| So here I am, doing everything I can, holding onto what I am, pretending I'm a superman. Trying to keep the ground on my feet, it seems the world's falling down around me. The nights are all long, I'm singing this song, to try and make the answers more than maybe, And I'm so confused about what to do, sometimes I want to throw it all away. So here I am, looking older all the time, growing older all the time, feeling younger in my mind. I'm trying to sleep, I've lost count of the sheep, my mind is racing faster every minute. What could I do more? Yeah I'm really not sure, I know I'm running circles but I can't quit. And I'm so confused about what to do, sometimes I want to throw it all away. |
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| Sunday, February 10, 2002 6:56pm | ||||||||
| I guess it's just because I'm really honest with myself and others that I don't understand what motivates people to stay in situations that don't please them. OH god damn I am a hypocrite. That's not what I meant to say. I will rephrase: I guess it's just because I'm not stupid that I don't understand why people do stupid things. Basically: Billy, why are you so dumb? Otherwise I am great. I take pride in knowing how to turn on my television downstairs and if you know how as well, you should too. Take pride that is. Oh I think Jeff Corwin is on tonight. Awesome. I really and truly get London Broil for dinner tonight. I am so excited. Oh god i am so excited. yay yay yay yay. I just ate. It was so so good. Yum. Weird things continue to happen to people I know. Me, nothing recent except this guy came to buy candy today (at work) and he seemed just like a friendly guy. He said "what do I want?" and I told him he wanted the Lindt truffles beecause he looked like he would like those (a la chocolat "it's your favorite"). So he goes "okay but you have to share them with me." So I sold them to him and then he didn't go away. And then he opened the candy and ate some and was like "aren't you going to have some?" Um, no. Thanks. He just acted really confused, like I had some obligation to have some of his candy. And this was like a normal guy, not like the retarded people who sometimes come and act real nice. weird. Sleeping feels really good when you're tired. Okay here is your thing of the day. Okay, if you go here, there's this article I can't link you to (I am so sorry) about how this town passed a law pretty much outlawing anything sexual in public. If you feel like looking at it, go to my link, go all the way down to the bottom of the page, and click "3 day recap." The 21st article listed is entitled "Locust Passes Nudity Ordinance." This really is a step forward on the road to having a facist government. I really wish I could link you but it won't work. |
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