| Nags's Life Right Now |
| September 3, 2004 *Note � Do not read attempt to read this all in one setting. Stop after you�ve read enough and continue on later. Also use �My Reply� liberally (that means a lot) and fucking sign the guestbook on the main page. Is that too much to ask for? Hey. What�s happening? Well when I was going to start this update a little over a week ago (today is August 2nd�Happy bday to Brandie) this was probably going to be the most positive site update I�ve ever had. Yeah not anymore. This should be interesting. From some of the highest highs to the lowest lows. But in the end, this is the diary of my summer, you think you know, but you probably have no fucking clue. Grant�s Dad Well the first thing is Grant�s dad passing away in late May. He had been sick with lung cancer for quite a while so it wasn�t a huge shock when he passed but it still wasn�t easy. We all (us group of guys) knew that it would hit us when we got to the memorial service and we were right. This was probably the first time in a while that all 8 of us (Grant, Rob, Josh, Mark, Eric, Joey, Adam and myself) were all together and odds are it will probably be the last time for a long long while. Unfortunately it was in that setting. We all cried, some more than others (yes that would be a reference to my teary ass). During the part of the memorial where you could go up there and say what you wanted about Jeff I wanted all of us to go up there. I thought it would be like a good thing for all of us to be up there but some of them didn�t want to go up there because they weren�t going to be able to talk. I understood completely. I took it upon myself to go up there and speak for the group though. I just shared a story I had that I think defined Jeff and said that in a group as close as ours that each one of our parents are like parents to all of us and that losing Jeff was like all of us losing a dad. I did choke on my words a little but I got it out. Afterwards though we all hung out for most of the day and almost every one of us went out and played baseball. It was good for all of us to be together. I also put together this little message board for people to write what they want about Jeff. You can still do it if you forgot or didn�t know about it. R.I.P. Jeffery Weathers Brandie During the last week of school I was really really bored and I went on Yahoo Personals and �Ice Broke� a bunch of different girls that lived around here and looked at least decent. I actually got IMd by one of them and she was one of the really good looking ones too. We talked for about an hour that night and it was cool. Her name was Brandie and she goes to St. Mary�s College (The SMC as the cool people call it). The next day I spent about 7 hours off and on talking with her while doing some other things and we had a bit in common plus she was one cool person to talk to. The next day I got off work and went online and was talking with her and she said that I should go out there that night. I checked with my wingman Josh (as he owed me from earlier in the year) and he said all systems go, so we were off to The SMC. It was an alright night. Brandie and I weren�t able to talk much and had no alone time to talk since she had 3 other girls with her but it was still nice to hang out with her. Of course since then I�ve only seen her like 2 other times. Any attempt to be with her would be in vein I think since time killed any chance, which I think was slim, for anything to happen. But at least she�s still a friend. Summer Mission Statement School ended in late May and this was supposed to be our greatest summer ever, our last summer together before we�d be spit up. And we almost did it. We had the greatest first half of summer ever, that�s for sure. Alcohol? I also decided sometime in mid-June that I was bored enough to start drinking. Go me. Yeah so I got drunk and talked on the phone forever, mainly with Ali. I�ve come to find out that I�m one talkative and honest drunk. The next night I got drunk as well with Josh and some other guys. I made like 25 drunken calls that night plus I cockblocked Josh unintentionally; so we fought. No big deal. Wouldn�t be the last time during the summer that we fought. Also like five days later I got buzzed @ The SMC the only other time I hung out with Brandie. I did get slapped by Josh�s mom so damn hard after the first night I drank. Like 3 hours after I stopped drinkin (which I didn�t even drink that much) I drove the .25 miles home and she said she�d beat me up or something if I ever did it again. She�s still hot, even when mad. Overall I got drunk nine times during the summer (2 @ Josh�s, SMC, 2 nights at party, Warped Tour, SoCal, my house with Mark & my birthday). I also probably made about 60 drunk calls probably. Oops. THEE Party Well��I don�t know what to say. If you were there, you know. If you weren�t, you really missed out. But hell, let me give you the play-by�.er��puke-by-puke of the weekend. Well I found out my parents were going camping about 3 months in advance and I planned the whole thing out around that time. My friends were like, who cares, it�s 3 months away. I cared. They never thought the party could live up to expectations because I had been hyping it for so damn long. Needless to say when the last weekend in June came around they were ready to see what was going to happen. I was just hoping nobody was going to get alcohol poisoning. I took off the weekend so I only had to open on the Friday and then it was party weekend. I was almost drunk with anticipation Friday while I was waiting to get off work. I was just playing �I Don�t Have To Be Me (Til Monday)� by Steve Azar during the last few minutes. The place was packed with alcohol that I thought would last us both days, the Friday pre-party and the Saturday party. Little did I know that there would be about TWO beers left after the �small� pre-party on Friday. This is just the beer in the fridge, not the hard alcohol or keg. We killed just about everything the first night, �cept the keg which we saved for the second night. The small pre-party in which I expected around 15 people to attend turned into a 30+ person party. I of course took 8 shots in 5 minutes so I was feeling A-OK! Nothing really notable took place that night. Well I did lie on the concrete with my head in the pool laughing for no reason whatsoever, Shawna and �Big Red� Alison did both get sick beyond comprehension and were in separate bathrooms for a long long time. I remember talking to Alison for the longest time in quite some time as she was on the bathroom floor not feeling well and I was drunk and talkative. I also decided that it was too noisy inside so I would sleep on the lawn. About an hour later I woke up, realized it was cold as fuck and went into my own bed for the night. The next day we had a few problems to face. First off we had one fucked up house to clean up for the party that night. Second, we had just about no alcohol left and a lot of people coming over. So we had to restock on alcohol, which of course I fronted and then I had help cleaning the house. We were all kinda out of it all day from the night before but sure as hell ready for the night ahead. Let me tell you how I decided to deal with that whole problem of sausage fests that we usually have at our parties. I turned to the internet. That�s right, if you lived in the tri-valley area and looked at least decent and were on facethejury.com, odds are you got an IM from me saying that I don�t know who you are but you look good and we�re having a party so come over. Funny thing is I actually got a couple girls that way. I got Ashton who brought like four or five other girls to the party with her. Of course when I was drunk I saw Ashton and she was on some guys lap so I took her hand, grabbed her off of him and had her sit on my lap on the other side of the house. Yeah, savage I know. Of course the party had a snag in the beginning as the keg was flat when we tried it so we had to drive to Danville to exchange it but the deposit sticker flew off so I�m not sure if I can get my deposit back for it. So if anyone wants to buy a keg, tap and bucket, it�s only $95. Also on the ride back I think the keg was moving around in the back a little bit because like 3 weeks later Adam found a dent in his bed and that of course created tension since I didn�t tell