Realize
Part 2
Kevin knocked on Nick's door, having gotten no answer sough out the extra key hidden in the flower bed and opened the door, quickly resetting the alarm before it went off.
"Nick" he called walking through the hallway into the living room. "Nick, where are you?" he called again, he nearly stepped on an empty bottle of Jack and shook his head "Nick" he called once more walking into the kitchen.
"Oh my god" he whispered at the sight before him. There was Nick, sitting against the counters on the floor, amid two growing pools of blood seeping from his wrists. "Nick" he cried falling to his knees next to his youngest friend. "Nick, come on, talk to me" he said pulling Nick into his arms.
Nick stirred as he felt himself being pulled into someone's arms "What" he whispered. He looked up and back and into two tearing emerald pools "Kevin...what are you doing here?" he asked slowly and softly.
"Oh god Nick, I came to see why you missed the meeting" he replied trying to hold back his tears "Why Nick, why'd ya do it?" he asked, a tear escaping. This couldn't be happening, not to his Nick, Nick was too happy, too talented, too full of life to do this.
"I'm sorry Kevin; I didn't mean to make you cry. But you guys don't need me anymore, and I can't do anything by myself. I'm a talentless halfwit, unable to satisfy an audience on my own" he replied. He looked down at his wrists, "I just wanna die."
"No, Nick, how could you think we don't need you, we do, your part of us, if something happened to you, I'd...we'd...fall apart" he said taking Nick's hands. "Let me find something to stop the bleeding" he said getting up. Just then a lightening bolt struck the house, shaking it to the core and blanketing it in darkness.
"Kevin" Nick whimpered childishly.
"I'm right here Nick, I need to find some towels" the said sticking a hand in his pocket, thankful that AJ had left his Zippo at the meeting and he'd remember to grab it, only forgetting to give it to him outside.
He flicked it and peered around the kitchen, seeing some dishtowels and candles on the sink and grabbed them both. He sat back down next to Nick and ripped the towels up to make bandages.
After he lit the candles he began to wipe the blood away and frowned "Nick, these cuts aren't that deep, I don't get why they aren't beginning to clot. And you're bleeding so fast" he said as he wrapped his wrists. "I'm gonna call for help" he said grabbing his phone "No signal...son of bitch" he muttered. He reached up and grabbed Nick's cordless "phones out" he said dejectedly.
"Kevin, I don't feel good" Nick whispered.
"I'm sorry Nick" Kevin said holding him tightly "We just have to wait out the storm, you can't die on me, please" he replied.
"I'm a worthless faggot Kevin" Nick told him "I deserve to die."
"Why...just because you are gay? That is not a reason to die, don't say that Nickolas" Kevin said forcefully.
"My parents hate me, and you guys probably will too" Nick moaned.
"I could never hate you Nick, never" Kevin said looking down at his bandages "Shit, you bled through them, I need to change them, why aren't you clotting Nick you aren't anemic."
"I took some aspirin, because I had a headache, but I was drunk so I don't remember how much I took" he said wincing as Kevin tightened the new bandages.
"Shit, if you took too much aspirin, when you were drunk, it thinned your blood out" Kevin whispered. He looked at Nick, who was beginning to drift off "No" he said shaking him "I won't let you go" he whispered.
"Kevin" he moaned pitifully. "I just want the pain to stop, it hurts" he cried, clutching his stomach.
"Oh Nick" he whispered holding the young man "Don't die on me, I'd never forgive myself."
"It's not your fault Kevin; I did this, not you. I didn't want to hurt you, I just wanted to the hurt to end" he said trying to maneuver himself so he could look up at Kevin. "I love you Kevin."
Kevin smiled softly and looked down into Nick's eyes "I love you too Nick, more than you know" he said leaning down to kiss him gently on the forehead. He scooted out from under Nick and picked the younger man up "Let's get you more comfortable" he said and carried him to the couch.
"Kevin, I really love you, like in love with you, love with you" Nick said looking away from Kevin.
Kevin looked down at Nick's wrists "I have to go get more bandages, and some bread and milk, you need to eat" he said leaning down and kissing Nick again, this time softly on the lips "I really love you too" he whispered before hurrying into the kitchen.
