit. He sometimes wished he could turn back time to when he and Tamara were first married, looking forward to being parents. Life was so uncomplicated then. But when he saw Beth the following day at work, her stomach growing large with his child, he would feel as if he had betrayed her with his thoughts. At those times, he would reassure her that once Tamara was capable of caring for herself and the boys, he would divorce her and he and Beth would get married. He understood Beth's urgency for him to become her husband. She needed a father for her baby and with her daughter taken from her custody, she was very vulnerable and needed to know that her life was secure.

There were days when Tamara's fears kept her from practicing...days when she doubted her capabilities...when she felt her efforts were futile. Bob Green assured her that her feelings were a part of the recovery process. He told her she was making great progress. She was walking a little further each day, taking the boys to the park and she did go to that dinner with Steven!

One afternoon, Bob told her that he thought she was ready to get behind the wheel again. Tamara immediately rejected the idea. She hadn't driven for such a long time and she felt she just wasn't ready to take that big a step. When Bob told her he would follow close behind her in his car, she felt more assured and decided to give it a try. Her entire body shook as she climbed in behind the wheel. Her mouth was dry and her anxiety level had sky-rocketed. "I can't," she thought. She looked to where Bob sat in his car and he smiled at her and gave her the 'you can do it' sign.

She slowly pulled out of her driveway and made her way down the street. She began to relax a little. It felt so good to be behind the wheel again. When she came to a red traffic light, her fears returned. She wanted to jump out and leave the car where it was and drive back home with Bob. Bob must have read her thoughts and he blew his horn. She turned in her seat and once more he gave her the 'you can do it' sign. When the light finally changed, she drove for another mile or so and then, figuring she'd had enough for one day, pulled into a parking lot. She got out of her car, ran towards where Bob was, exclaiming, "I did it!" Filled with unbounded energy and confidence, she told him she would like to drive back home alone.

Before getting back into the car, she saw there was a drugstore in a building across the street that also housed several doctors' offices. Now would be a good time to pick up some things she needed. As she walked through the entrance, she came face to fce with Beth...a very pregnant Beth!

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