him. Honestly I didn�t see it nor did anyone else so I had no idea. Well the party started off slow but it damn sure exceeded my expectations. We have pictures of nothing but girls chilling in the kitchen. Don�t believe me? Look! It was just a great party. Although there were a couple moments of drama concerning pinky & Shawna and also with some people showing up that weren�t very welcome due to their involvement in a beating of Adam�s brother�s friend. Of course Adam wasn�t he one that said anything to them but Darryl sure did. Of course there are a few funny stories from that night, they all can be found in the funny stories of summer section. Of course the night had to be tarnished by a visit from Dublin�s finest. I was about to sleep on the lawn again when all of the sudden I see one cop car pull up, then two and then a third. Needless to say they weren�t happy, they punked everybody and the only reason that he didn�t give us all MIPs (at least this is what he claimed) is because of him knowing my dad (my dad�s a cop). So needless to say when they got home I got seriously yelled at by them. Cuz they knew things about the party I didn�t even know. About beer cans being on the neighbors� front lawn, about people puking on the lawns of my neighbors and a lot of other shit. Thankfully the cop left out the part about me being drunk, even though I wasn�t really feelin it by the time they showed up. Needless to say the next time they left I just wasn�t feeling another party. But DAMN, what a fucking party. As far as my social life goes, best time of the summer. My JobS Well, shit. Circuit City was a horrible place to work. Everyday it would be like, man I don�t know if I have a job when I walk in. My warranty level wasn�t� as high as they wanted, but of course either was half of our staff in technology. Kinda ironic that a rubber band would lead to my downfall there. I was playing with a rubber band and talking to some co-workers when I was messing around with it and it kinda accidentally fired and hit my boss�.IN THE FACE (what we she doing with her face near a rubber band? Inside joke). So she got kinda pissed. Ok really pissed. Ok FUCKING ANGRY! But that was like a Monday and nothing happened. Until Sunday. Of course she didn�t tell me that I was on administrative leave until after I worked from 9-10AM to help open the store. ROAR. But they fucked up with there system so I actually got paid for that whole week, almost 40 hours. I also quit like two days later to save the reference since I knew they would fire me for �unproductiveness.� They were looking to fire me because of the warranties, it just so happened that I gave them one hell of a good excuse. Oops But of course I ended up on my feet and in a better position than before. I seem to do that with jobs. I applied to Best Buy the day I got sent home but I didn�t expect them to call me back since they hadn�t in previous applications. I also applied to Home Depot and was planning on Costco as well but since they had no online application and my ass is lazy, I never made it over there. After about a week or so Best Buy called me up for an interview and of course, I got the job. Never been interviewed and not been hired on the spot. Same money too so that�s always nice. Best Buy is sooooooo much better of a place to work. First off, my boss, yeah she�s hot. And she�s like not that much older than me. I don�t have a chance in hell but I mean come on, a hot boss is nothing to be pissed about. Second off the people I work with are so much better than the other people I used to work with. Sure there were some cool people at Circuit City, but there are a lot more at Best Buy. Chris, Eddie, David, Greg, Ryan, Chava and all those other guys in my department are all pretty cool. Sure there�s like one or two that�s like eh�but that�s always going to be there. There are also a lot more girls and a lot hotter girls that I work with/drool from a distance over. I mean Becca works there (trying to score points��.shhhhhh). It�s just also a better overall work environment. I�m not judged by what I do individually since we�re not tracked, the whole department is like a team and we always are fucking around while being very good workers, and don�t forget that the management is so much better. Lea is a good manager (and the hot one) and Jim is one fucking funny guy. So basically, hitting my old manager in the face with the rubber band that led me to go to Best Buy, was the best thing to happen to me in my professional life this summer. SoCal Well during my two weeks of being unemployed Josh had orientation for Long Beach State. I suddenly had all the time in the world to myself so I said fuck it, I�ll go and we can stay at my sister�s and not pay for shit. Would save them (Josh, Rob & Adam) some money plus it�ll be one fuckin good time. Oops. I mean it was all good the first day down there. We got there, played some tennis, got really drunk and then Rob (the sober one) took us to Huntington. Of course Josh decided on the way there to light a cigarette in my car. If I wasn�t a cheerful drunk, I probably would have punched him. Oh don�t worry, I got a second chance. As it was A grabbed him and made him drop it out the window. Josh and I argued most of the night about�..everything because I�m a talkative drunk and he likes to argue most things I say (and I�m the same way). So we ended up almost fighting but he was just being shouty at night so I put my headphones on and went to bed. The next day proved to be a very shitty one with one bright spot. So I had to wake up early and drive Josh to Long Beach for the orientation and then I came back and went to bed. Then Adam & Rob took showers a few hours later and were going to pick up Josh and bring him back since I still had to shower. Of course they ended up taking like 4 hours which sucked cuz I was alone in the apartment forever. I just cleaned my sister�s kitchen, listened to music and then talked to a drunk Happy when he called me. My sis came home and then they finally came home and Josh was just in that mood that I knew something was going to happen. We played a little tennis (which he still owes me money from) and then it was shower time before another night out. I was going to be sober that night so I actually was thinking straight and told them not to drink in my car this time. I told them about 50 times. The last time was with Josh and he said don�t ruin my night and I said as long as you respect my wish not to drink in my car. He agreed. What a lie. They were pissing me off (Adam & Josh) the whole way there intentionally by singing horribly on purpose to songs that they didn�t like that I did. So I was getting more and more pissed. We got into Newport (bout 10 mins from my sisters and 5 from Huntington) and we were at a red light. There were some cute girls next to us so we looked at them and they waved at us and the night was looking pretty good. Went downhill pretty quick because as I turned my head to look at the girls, I saw Josh drinking out of a Gatorade bottle, that just so happened to have beer foam at the bottom. So I sped off on green, brake checked them then stared yelling at Josh. Here�s the conversation. Me: I told you to not fucking drink in my car Josh: I�m not Me: Then what�s in the fucking Gatorade bottle Josh: I�m drinking Gatorade Me: You�re fucking lying, I drank all the Gatorade at my house Josh: We�re not at your house, we�re at your sisters (chuckles) So I did the most logical thing that came to mind. I punched in the face. Around the chin. Of course that changed the mood in the car. He told me to pull over so I did and he got out of the car as did Adam and Rob was like �I got to go too.