I sat in my room, looking at pictures of Tay and I. The ones from Christmas last year, tore at my heart, and I started crying again. I reached fo rmy razor, and lifted up my sleeve, to see i didn't have anymore spots left on my arms. i shook my head, and started to put the razor, when I looked at the back side of my arm. it was blank. i put the razor away.

The memories of that week, were agonizing. 'I thought he loved me' went through my head. I stood up, and walked slowly over to my dresser. sitting on top was a picture of Taylor and me sitting on a bench at the park. I smiled grimly at the memory ast eh tears came with avengence down my cheeks. I picked up the picture and threw it across the room. Shattered glass flew everywhere!
I colasped in my spot and cried my heart out. "i'm not going to be able to make it through this." I mumbled to myself. "I hate him, I hate him I HATE HIM!" I screamed and pounded the floor.

Exhaustion pulled in, and I fell back agaiisnt my dresser. "I hate him."

Unfortenly, Taylor was in no mood to josh with his brother.
"shut up, stupid ass hole." Taylor mumbled back. He flopped down on the hard hotel bed and sighed. "What the hell is the matter with you Taylor?!" Isaac asked, with a scowl on his face. He was sick of see his usually happy brother mope arund the hotel as if his world has ended.

"Fuck you." Taylor mumbled.

Someone knocked on the door, and they all hesitated to anwser. They knew it was their father, but they still didn't want to talk to him. They all knew he was going to chew taylor out.

Taylor sighed, got off the bed and walked to the door, then opened it.

And as he expected, his father stormed inside and started yelling:
"Taylor have you gone mad? first you tell everyone that you had a girlfriend, and then you refuse to anwser any of the questions, and not to be rude, but that was your worst performance yet!"

Taylor stared blankly at his dad. "Are you finished yet?" He asked.

"Taylor boy, get your act together! We're talking 7 years of hard work down the drain because..." walker trailed off. "Exzactly. why are you failing like this?"

Taylor sighed and opened the door. "Leave when you choose to. if you don't, I will." He repiled. "Don't talk back to me!" walked bellowed. Diana came rushing in.

"Walker, shhh. Zoe and Mack are sleeping, and your gonna get us kicked out if you don't shut up!" DIana looked over at taylor and noticed how disstressed he was. "Oh honey, why don't you come back with me, hmm?" Taylor sighed and nodded. They left the room and headed back to hers.

"Another day, a new start." I repeated to myself as I brushed my hair and got ready for school. I wasn't really looking forward to it, but it was the last week until winter vacation.

I ran down stairs, picked up my lunch, that was sitting on the kicthen counter, then headed outside to feel the nosebiting cold air rush against my face.

As I impatently waited for the school bus to come, Alyssa came running down the hill.

"did you see Hanson on letterman last night?!" She screeched.

I looked at her blankly. "Taylor used to be my friggin boyfriend. why would I watch the friggin band on tv?" She rolled her eyes.

"ohhh! You should have seen taylor and what you've done to him! wow." She sighed and shook her head. "Anyway, if you come over tonight, we can watch it." I shook my head no, in a week protest. "Oh, why not? Your coming over and thats that." She ordered. I laughed.

"Fine, fine. I'll go." She nodded and smiled. The bus finally came and we all got on.

"I'm sure she is mad at you sweetie. But I think she has a logical reason to." His mother replied.

Taylor looked up at his mom. "thanks for helping."

Diana sighed. "I know, not much... maybe you'll be able to talk to her about this when we get back home."

taylor choked out a laugh. "Talk to me? Ha! yeah right. she'd probably try to kill me or run off before she listened."

"maybe."

"You ready?" Lyssa asked me after school as we loaded on the bus.

i looked over at her and raised an eyebrow. "does it seem like it?"

"Bitchy bitchy." She replied, then smiled widely. "Your gonna have to face up to this sooner or later. Why not sooner?"

I shook my head and looked out the window of the bus.
taylor sat on my front porch.

I looked over at alyssa, who was chatting with one of the cutest guys in class. I sighed and got off the bus after it stopped.

"hello taylor." I said stiffly.

"hey." he replied. He picked up a white rose and a small teddy bear and handed them to me.

I smiled grimly and thanked him softly.

"I need to talk to you." he said. "Like right now. you busy?"

I looked him in the eye and nodded. He sighed. "Make it fast." I demanded.