always part of me now
the very heart
the deepest soul
within me
You are my completion. Mike believes you are the only thing that has kept me grounded, earthed and sane ( nice son that one!!)
Even this short time without you is agony. Even these moments drag ...curl here in the warmth, freezing, burning heat...heart absent - letting this run with me, taken away...here, now. Emptiness gapes before me and leaves me hollow. Days nights....endless, empty. I ache for you. Here. Now. Always.
This takes me down under again, like a wave it rises and drags me down. In the dark moments soemthing in me seeks you - can you not feel me?
tears
cleansing
drowning
edifying storms
emotion tossed
you
health
strength
safety and refuge
my only peace.
I flicker up and above it again; lying on my side, aware that my hand is resting just THERE, holding this book wherein I write my heart and soul. My life is only lived within these pages. My life with you, for myself, and for you; around you. I have no life, ...what matters if it is day or night??
There is nothing else that brings me any measure of joy, or delight.
And if you ever seek to know what loving sounds like ...You hear it in my voice..
Always.