� So now it was just me by myself. I was so pissed. I mean I hate being disrespected and I got not an ounce of respect by either one of those two that night (Adam�s the one that snuck it in). But I found the perfect way to calm down. I had been talking with Kaylee (who I had known for about 2 years but never actually met) about seeing her while I was down and she was all for it but we weren�t sure when we were going to be able to. So I took a chance being that it was I think past 10PM and called her, she said it was cool so I got the directions and drove the 40 minutes to go see her. I was fighting with Kristen on the way over there so I was even in a worse mood when I got to Kaylee�s. By the time I left though, I was in such a calm mood, it was great. I mean all we did we drive around for a bit and talk outside of her house but it was calming for me. She was there for me back in day during all the Nicole/Happy drama and I�ve been there for her as much as I can. It was nice to finally meet her. Next time I go south hopefully I�ll be able to spend more than a few hours with her. So I drove back and picked up the guys who had walked to Huntington. The next day we came home. I felt kinda fucked having paid over $50 in gas while everyone else paid only $25. Even if I didn�t go to see Kaylee I still would have spent over $35 which is kinda fucked cuz I drove and helped provide the place for us to stay but still got fucked with the gas. And the main reason we were down there was for one person, Josh. Josh Anyone who went to high school with Josh & me knows that we didn�t� really get along in high school. In fact we basically hated each other if we weren�t playing soccer together. We�d always get in fights because back then, he was very stuck up, a lot more now than he is now. That�s why I think him having his fallout with his ex was the best for him because it brought him down to Earth and I think made him appreciate his friends more. After high school we became pretty close friends and we saw each other all the time due to summer soccer and the fact that I drove him either to or from school at least half the days we went to school since he didn�t have a car until right before he moved down south. Now I�m not saying we were the closest friends ever as we still fought and argued about a lot of things but that was just the nature of our two personalities. We�re both opinionated, stubborn and have different views on a lot of things. But either way we spent a shitload of time together just listening to music, going to concerts, playing NCAA and of course, trying to pick up chicks. Every so often we�d get in a fight and after about three days we�d be cool again. Needless to say I thought that after our SoCal incident we�d be cool after a couple days. Yeah, I was so wrong. I didn�t realize I was wrong till about the third day back from SoCal. I had just got done hanging out with Kristen and I called Mark back since he had called multiple times to come over. Of course he said I could come over but they (Adam & Josh) said they didn�t want me there. This would basically be the story of the first few weeks of August till Josh left. Since my friends were hanging out with Josh because he was about to leave, I wasn�t allowed to hang with them at all. That was another reason I decided not to even have a small party while my parents left. I was thinking about one last get together before they both left but that wasn�t happening. The dumbest thing about it was how stupid they were being about it. Like Adam left a couple controllers in my car but he wouldn�t even come up to me and ask me for them, we had Joey go to the door and ask for them. That was just so gay because I mean he couldn�t even ask for the fucking controllers himself. I didn�t even hit him. Then of course Josh didn�t even say goodbye, he was outside my house in his car the day before he left and didn�t even look my way. Of course like five days later it was my birthday. I was talking to Grant and he said that he told both of them to say Happy Birthday to me. Adam did only because he ended up coming over that night to hang out with us. I mean he didn�t really mean it, just said it with all the excitement of announcing a death in the family. But at least he said it. Josh didn�t so of course I semi-grilled him online in my post birthday rant. He responded in an AIM saying that he didn�t forget, he just didn�t give a shit and wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He then blocked me which is, of course, the mature way of handling things (no offense Renata). So basically that�s where it stands. I mean I could go off on him and grill him, expose all his secrets and whatnot. But really why. I mean in the long run, it�s his loss. I don�t understand how this happened, how someone can just change like that. Less than a week before everything happened I was honestly thinking of running away and was planning on it till Renata came over. Josh was very concerned and texted me asking where I was and whatnot. 6 days later he wouldn�t talk to me anymore. And I honestly would do it again. He was just being a total jackass that whole weekend and was disrespecting me by just not following what I had asked him to do. I mean I ended up paying more gas than he did, he didn�t have to pay for a room cuz of me and I drove all those hours. I�m not asking for a medal or anything just a fucking thank you would have been nice. If you�re wondering who my sister is mentioning in her little rant near the end of the update, wonder no more. But whatever, I mean maybe this will blow over eventually like it should have a long fucking time ago but who knows. As for Adam, who fucking cares? We were never close to begin with and he never really respected me at all. Maybe Josh was the same way too, maybe I was just too blind to see it. Music, New Webpage, Concerts & Lyrics I love music. Seriously if it wasn�t for music I would probably have been declared legally insane a long time ago. And I own like 200+ albums and have probably between 2500-3000 songs on MP3. Therefore since I think I know a little bit about music I decided to expand my weak music section on my webpage and create a whole music page with reviews and new bands that you should look at and what not. Here�s a sneak peak at what it will look like. Also if you want to submit your own music review just use this special "My Reply Music" form to submit it. Only at least semi-intellegent ones will be put up but all gredit will be given to you. I won't open the entire page till I get more reviews done then I have now. Also I love going to concerts but unfortunately during the summer there aren�t many concerts to go to because all the bands I like to see are on The Warped Tour. I did go to the Warped Tour though and it was a fucking badass concert. One hell of a drunken time. My friends didn�t want to listen to me that we should show up early so we missed Story of the Year and part of Yellowcard but we did see Taking Back Sunday (SO GOOD) and New Found Glory (pretty good). I was pretty buzzed the whole day but I remember seeing Autopilot Off, Senses Fail and some white guy rapping freestyle. There were many other bands there but after 4 hours and one huge sunburn later, we decided to head home. Good things is that there are a lot of kick ass concerts coming up soon so if you want to go just check out the dates and the prices (after convenience fees) and let me know if you wanna go because I�m going to most of these concerts and I want to go to all of them if I have somebody to go with. All of the concerts are in San Francisco, either @ Slims or the Warfield and they all start at 7 or 8PM. September 10 � Finch - $15 October 5 � Story of the Year/LostProphets/My Chemical Romance/Letter Kills - $26 October 12 � Taking Back Sunday!!