These Other women I have sudenly become aware of, your need to "chat", your occasional guilt ridden paniced hiding away within yourself and backing away... Did you get into this /us far furtehr than you wanted and now you don;t know how to get abck out again without hurting me??
Right now I miss you.. really miss you.
Entwined within you.
You as part of me
enhanced , magnified
within you, without you
open to you
all of me living cell by cell
floating though not with you
lost in you
more aware
She and I caught up in the room this afternoon. You are right... it proved to be a most interesting conversation. What initially disturbed me was the fact she seemed to know as much about your real time movements as did I, and I was unaware you had let anyone else this close. I do admit to jealousy, a falre of nauseating heat that rippled across the back of my neck...
It hurts me you walked away from meeting me, and into searching for anotehr raltionship..into a "caring" immediately almost with someone else ..God that hurts!
Who are you really whom I have loved so totally and so trully for so long?? I thought WE loved, you and I. Was it? Is it just me?? I believed it was we two. I have lived my life for so long believeing in something that exists only in me.
Each time I sensed soemhing was NOT right, I was right.
When I tried to walk away because of this, WHY did ou not let me go???
