| May/June 2002 |
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| May 10, 2002 I think I'm starting to slim down again. I got really side tracked in my eating and exercise for a while but as soon as I cut out sugar, started drinking my water the way I should, stopped drinking with my meals and started making more of an effort to get my walks in...presto! It's like magic! I'm finding it's like everyone says...if you just follow the rules, the weight will come off and you'll feel great! :) June 3, 2002 Boy have I been lazy about my journaling recently! I have great news though...I had a check up at my surgeon's office on May 30th. It's official...I've joined the century club!!! I'm so happy! Actually I've lost 101 lb. since my surgery, even better! When Evelyn compared the fat loss vs. muscle gain she told me I've actually lost 114 lb. of PURE FAT! Isn't that something! What a feeling! I've had a lot going on in my personal life recently. My husband was in an auto accident. He's ok, sore, but ok. THANK GOD!!! His car is totalled and it has really made me think about what life would be like without him. I'm so glad I don't have to find out just yet. We will be celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary on the 27th of this month. We are both so excited and proud. We've been through a lot together. We have three beautiful children together and a love like I could never have dreamed of. He is everything to me. We are planning on spending two nights on Catalina Island to celebrate. I can't wait. I'm so excited cause I know he is proud of how I look and so am I. I won't feel so self conscious wearing a swim suit in public, I won't have to worry about not fitting in a restaurant booth, etc. We plan on going snorkeling, neither of us has done that before. I'll post pictures when we return! June 13, 2002 Still trying to get organized and packed for our vacation. It seems like the harder I try the slower I get! LOL Ah well, by this time Tuesday I will be relaxing in a beautiful hotel room on an island with the love of my life. :) I've had a couple more people in recent weeks make the remark to me that I'm smaller than they are now. It's weird, I know these people mean absolutely no harm, but it comes off as if they are mortified that they now weigh more than or wear a larger size than "the fat chick". What am I supposed to say when someone reacts this way? Do I apologise for upsetting the balance of things? Do I pretend like I don't hear it? Do I try to build them up? I've run into different forms of jealousy in varying degrees over the last 10 months since my surgery (10 months today, infact!) and I'm always at a loss as to how to handle it. I don't want to seem like I'm rubbing my success in anyone's face or come off boastful and insensitive. But at the same time, I'm damn proud of where I'm at and I don't feel like hiding that! I've worked very hard for this and I still work hard to this day. I know I always will. I've also noticed in the last couple of months that I've gotten looks from men I don't know. It used to be that I was virtually invisible to most men. They never look at a fat girl unless it is to snicker (and yes, I've actually had guys point and laugh at me in the past). But now I'm noticing a difference and to be honest, it makes me uncomfortable. One or two of my husbands friends have commented on my weight loss and my new figure and that doesn't bother me. I know these people and I know they would never even consider doing anything stupid. To me it's flattering, but more than that...it's safe. It's when I get looks from men I don't know that I'm very uncomfortable. Not real sure how to get past this yet. I'll let ya know when I figure it out. :) June 25, 2002 We had a fabulous time on our vacation! Catalina was just the perfect spot. We both enjoyed getting away and being carefree so much. We laid out on the beach the first day and later that night took the flying fish boat tour. The next day we went snorkeling and I actually stuffed myself in to a wet suit! Who knew?! LOL It was so much fun. We also did a lot of shopping, had some good food, enjoyed the view from the balcony of our hotel and of course walked a LOT! :) I have posted some pictures for ya...go take a look! When we went to pick up our wet suits and snorkel gear the gentleman outfitting us needed to know our weight to get the proper sized wet suit. He hesitated to ask my weight as he does with all women. Boy did I surprise him when I joyfully blurted out my true weight! LOL I told him I had lost over 100 lb. and I had no problem telling him exactly what I weighed. ;) June 27, 2002 Happy Anniversary, My Love. Words cannot fully express the depth of my affection for you. You are everything to me. You are my comfort, my rock, my peace of mind. You are my best friend, my soulmate and my lover. It is your company I prefer above all. You keep me grounded; you help to me soar. You have always believed in me. You loved me as much at 301 lb. as you do now. You saw the beauty in me all along that others are only beginning to see. I am so proud to be married to you and to carry your name. I see all the best of you when I look into the faces of our precious children. These last 10 years have passed so quickly. I am proud of this milestone in our life together and I look forward to celebrating many more of them with you. I love you. Yours forever, "Mylo" |
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