/Matchbook Romance/Fall Out Boy - $24 October 15 � Mest/Hawthorne Heights - $15 October 16 � Yellowcard/Starting Line - $31 Also if you�re looking for some new bands to check out check out Letter Kills as they are very very good, kinda like Taking Back Sunday and those kinds of bands but have better vocals (although not as great lyrics as TBS). Just pick it up and you won�t be disappointed and if u are, my bad. Also since I love lyrics so much I started a part of my webpage where I have the lyrics that remind me of certain people. Just go here (or access it from the main page) and click on the name to see the lyrics and the reason why I picked them. Sometimes they remind me of them because of the lyrics and other times it�s just the song that does. My Birthday & The �FUCK YOU� list Well that�s it, I�m finished. I�m now in my 20s (Renata, that�s for you babe) and I�m an old man. Yes on August 19th I turned the big 2-0. Which is gay because I get shit for turning 20. One year till I can legally buy alcohol, not that I�ve been IDd yet. Well my birthday was lining up to be muy gay considering that I had to work from 10-6:30. I couldn�t request if off ahead of time because that was only my first full week on the schedule at Best Buy. So I decided fuck it, I�ll go in there and I�ll look damn good. So I work a new dress shirt with a tie (everyone gasp). Well work wasn�t that bad as my phone was going off a lot and I ended up having like 9 or so voicemails from my friends. Sarah, who btw was the 1st person to say Happy Birthday to me, actually came and in and visited me and brought me a card and everything. After I got off (work that is) I went over to Black Angus and had dinner with my parents. Since there was really nothing I wanted for my birthday they decided to pay a car payment for me. Now I actually have money and I�m not really blowing it on anything. I tried. So after that I went out for a night with my friends. First I stopped off and picked up my cooler @ Josh�s (as he was already out of town) and talked to the bum for a bit. I then went to Grant�s and got an Avril poster as a present. After a while I headed out to Brenda�s (a house one of my friends always housesits) and chilled there for a while. I left to go pick up Chrissy and then I visited Renata for a quick second while the nerd Chrissy read a book she brought along in the car. After that visit to Renata�s which really hurt (more about that in her section) we dropped my car off at my house and Batch picked us up and was off to Brenda�s again. There I got a very great gift given to me by Eric. My own bottle of Bacardi O. I was set for the night. I didn�t really get that drunk but I hadn�t eaten much the whole day as even my dinner was on the lighter side so I got tipsy quick. It was great. The night was pretty decent, some boobs were flashed and I decided at midnight to start calling people who had forgotten my birthday. Yet another excuse for some drunk phone calls. I headed off home via Batch and I went right online after a hug for my dog. Dani was on and I declared that I was walking the two blocks to her house to get a birthday hug. She protested; I ignored. As I was almost there, Bitterglitter Becca called me and I talked to her for about 45 mins till my phone died. Of course siec I was drunk I told her things I probably wasn�t intending to tell her, like my inability so far to get a girl and all that. Oh well. I got tired of waiting for Dani so I walked up to her house till her dogs started barking than ran away and sat on a fire hydrant till she came out. She was pissed, gave me a weak ass hug and told me to get the fuck out there. I did. I then slept and my 20s were underway. Now some of you might have read about the �FUCK YOU� list I was going to write. Basically it was going to be a list of everybody I felt that was important in my life who forgot to say �Happy Birthday� to me. That�s also why I didn�t advertise it was my birthday. Yeah I know, really immature. That�s kinda why I backed off on it when the time came to write it because I simply didn�t care that much anymore. I didn�t feel like calling out all my friends. The only ones that disappointed me greatly were Josh (which you already read about) and Nicole (who called me but it went to my voicemail and she doesn�t leave voicemails so I never knew she called). I did a little rant on that and that was about it. So maybe I�m not a cold-hearted bastard, but dammit, I want to be. My Biggest Problem I�m not perfect and I�m the first one to admit to it. I have my fair share of problems with the low self-esteem, fear of being alone and the inability to hold on to anything valuable in my life. But I think my biggest problem is my fixation on the negative side of life. Not really life, just my life. If you come to me with a problem, odds are I�ll show you how it could be worse and tell you that it can only get better and to not worry about it (and if you�re a girl I�ll probably offer to cuddle with you as well). But with my life, it�s always the bad side that catches my attention. Like the whole �FUCK YOU� list. Seriously why do I focus on those people in my life when I should have been focusing on the people who took the time out of their day to be with me or call me up or text me or even just IM me to say �Happy Birthday.� It�s so ROAR. If I could just get over that problem I think my life would be a much happier one. Well at least I could perceive it as being one. The Girls Of Summer Comin into this summer it was our mission to have the �best summer ever� due to the fact that we�ll probably all never be together again. This meant lots of drinking, lots of crazy nights and lots of girls. If you lined up all of us before the summer started and had to judge who would have the most girls during the summer I probably would have been picked last or next to last. Hell I would have settled for just a couple. I was definitely and overachiever in that sense, yet I still feel empty, like I accomplished nothing. So read on to find out what few know all about, and that is all my girls of summer. My plan for the summer was to just have fun with the girls, don�t fall into like with any of them, just live for the moment. Well you might wonder how I met all these girls and I would like to say just spittin my mad game at them after they were staring at me all night at some party. Yeah that�s what I would LIKE to say. But come on, it�s me, so I became a digital pimp. Well I attempted to. Most of the girls that I met online I added because they seemed cool and I was trying to get a massive amount of girls to come to my party (which worked btw). I didn�t really meet any of them with the intention of ever making out with them or whatever, I guess it just happened that way. I know this list won�t be in chronological order but fuck it. I�m not doing this to brag, just feel like talking bout the different people I met. Girl #1 � Dani Dani actually messaged me online a while back, like in May I think saying she saw me on FacetheJury.com (FTJ) and that I was cute. I was thinking at first that she must be cross-eyed and that somehow I was manifested into a good looking guy with her whacked vision. That was not the case as her eyes were both good and she actually looking above marginal (I cannot say the same for some other girls who have messaged me, but then against what does shit attract? Flies. Ok well it seemed like a good analogy). Well we talked online off and on for a couple months and then in June I was finally able to convince her to sneak out of her house one night to go out with me. We drove around and talked then parked and cuddled for a bit and whatever. It was cool. She then made a brief appearance at my party but I didn�t see her again till my birthday night when I was drunk and walked down to her house for a hug. The next night I saw her again but again it was only briefly as I had gotten some alcohol for her and I was just dropping it off and getting paid for it. I still would like to hang out with her as she is a cool girl but it�s hard as she always seems to be with other people. Who knows? Girl #2 - ????? Not releasing the name as she is a friend and all of my friends know her. We just had a quick kiss at my party when we were both drunk. Not the first time we�ve kissed. So that would be girl #2. Moving on. Girl #3 � Cayleigh Met her at a little get together @ Rob�s on night. I was jocking her from the beginning just because she looked decent and I was in a confident mood. We ended up talking a lot, I gave her a massage and then I was supposed to drive her home to Concord. I tried to get something out of it because it was like 3AM and I�m an asshole trying to make out with a girl cuz she wants a ride somewhere. I�m over it. Well we just cuddled a lil bit and saw some home pierced nipples but apparently she wasn�t in the mood for much else as she had just had a 3-guy train run through her the night before. Definitely the biggest WHORE I�ve ever kissed. So in retrospect I was very glad that nothing happened. Yea I kissed her goodnight a couple times but that was about it. Haven�t seen her since and I doubt I ever will. But I�ll know if she�s ever around because I�ll hear the whistle from a mile away. Girl #4 � Renata This one will be the hardest of all the girls to talk about just because of what our relationship was and how it just went south so quick. It�s just recently hit me how much it sucks. As of right now (8/23) I just got done seeing her and talking to her about everything. And it hurts more now than before. She was just an online girl that I messaged a while