| September journal, con't. |
| September 22, 2001 It's been a while since I last posted here. I've been keeping busy with my walking and the kids, etc. I am still in shock over what happened on the 11th but my heart is warmed by the way our country has come together to help it's own. Last Saturday (a week ago today) when I went for my early morning walk I saw so many American Flags being flown and candles sitting on porches, driveways and sidewalks. Today, driving around town, I saw firemen in the streets collecting money to help those who need it. Anytime I turn on the t.v. I'm reminded of the great number of people who have come forward to donate blood, homemade food, money, time, resources and supplies. I'm reminded of the vast number of people who are praying, even at this very moment. I'm so proud to be an American. I'm proud of my fellow Americans and their strength. I've been doing good. So far no problems. I've been tollerating all foods so far very well. That kinda scares me because I can feel the pull to eat emotionally and if I am tollerating too much, will I give in? I need to keep praying when that pull hits me hardest. I want this surgery to work for me. September 25, 2001 Whooo hooo!!! I weighed at the cardiologists office today. I'm down 10 more pounds!! That makes a total of 36 since surgery. I feel really good. I have noticed lately that a lot of my clothes are just too big on me now. I even have a ring on that I haven't worn in a long time. Now I know why :) My blood pressure was up but my doctor wasn't too concerned with it and is going to check it again in January. In the mean time it will be checked by my surgeon and primary doctor when I see them. As Mike and I were driving around town this morning we came up to a red traffic light. It only took seconds for the wonderful smells from the local Sizzler restaurant to come wafting into our car. Talk about head hunger!!! Wow! My first instict was to say, "ya know, I'm getting pretty hungry." But was I really? Nope. For so long I've given in to those smells and let them dictate my eating. I need to learn not to do that anymore. It's getting slightly easier. I've noticed that even though something smells good to me, often times it isn't as rewarding in my mouth or tummy anymore. It's a weird feeling but I'm glad for it. I've decided to let myself enjoy the smells. Why not? There's no calories or fat there. That's where I've decided it begins and ends for me now. Just enjoy the smells for what they are and not let them make the important decision of what I will nourish my body with anymore. Some days it's easier than others. Wish me luck... September 29, 2001 I have my 6 week doctor visit coming up this week. I'm excited to go, I never thought I'd actually LIKE checking my weight. LOL I also have a support meeting on Wednesday. I'm really looking forward to that. I have had a lot of back/neck/shoulder/tmj pain recently. I think this has a lot to do with my weightloss because it's happened when I've lost weight in the past. I hope it doesn't take too long for my body to adjust. I'm tired of hurting. The knee is doing a little better, that's good. |
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