How do you begin to describe the love of your life? Doug is my strength when I'm weak, my laughter when I'm sad, my encourager when I doubt myself, my sanity when I'm insane. Doug once said before I came along he had no self confidence. We are totally different,,he goes to bed early,I go to bed late,he gets up early,I get up late. He loves the snow I love the sunshine. He is full of energy I am totally drained. This past July we celebrated our 8th year of marriage. We have disagreements but do not argue. We even have very few disagreements. We love every minute we have together,there just doesn't seem to be enough of them. If you ever find your true love, and you will know it, make every minute count. There is no time for all the fussing and fighting. Once you have said something no matter how hard you try you can't take it back. The happiest I have ever been is when Doug accepted Christ as his Lord and Saviour. Our marriage was fine already but this takes you into a new realm of understanding,love,compassion,etc.as God intended it to be. It is so hard to put into words the way I feel for him. I have never had such contintment in my life before. I know without a doubt his love is endless and sincere. Reflecting back to our courtship,he would bring me flowers every day. Such a romantic! I had never been treated this way. He makes me feel really special. Anyone that knows him understands his humor. He is never at a loss for words. He is such a kidder he use to hurt my feelings before I got to know him because he is so serious. No one ever knows what he is up to next. He didn't realize at the time I take everything to heart, so we really had to work on this one. Now at times I still have to ask to see if he is serious or kidding. Like I said in the earlier pages, neither he nor I wanted a serious relationship. I was just out that night to get out of the house. Actually that was the first time I had ever been to Cowboys. God knows just when to put you where. I had dated a few guys but nothing serious and I sure wasn't getting serious. I'd had enough of the married life. I wasn't about to get hurt again! Along came this smooth talking Cowboy. And in 1993 everyone was looking for a Cowboy,it was the thing. I just never pictured myself with one. All of my girlfriends were looking for one so I thought well there must be something to this. I'm telling you when I saw him walking across that dance floor my heart was racing. I was always shy so he looked and winked and I looked back and gave him a smile and wink. That is when I said girls that Cowboy is mine! Odds were we would not make it as a couple, but we have proved them wrong. We are the only 2 that have made it through the rough and the easy if there are such times. Doug and I are best friends and you have to be best friends first. The rest will fall into place. God works things out the way he wants. This page is to let him know just how important he is in my life. I know at times he may feel I'm not as attentive as he would like, but he is always on my mind and in my thoughts. He never leaves my mind and heart. Everything I do revolves around him. I still get the same feeling when I see him walking towards me. He makes me feel so safe and protected when he holds me. There is no other feeling on earth like this. I am so thankful to God for his loving grace that gave him the opportunity to enjoy being a Christian. Most of our time now is spent at Church in Bible studies it is just a part of our life now. We enjoy being with our Brothers and Sisters in Christ and would not have it any other way. If you knew him before, this would be a joy for you to see how Christ has worked in his life.
We still do have rough times but our love has held strong through it all.
I don't know why God waited so long for us to meet. We have talked so much about all the wasted time we both had. If we had gotten together 20 years ago we would have been able to have spent so much more time together and things would have been so different. But this goes back to God knows just what he is doing. It just seems time is short now that we have gotten together and each day goes by faster. I guess the years before were just learning years. Just yesterday we talked about renewing our wedding vows and I get tears to think about it. I would love to be able to tell him just how important he has been and is in my life but I would never be able to get the words out.
(But to Doug:) Your are my life ,my love, my soul mate for life. I have never known love as I know it now. You are the one and only TRUE LOVE I have ever had. You know how to cheer me up when I'm sad and calm me when I'm upset. You don't expect me to be anything other than myself. Just like in Church Sunday you were staring at me when we were singing and I was blushing. I looked at you and couldn't help but smile from ear to ear when you said (you are so beautiful). After all these years you have seen me at my best and my worst and still that love grows. We have such fun together just acting like kids ourselves.
I know your dream and mine is to be back on a lake in a fishing boat and you laughing at me with my little fishing lures while you are pulling in the big fish. I know with our desire and if it is Gods will we will be back there someday. I know we have traveled many roads since 1993 but I'm sure we will travel many more. And I am sure we will grow even closer as we travel those uncertain roads. I do know God will be our source of guidance and he will never lead us the wrong way as long as we put him first and pray for his will.
If the time comes for me to go before you always remember you have made my life complete and you are a special gift from God he just gave you to me to give me comfort,love,joy,understanding,much more than I could have ever expected. You are My Cowboy and I'm proud to call you my Husband. I love you with all my heart and soul and always will.
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