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| Clever Girl... >> Myself >> Pearls of Wisdom >> Part 2 14 September, 2000 - It's the spirit of the dream *high pitched warble* In general, I would say Australia is not a very patriotic nation. I was talking about this with Andrew the other day - he was saying that Australians should be more proud of the egalitarian spirit and such... but he's a liberal voter, so what would he know about egalitarianism? :p 15 September, 2000 - Isn't she sucky, this dutiful girl? But enough of my witty repartee. Onward bound to events that actually have an impact on my life. 16 September 2000 - It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time... I've been thinking a bit about happiness lately, and how transient it is. Thinking back to the two days this year when I would describe myself as ecstatically happy, May 5th and July 11th, both of those days were followed by deep depression. 18 September 2000 - It's a vicious kind of catch, it sides me blind... Once again I'm an emotional mess. Although the use of the 'again' would imply that I WASN'T an emotional mess for a couple of hours there. It just really IS, as Veruca Salt put it, a vicious kind of catch. |
| 19 September 2000 - Sometimes I feel I want to *boomboom* get away... Last night I was so depressed and so tired of talking that all I wanted to do was get away from everyone. I'd just spent about half-an-hour having a threeway with Carmen and Andrew and the following hour and a half talking to Carmen. Carmen's wonderful, she really is, she just can't supply me a solution. Nobody can. Probably because there is none. So I just lie there on my bed, whinging into the phone, for no reason at all. Poor Carmen, having to listen to all my shit. :( Poor everyone. 21 September 2000 - I wish I was special... "Now all you need is wings and a tiara and you can be a REAL fairy, Andrew!" 25 September 2000 - A letter to you on a cassette... too personal ;) 26 September 2000 - Don't gasp at the predictable... We call him "Tony from the Land of Imaginery Boyfriends" because my friend **** also has a boyfriend called Tony who no one has ever met. 26 September 2000 - Oh look, I took the bandaid off... I'm sorry, but my heart is fucking broken, my discourse is entirely smashed - you can't seriously expect me to be HAPPY??? Or even not incredibly distraught! 30 September 2000 - Other evidence has shown that you and I are still alone... What I need most of all is, The Connection. The Connection is the key - I don't want a nightclub get or a three week fling, I just want the real thing, and for it to be the real thing The Connection is integral. previous next back |