back and we really didn�t talk too much. She knew Sarah Reeder and therefore she knew Mark & Josh. But that was about it, we didn�t talk much till around the time of my party because, of course, I wanted the chick to dick ratio to be more chick. Well we were talking a little more and she confided in me for a problem she had and we ended up going out one night for her cuddling dessert (trust me only she gets what I mean). She was cool, nothing really stood out to me about her but it was all good. Then when I was drunk at the pre-party I walked over to her house a couple blocks away while drunk and she stopped by the next two nights for the party and the post-party. Still I mean she was just another girl. Somehow that changed. First we met up @ Warped Tour when I was pretty fucked up and I had my arms around her the entire time Senses Fail played and then when we got back in Dublin we hung out some more. We ended up going out to Applebee�s one night and then to Starbucks and then we decided to go see a movie. I wanted to see Anchorman, she wanted to see The Notebook (ok really she wanted to see Fahrenheit 9/11 but I vetoed that). So we did the logical thing, flipped a coin to see what movie we would see. Of course it landed on Notebook so I was regulated to seeing a huge chick flick. It wasn�t bad and I got to hold onto Renata the whole time plus laugh at all the chicks crying so it wasn�t bad at all. It was time for me to return her home and, like the gentleman I am, I walked her to the front door and I got a goodnight kiss as a reward. Although this was the night after #3 this kinda felt more real, but still I hadn�t really felt the click that I usually do with the girl. I think the next night it changed. We decided to go to Outback then back to her house to watch some Dane Cook (I love Dane Cook). She wasn�t feeling great so I mean we just cuddled on the couch and watched the DVD. But I think it was that night that I started liking her. I mean it just became apparent that we were totally comfortable around each other. We had a bunch in common and we never really had an awkward moment around each other. The night ended with another goodnight kiss and then I headed over to Mark�s to chill in his hot tub. We were talking about all the girls and he said �why don�t you just go for Renata?� I said �we�ll see� which basically means, yeah I know but that wasn�t in my plans. Summer of fun, not the same hurt I was used to. Of course we had some more fun for the summer. Some fucking crazy times. We turned a borin weekday night into a Jack In The Box picnic on her front lawn which turned into some cuddle time which turned into some fun times on her neighbor�s lawn so her dad couldn�t see us :-). Of course a car had to fucking park with its lights on to stop us. ROAR. Who gets cockblocked by a car? I was also able to get the have her for a whole day and do whatever I would like. And I planned it to a freakin T (Not that I really know what that phrase means). First we got some Togo�s and went to a park in Livermore and ate, tried to catch some minnows (ok that was her thing) and then walked the trail some. That was cool because it was basically like we were boyfriend/girlfriend as we would hold hands and kiss all the time. As most of you know I haven�t had something like that before. She was tired so we decided to go rest at my house before we had to head off to dinner at a secret place. She ended up not sleeping at all as I Love The 80s was on and she was glued to it. Well we changed into nice clothes (yes I actually dressed nice, HAH) as we were going to a fancy restaurant. She had no earthly idea where it was but I was told by my friend and sometime mentor, Brad, that this was a nice ass restaurant. It was in Capitola, which for the geographically challenged, is just by Santa Cruz, The restaurant was called the Shadowbrook, and GOD DAMN, it was nice. They had their own herb garden, a bunch of waterfalls with big ass fish in them, a cable car thing to take you from the top of the parking lot to the restaurant if you were too lazy to walk the stairs and the restaurant was right on the river that flows into the Pacific. It was nice. It was expensive. Like seriously I wasn�t sure if the refills were free (thankfully they were). They offered us wine when we set down and at a combined age of 36 we giggled and declined. Of course she also got a squeaky chair which just added to us laughing. Afterwards we went to go walk on the beach cuz I needed to recover from the assrape I had just signed (the bill). It was a nice walk there, and of course we were holdin hands the entire time and the beach was great. It was so funny as she was in a dress as she didn�t know we were going to be by the Ocean and she�d always run from the waves and have to lift her dress up and either run from the waves or hope the waves didn�t weren�t still hella high when they got to her or scream when they did. I still smile thinking about it. I was able to hold on to her and kiss her and tell her she was beautiful. It was great. Call me what u want but that�s what I like to do. We weren�t� able to stay on the beach for more than an hour as she had to be home at a certain time because she got punked the night before for being out too late. Don�t laugh about having a curfew, I�m now 20 and I have a curfew when I have school the next day. Yes I feel stupid. Anywayz, we held hands while driving most the way home and when we got back into town I asked her simply if she would like to keep our relationship the same or what. She said she didn�t like commitment but that she had been thinking about it and she would be thinking about it more. We kissed some more in my driveway and she was off to her house where she would get grounded for a while for lying to her dad. That was the last time we were that close. The last time I saw her before my birthday was when all the shit went down with my parents and grades and shit. I had called her earlier in the day and said to call me when she got off work. Right after I finished getting in the fat ass argument she came called which was probably a really really good thing as I was getting some clothes together at the time since I was planning on running away (not far because I was out of gas). She saw me right away knew I was fucked up because my eyes were all watery and red and shit. We talked about it for a bit and went out in search of makeup and food for her. She dropped me off and I kissed her goodbye. I would have kissed her some more if I only realized it would be the last time I would be given a chance to. Only 6 days later it all went crashin down. I came back from SoCal and I hadn�t had a good time down there as you should have picked up on by reading the other sections. I was waiting for her to go online so I could talk to her as I kinda missed her and wanted to talk. She didn�t the night I got home nor the next day. I went over to Mark�s and went on one of my other screen names and she was online. I was like sick, until I looked to see how much time she had been online. It was something like 14 hours. Um, I had remembering being on my main screen name like 2 hours ago without her being online. WTF!?!? Oh yeah I was blocked. Why? Well her reasoning was that she needed time away from me and that like every time I talked to her I tried to hang out with her. Well duh, I liked hanging out with her so of course I wanted to do it as much as possible. Like always, all the bad things happened at once with my grades, my job, my parents, Renata and my friends�..all within like a week of each other. Shit. To be totally honest with you, it bothered me but I didn�t care too much. Until my birthday that is. Yes it took 17 days to hit me but since then it�s been a fucking bag of bricks. I was planning to grill her hard on my �fuck you� list because I just figured that she�d forget my birthday. I was going to be like wow, I know that you want your time away but wtf, you couldn�t at least say Happy birthday and acknowledge me and blah blah blah. I was planning on telling her off right there. I also was thinking that she would remember and that I would feel like an asshole for thinking she�d forget. Well neither happened. We were chillin @ Brenda�s in P-town and some girl from Dublin High who�s going to be a senior with Renata came over and I asked if she knew Renata and she was like yea. I said yeah, she�s a bitch (she�s not a bitch, that was a lot of frustration comin out), she forgot my birthday. I was hurt by it of course but Sean called her because he was already drunk. She didn�t answer, which was no surprise so he left a voicemail saying that it was my birthday and was trying to get her to come over or something. Of course 30 minutes later my phone rings and it�s Renata saying Happy Birthday and that she didn�t forget (which was bullshit and she claimed later that she forgot, I mean who calls @ 10:30 to wish somebody happy birthday). I asked if I could go over to see her and she said I could. I was not ready for the impact if would have on me. I went over there and for the first time since I had known her, it was awkward for us. She didn�t know about my new job and we weren�t talking like we usually do. We agreed that we had to get together sometime soon to talk about everything. As I was going to leave, I hugged her and I wanted so bad to kiss her but I knew I couldn�t and that sucked so bad. So I kissed my fingers, put them to her lips and then kissed her hooded head. She said later that she almost cried after that. The feeling was mutual. I told Chrissy, who was waiting in the car, that �that sucked.