Hearing simple words,
although, it seems they should be more.
Constantly going through my mind.
I can't stop thinking of you,
now you are a part of me and my soul.
Although, it seems I only need you,
without God first, I'm not whole.
A walk with you, at that moment,
seemed to be enough.
I feel, however, that when I start school,
the making "us" happen will be tough.
Can't stop being with you now,
I would feel led on yet again.
My heart has been hurt enough,
without it being broken once again.
Can't now go without you,
you close seems to take my pain away.
The pain is still there,
even with you near.
truth and reality caving in.
Robbing me of a normal childhood,
that was a sin.
A child only six years of age,
a man old enough to know.
The truth behind those lies,
you would never show.
A chance to know myself,
a chance to grow and mature.
A chance at a pain-free childhood,
a chance to be real in nature.
Not so strong now,
thanks to a spirit that caused pain.
No longer the strong child,
I used to be with gain.
A loving child who used to be,
now so defenseless and wrong.
once had love to give away,
now, with barely enough to be strong.
Will finally heal the many years,
of pain and burdens and shedding tears.
Foggy it is in my mind as I cry.
Selflessly I roam along life's path,
for I do nothing but try to please.
Yet I fall to my knees alone,
frozen by the night's troubled breeze.
Foggy it is tonight in this place,
so empty, so unforgiving.
Poisonous syrup runs through my blood now,
as if I'm dead among the living.
Trying to grasp my creativity,
you never can.
Watching you closely from afar,
watching as you ran.
So foggy the air is,
so foggy it is on this cold night.
The cold can be chilling,
although, not as much as a bite.
I bite into you.
Feeling your heart so blue.
Foggy it is in the air,
a dream that is really a nightmare.