at 5:18 pm Cali
Never handle burden of mine.
Sleepless nights you have always,
don't talk of how you feel, don't "wine."
Don't look into my eyes of fate.
Only Jesus Christ is allowed to.
I am normal as can be,
although, you never look at me.
On the outside, you see an innocent love.
Through my eyes, a wounded dove.
Burden of mine, you'll never feel.
Burden of mine, you'll never know.
All you'll ever do is think you know me,
as my pain continues to grow.
You will never see or realize,
what I have been through.
Everything that has happened to you,
wishing it was all that happened to me.
Pierce into my heart, a confuzed child is all you see.
at 8:50 pm Cali
I hide in fear of not knowing myself.
Please hold me, Father.
I cry worthless tears that You keep.
Endless nights of patience, I await.
Please allow me rest,
as I am always up so late.
I don't know myself anymore.
Try to figure me out, you never will.
Stare at me, try to feel me and my soul.
As to get away from reality,
I take this pill.
I hide from you.
I hide from this place.
No smiling, Heather,
wipe that grin off you face.
Being happy isn't right.
If you are sad, it's not right.
I am used to this,
they want me out of their sight.
at 10:22 pm
I am broken and I am weak.
Traveling along these streets alone,
and for my sanity, I seek.<------------
At times, I feel it isn't worth my time.
Lonliness and depression grasp my neck.
Shaking it off with my strength,
which I barely have left,
feelings in a wreck.
I bare shame and guilt.
What you see in my eyes, I'm not proud of.
I try hard and so hard I try,
to give others what I barely have left. Love.
Being broken in more ways than one.
I am broken spiritually and mentally.
I am broken so emotionally,
I have no energy internally.
There is only One who knows,
only One who knows my heart. +T+
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