� Something was wrong and I had to know why. Four days I got my answers. I�m still confused. We went for our talk on the 23rd and we didn�t really talk for the first 20-25 minutes we were together. Talk about the problems that is, we did talk. I had a couple songs stuck in my head (Fall Out Boy) so I listened to them and when I was done, I turned down the stereo (I was driving) and asked, what happened between us. She first repeated what she said and I was like well what happens now. Then the first punch to my gut was thrown. She had, between the time she blocked me and that day, starting seeing someone else. I finished her sentence for her because I knew what she was going to say. She said that I had always treated her great but that she was bad and that I didn�t deserve someone like her and that I deserved better. I protested saying that I should be able to decide what I deserve. I asked her to prove how she was bad. All she came up with was the blocking and how immaturely she handled it (which yeah, blocking someone you�re close to is pretty gay) and that she had starting seeing someone else (and btw, they decided not to see other people). I said �yeah but how were u bad when we were together� (or whatever we were). And she couldn�t come up with anything. I told her that she was the closest thing that I�ve ever had to a girlfriend, that our day in Capitola was just so great (which is was, probably one of my best days of the summer), that I didn�t push the physical stuff because it wasn�t that big of a deal, I was happy with how our relationship was (which she thanked me for as she never really had a guy be as laid back or whatever in those regards), that we really didn�t hang out that much (we counted seven hang outs, she was shocked), that I never cared what she looked like, that I knew she looked good and when she didn�t try I didn�t worry about it. Also any flaws she had I looked past because I knew she was a better person because of them and that with this guy she was seeing, that I couldn�t� control how she lived her life and I wouldn�t never be upset with someone for living there life as they see fit, that I was just upset that what I liked, the good times, were over. That her and I were over. And that it really sucked. I was kinda losing it at that time and those were basically my closing statements as we were pulling up to her house. I had said that we�d probably never be together and that I knew that and she said never say never. But she saw how I was (the only other girls I�ve ever cried in front of because of them have been Nicole, Hallie & now Renata) and she told me to get out of the car and she hugged me for a while. She said I was a �great guy� who she �learned a lot from� and that she, of course, wanted to still be friends. I was just in an overall shitty mood that night and went to bed after I talked to some people about it. The next day I was feeling shitty every time I thought about it and I thought I wasn�t going to be able to eat. But I slept after school and before work and I was hungry when I woke up. But when it was dead at work I was thinking sometimes and every time I did, my stomach turned. That was today. I just have to wrap up my overall feelings as this has turned into a very long part of this section. Not that Renata isn�t deserving of the space, but you don�t want to read all of this. I don�t know what to think about all of this. I can�t explain to you how much I feel for this great girl. Seriously I can�t. I mean I think about her and it�s like damn, how the fuck am I in her life, I�m not this good. But when I�m with her, it�s so great. I mean its like she can salvage my day by meeting up with me, even if I�ve had the shittiest day in the world. All of the sudden, it�s not so bad. But this pain is. It seriously hurts so bad, I haven�t hurt this bad since the days of Nicole. And at least I knew I fucked up back then, I don�t know what happened here. Is it possible to do just about everything right and still end up feeling like this? I don�t know, maybe I took her for granted, maybe I didn�t tell her how I felt about her enough or maybe I did too much. I seriously am wandering around without a clue. I don�t understand what I did wrong or what I just didn�t do or whatever to make it so she wouldn�t commit to me but she would commit to somebody else. And it sucks and it hurts so bad. Like every time at night when I don�t see her online I think man, she�s probably with him right now, I wish I could be. I will like her for a while, and maybe we�ll end up together, maybe we�ll end up friends for life, or maybe I�ll end up remembering her years from now wondering what happened to her. Whatever way it goes I just have to say that as far as my personal life goes, she was the best thing to happen to me during the summer. I�ve rarely felt so happy with a girl as I did that day with her on the beach and I�ve never had so much fun in such a short time with a girl as I did with her. Maybe we�ll recapture it someday, I guess we�ll see. In the meantime, I�m going to bed to lie down as I don�t feel like being awake anymore. 8/29 Update: Our relationship is ever changing and I�m so confused. It�s like that character in the movie that you don�t know what he is. One minute he�s a bad guy, the other he�s the good guy. All I know is I�m still �sprung� off her and for the time being I will be. Like Bitterglitter Becca said, it�ll take a hell of a motherfucker to break me. (she was of course talking about herself at the time) >Sigh< I guess this is one of those "To Be Continued" segments. Yes we call all that��my heart on my sleeve. Girl #5 � Becca (San Leandro) Becca was kinda of a short lived thing. I met her when Kristen (girl #6) called me up to see me since I hadn�t seen her in like 10 months. I was really bored so I drove to Stoneridge to see her as they were chillin in the parking lot waiting for another one of Kristen�s guys to show up. Becca and Kristen were there and Becca and I were talking and in like no time she was in my lap. Kristen was with her other guy so I figured hey, I�ll take the friend, I don�t care. Becca and I had a lot in common with music and things like that. Before the left I was able to get her number and kiss her a few times. A couple days later we hung out again and it was a very good night. I mean she was like askin, what do you think of me and all that shit, makin it seem like she wanted me to be interested and go out with her. One problem. During that time (which was a Sunday-Wednesday) she had either one or two boyfriends depending on the day and had sex with a minimum of about 3 different guys. Yea dirty dirty dirty dirty dirty DIRTY ho. And she�s a liar, she does nothing but lie. So she annoyed me a lot with all the lying and it went downhill really quick. Plus she was a dirty ho. Girl #6 � Kristen Kristen I had known last summer briefly and we started talking again. She goes through guys quick though (not in a sexual way, just a relationship way) so like I knew nothing was going to happen as far as relationship went because she just has flavors of the week. So we had some fun during the summer but me liking Becca for that brief time led her to be pissed at me a lot since I think she kinda liked me and that was just all complicated. I mean we still hang out every so often and she�s cool and all that but nothing happens except the occasional kissing. She�s cool so I mean we�ll still remain friends until I piss her off again. Girl #7 � Bitterglitter Becca Man I worked hard to just be her friend. I had IMd her off and on since JANUARY and we started actually talking in mid JULY. If you can�t charm them, wear them down is what I always say. She seemed like a very cool person to talk to from her profile so I just kept on it till she talked. She worked at Best Buy when I worked @ City but then of course I started workin @ BB so she said fuck it, I�ll meet up with you since I�m going to have to work with you anyways. Before that she had been kinda cold on that subject due to not being over her ex. One time she did offer to hang out at some caf� thing but of course my wingman Josh decided to be a party pooper (as Brandie calls him) and not want to go. Oh well. Well anywayz Becca was a very cool person and we talked for a while after we saw Collateral (MY CAR IS IN THAT MOVIE!) and then we hung out the next day for like 8 hours and cuddled a lil on the couch watchin��.DANE COOK (he�s my new wingman). I walked her to my car and I went for the goodnight kiss and it turned into a bigger kiss. She got freaked out about it later because she didn�t want anything happening. Kinda upset me that I saw all these stop signs she had posted but I kinda ran them all thinking it wouldn�t catch up to me. It did. What I mean by that is all the issues she was having with her ex that basically meant that I shouldn�t even try, but I did. Sucked for about a day or so, not long because it wasn�t like I had liked her forever. I also think having her as my �interest� for the time I did pushed my feelings for Renata away for the time being because as soon as Becca went away, everything started surfacing about Renata and my feelings. But now she has another guy who she�s going out with and he�s gotten her to forget about her horrible ex-boyfriend so I�m happy for her. At least she moved on and is happy. We�ll just be friends. The �Friend Zone� again. So yeah�I guess it�s possible to go places yet get nowhere. I mean there were other girls too that I either talked to or hung out with a little. Girls like Bev, Heather, Ashton and Lacy but these mainly were the girls of summer. Brandie happened while I was in school so I don�t count her. So I mean I can�t say it was a bad summer with girls, but I basically came out of it with nothing but a couple more friends (which is good) and some hurt in my heart (which isn�t very good). I still am frustrated on my lack of whatever it is that makes it so I still don�t have a girl to commit with. Funny Stories/Lines of the Summer Shawna: I prefer black Me: We know If you don�t know Shawna then it�s not very funny. Also the fact that it was a quick comeback while I was a bit tipsy makes it really funny. Maybe you just had to be there. The day after my party Joey called me up and said that he left some presents in the pool. This fucker actually was so drunk that he grabbed paper and a highlighter and wrote messages to put in empty bottles and then sent them off in my pool. The best one said �Great Party Dawg, Love your bros.� I still have it Sean: It smells like fish in here. Alison: My bad Again the day after my party, Alison & Shawna come over to help clean up the house and they go in my parents bedroom to look for...something. Anywayz unknown to them someone (me) had just taken a morning after shit and had done it in the master bathroom. It took them about 5 or so seconds in the room to say something smells and rush to evacuate the room. I was proud. Sean, Rob, Josh & I went up to Davis one night to get drunk @ Jon�s. I didn�t drink because I wasn�t feelin it but they sure did, especially Jon (I know, gasp). Well besides drinking till 6AM, elbow dropping me for trying to sleep and just being his funny drunk self, the people above his apartment were having sex. Apparently they do it a lot as they always hear her moaning. They left their window open so Jon took it upon himself to add to the moment with his comments. So, standing outside under the open window he was saying stuff like �oh yeah, take it like a whore, you�ve been doin it for a while now� or �damn he must be working that shit good� or �maybe she workin it on you� or even �You moan like a whore.� It was so damn funny as he went on for a couple minutes and we didn�t hear too much moaning after that. Also drunk Jon decided that my flag hanging outside of my house didn�t look good where it was. That�s why the day after my party I woke up and it was on my roof. He has a history of flag throwing is what I�m being told. �I was having erection difficulties. We had different views on what was wrong. She bought me Viagra, I bought her a treadmill.� ~Jim Norton From the party: I was chillin outside with a girl on my lap and Eric had just called me so I put my phone on my lap as well. Well she turned and her elbow hit my phone and it went in the pool. Only I was too drunk to realize it at first. First thing I said was damn that sucks for somebody, their phone just went in the pool. After I felt my pockets and realized it was my phone, I was less happy. I realized what I had to do: jump off my roof into my pool to get it. And I did. I was fearful that I would lose all my number that I had so I went around with a piece of paper and wrote down everybody�s number. Hell I even got some girl�s number right in front of her boyfriend. Funny that it looks like I was having a seizure when I wrote it. So basically it looks like my normal handwriting. Of course I had to go in the pool again. I was punking someone for something and Jon was behind me. As I was walking back toward the house behind Jon, he took a couple chairs that were just sitting there and threw them in the pool for no reason. I ran into the house, got my trunks on, ran through the house with just my trunks on and jumped off the roof again into the pool to get them. Go me. Also this one guy I didn�t like showed up at the party and he�s a total asshole. He�s an 18 year old fucking a 14 year old. So they�re both there and I know them since he worked with me and she�d go in there all the time. Well they walk in and I was like hey to the guy then I screamed �HEY 14 YEAR OLD� and gave her a hug. Apparently he was punked form the party by the duo of bouncers, Joey & Sean, a quick time later. I had just gotten back from Capitola with Renata and after I dropped her off I went over to Josh�s and we went to go get some Wendy�s. Well they take forever to cook your food so we were behind this Bronco with two girls in it and I decided to use the patented Mark line and as they were driving away I yelled out �I Love You�; smooth I know. So anywayz they look over and they go park by KFC to eat and I tell Josh to go drive by there and I�ll hit on them. Well of course he doesn�t want me to �embarrass myself� so he doesn�t stop and I have to scream out �I Love You� once more. So right when we get to Josh�s I get in my car and race off to Wendy�s. As I�m driving there I see them on the other side so I flip an illegal bitch and speed up to them. They pull to the side and I talk to them and the one girl thought I said �Fuck You� but I corrected her. I ended up getting her number although nothing came of it. I just liked to show it off that night in Josh�s face because he said not to embarrass myself. OK to get this one you�re going to need a little background. I used to have a manager @ Circuit City named Luke who has a lazy eye and one of his eyes and brown and the other is blue. Ok well now that you know this then you�ll get the funny. A group of about 12 of us are getting ready for our fantasy football draft online (which of course is for money) and we�re chatting and shit before the draft starts. Luke enters the room. I almost pissed myself. Luke: I want to thank you all for your donation this year. Chris: If the money goes toward fixing your eye then I�m happy to donate. When asked if she was advocating that girls get into the adult film industry, Jenna Jameson, the queen of porn, had this reply that I found really funny. �No, no no. It�s a long hard road.� ~Jenna Jameson Long hard road huh? Mark was challenged by Amy to prove that he had as big of a dick as he said he did. So Mark is drunk as hell and goes on his computer and starts trying to get hard but he ain�t getting hard at all. He�s just yelling from his computer, �It�s not happening, I�m too drunk to get hard.� Now I know you�ve probably heard of the story from last year�s party where Jon hopped my fence and ran away for about 45 minutes till we found him. Well I matched him this year. I decided to leave my pre-party towards the end of it cuz I wanted to go see Renata (this was before we were anything). So I was on the phone with Heather while I walked the 2 blocks there and then I AIMd Renata from my phone telling her that I was outside. Of course my friends called and they got direction from Renata to her house. When they showed up, I sprinted away, for about 1/8 of a mile till I got tired. Oh well. After the night of puking that Shawna and Alison had during the pre-party the night before, they both said at the party that they weren�t going to drink that night. They were right, they didn�t drink that night. They started in on the keg @ 4AM. Savage. A Message From My Sister :-) Yes as hard as it is to imagine, I didn�t come up with the website idea by myself, I copied my sister�s webpage in the beginning before I decided to change it up. But if you ever have wondered where I learned how to write my mean rants, wonder no further. This is all her own doing that she sent me through �My Reply� one day and well, she decided to have a �Mo�s Rant� I guess. Well just read it. ~I must say that throughout the years with Adam he has definitely been a jackass at times (I taught him how) and sometimes that overshadows who he really is. He is nothing if not a loyal, passionate, and generous person to all of his friends and the people in his life. He really doesn't ask for much in return, just respect and acceptance for who he is. I have met some of his friends and they are truly caring individuals who accept him for who he is and are grateful to have him in their life, ie Hallie. However, I have also seen some pricks that Adam has made the mistake of calling his friends. People who my brother took time out of his life to help that have turned around and pissed on the friendship that he gave them. Perhaps a punch in the face is a proper send off to someone who disrespected Adam and disregarded the one thing he asked for. Who gives a fuck if you wanted to do differently? You were in his car, it was his ass if he got pulled over, and he had already done enough for you that for you to disobey his one request, is juvenile and to put it in a term you may understand, fucking retarded. The saying "When in Rome, do as the Romans do" is used loosely, but can be applied to this situation. Adam and I have fought our share of fights and said our share of hurtful things to each other, but as we have grown older and funny enough moved farther away from each other, we have grown closer. I think that anyone would be lucky to call him a friend, but I am the luckiest one since I am the only one who can call him my brother. Fuck you to anyone who does him wrong. You are lucky that I am not living up north because I would make your life a living hell. You fuck with my brother, you fuck with me and I love revenge. If you are too stupid and immature to see a good person when you have one right there, it is ultimately your loss. Adam, just remember this, those who make fun of you and those you try to bring you down are not as strong as you think they are. They are just weak people full of insecurities who try to give themselves a glimmer of happiness by fooling themselves into thinking they are better than you. They are not. You are a strong person with a lot to offer. Believe in yourself and forget the negative "friends" in your life. They are not really friends, they are toxic friends. I hope you will find the confidence within yourself to be who you want to be and pursue your dreams. Not every girl is going to treat you well, they may break your heart. Not every friend is going to be as good of a friend to you as you are to them. I know that you have what it takes to succeed in life, work, school, and love, but just remember to be patient. Learn from my mistakes -- the first so-called love is definitely not going to be the great love of your life. I wish you everything good in the world little brother. I hope that your 20's turn out to be the best of your life. Love: Your Big Sis Maureen~ And you thought I didn�t know how to hold back? I�m the calmer of the 2 Nagy children. And I found it rather ironic when she said �pissed on that friendship� when one of the things Adam and I were argueing about was that he said I wasn�t being respectful toward his car driving the keg and I countered saying it was an accident but how about all the times you piss on my car INTENTIONALLY. He just laughed. What a jackass. Random Last Thoughts Happy is comin back from September 3-16. Why do I feel like there�s going to be a few Jackson runs mixed in with a lot of drinking? Why do I also feel that there�s a good chance we�ll be doin both at the same time? Hallie is coming back September 27-October 10. Thank god. My movie buddy is back and more importantly, one of my closest friends is back. Mission while she�s back is not to cry when she leaves again. Shit. September is probably going to be one ghey month. I�m just waiting to get through it because the first 16 days of October look to be some really really really good ones. Three concerts, Hallie being home and another kinda big thing (to me at least) which I won�t mention cuz I�m not sure of it yet. And I�d rather be disappointed by myself then have all of you ask what happened. We�ll see how that all goes. I wrote a new poem entitled "My Heart Remains" , go me. I also found an old poem I wrote called "Frustration" And I worte that peom because school started and I need something to do while the teacher talks...I only have to show up 3 days a week. Of course I overslept the 2nd day of English and felt like a complete jackass. I�m surprised, two times of being home alone this summer and no major breakdowns from being alone. No I�m not over my fear of being alone but dammit, it�s better. Nicole is officially a Spartan. Not only that but she�s started all their games so far. I�m going to go see her tonight (September 3rd��Happy Birthday Heather) at Spartan Stadium. Be one proud moment, even if I didn�t do too much to get her there (besides a term paper of course) 21 pages? Holy shit I write a lot. In Closing Well another fun filled summer is over and so is another long ass site update. My bad. I need to learn how to be more concise. Fuck it, I�m over it. I started it on August 2nd and I then left it alone until the 23rd. A lot of words but I mean, it was a whole summer and some people that were involved in the summer deserved to be talked about a lot. Some people didn�t as well but they were still talked about due to their assholeness. And now time for the long winded recap. Let�s all take a deep breath and spout out what we learned today (well probably over the course of a few days considering it�s length). We learned��.that Grant�s dad�s death brought us all together one last time, I met somebody named Brandie, I�m now on the road to alcoholism, I know how to throw one big ass party, I have a new, better job, SoCal sucked ass, Josh is being�yeah, I love music and I�m going to a lot of concerts, I�m opening up a music page in the near future plus there�s a new subsection on the main page, My first day in my 20s was alright, I have a pessimistic problem, I met a lot of girls this summer, Renata was the best one, there are a lot of funny stories over the summer, my sister can be a real bitch when upset (I�ve known that for a long time, you just learned it) and other random goodies. As always I updated other parts of the site like the friend page and I also added the new subsection. And if you want to dispute something, use �My Reply� and bitch at me. Until next time (not counting my random rants) when my house will be all fucking bright, don�t die because then that�ll be one less hit on get on my website. Until Further Notice, Adam �Sign the Guestbook Fuckers� Nagy Use "My Reply" to speak back against this site update Replies from previous updates |
