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| release date: 09/29/98 |
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| A Fire Inside |
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| release date: 11/11/97 |
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| Shut Your Mouth and Open Your Eyes |
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| release date: 05/18/99 |
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| Black Sails in the Sunset |
| Through our bleeding.
We are one! We are one! We are one! We are one! Through the darkness breaks the light. Through the light unending pain. Deify the wretched ones till the darkness comes again Through our bleeding. We are one! We are one! We are one! We are one! |
| Strength Through Wounding |
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| I know... It's here we retreat,
for where else could we go?
To great disbelief there is somewhere we belong. In negative space supposed flaws go unseen, but our strength is shown. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness together we are forming. The fire tomorrow is born of the night, in darkness together we ignite. From all we've been shunned but we found a new home. To great discontent it is greatness that we own. In luminous eyes, reflections of fear absolute... All hate what we've become. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness together we are forming. The fire tomorrow is born of the night, in darkness together we ignite. Through our will we bring fear. Left to burn beneath the sun. We are one. When daylight forms blinding walls where do we go? Days arid are scorching all. When daylight forms blinding, binding walls where do we go? The darkness calls. |
| Porphyria |
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| Welcome the whole new pain
and take comfort in
what you've become.
I waved as I passed myself along the way. I have arrived so unashamed but my reflection no longer seems the same. It seems much dimmer now... it seems so dim. Just stumble and fall into a world that's over crowded. And you will find me. Won't recognize me; and I won't recognize myself. I've arrived so unashamed, but all my senses no longer seem the same. I can sense everything. My sight's so clear. Just stumble and fall into a world that's over crowded. And you will find me. Won't recognize me; and I won't recognize myself. In an instant, my life just slipped away, I fought for life, the whole time you were holding me down. You watched me dying. Holding me down, you brought my rebirth. Holding me down, You watched me dying. Holding me down, you brought my rebirth. Just stumble and fall into a world that's over crowded. And you will find me. Won't recognize me; and I won't recognize myself. |
| Exsanguination |
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| Open my eyes as I submerge
and I won't deny what I've been since birth. I'll die drowned by your standards. Breathe in the life of the summmer's death as the orange and red breathe their first breath, so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin to burn. Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight for all we've learned. My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars. I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we arise again, and the end impending, it will begin. So welcome as it's burning through. Ashes fall and I'm rising up again. Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall as we all arise. |
| Malleus Malificarum |
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| To the wounded:
I have seen the self image they've forced you to reduce to shattered glass, with the only remaining value lying in it's jagged edges. But the few who warrant waking for await their recognition. No fear of death but with fear of life, your weakness kills everyone. So live. Angels for everyone. For no lack of searching I can't seem to find one. Angels in everyone. What of all their promises? Can't seem to find much more than lies. Angels in anyone. A permanent solution to a temporary problem. Before I'd lay me down to rest, I'd throw away everything to live. |
| Narrative of Soul Against Soul |
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| lean against the night and laugh
as I try to scale the wall
ignored futility fills the air
you're only there to watch me fall watch me fall watch me chorus: if only pure sweetness was offered why's this bitter taste left in my mouth if I could catch my breath just to exhale I'd know that I held it in too long from above comes a faint smile a new vantage, such a view familiarity, now disowned just sit and stare, as I walk away walk away watch me chorus ... chorus if only pure sweetness was offered (the bitterness) why's this bitter taste left in my mouth (pure sweetness) if I could catch my breath (my breath) just to exhale I'd know that I held it in too long |
| Clove Smoke Catharsis |
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| Now! Peel the skin back from the flesh.
Steal the flesh back from the starving static minds.
From nature we must stray, to clarity we'll climb. Deadly impulse seems so natural, just look beyond it and we'll find a brand new evolution. Here begins a brand new line. And in the distance there's a gathering, that no longer seems so far away. Pushed to our knees so let us pray, and all together we'll bring the real rain. Watch all that's wasted wash away, so let it come. Our will be done. Stature retrieved, regain our form. Break free from instinct that's left us all confined. From nature we must stray to clarity we'll climb. Tradition ingrained, now impermissible. Now comes a call for all to find a brand new evolution. Here begins a brand new line. I can't help but fear, look to my species and tremble, to think that God is just... And in the distance there's a gathering that no longer seems so far away. |
| The Prayer Position |
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| I've been dreaming,
I've been dreaming, i was lucid.
Blood was seeping, it was seeping from my pores. Who'd believe that it was all my own decision? Cracked faces and medicated smiles. Set fire to my home before I turned and walked back in. For every needle open my chest and insert ten pins. I just anticipate what awaits when I awake...break. I die, I die in my daydreams. I've been dreaming, I've been dreaming, i was lucid. Blood was seeping, it was seeping from my pores. Who'd believe that it was all my own decision? The gardens have all been overgrown. I pushed my hand through the thorns just to crush the final rose. A deadly secret only i suffer to know, I cant eradicate what awaits when I awake...break. I die, I die in my daydreams. |
| No Poetic Device |
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| Hung in your room, swaying, hoping only that you'll see.
All by myself, I'm alone in such poor company. The deeper I think, the deeper I seem to sink, I can't stop the insects that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. I broke myself, shattered, tied a bow around every piece. You'll lovely the eyes. Have they always shown so vacantly? The more I show the less you'll want to know. I can't stop the insects that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. Now I'm on display. I am becoming. Hurt myself today. It's all for you. Do you like, do you like, what I'm becoming? Cut myself today. It's all for you. I part the night, flashing, approaching as I watch you flee. Pushed through your panes. Seems I've landed quite uncomfortably. But as I pass through souls of broken glass I can't stop the insects that are feeding. Pull the needles from beneath my skin. Please don't ask me just what I think, trust me, you don't want to know. Please don't ask me to open up, trust me, trust me, 'cause I can't. |
| The Last Kiss |
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| They're coming 'round again.
I've returned and they've been waiting. Their aged offererings received and returned, passed through wet eyes. I tremble as I feel them rolling in for, my sins, the old ghosts know. So chilling as I feel them mourn within my soul. As the mourning grows. Unfold before me. Turn back the page again. Twenty four hours spent wishing that the day was never ending. Shadows of glory shading my heart again. Recall the summer when I left my heart to cool beneath the shadows I'm coming 'round again. I've returned and no one's waiting. I strain my eyes to see but it's so hard to read the old tags on the fallen walls. |
| Weathered Tome |
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| No haven now as I watch it pour from everywhere.
Just like the storm that has come out of thin air. Gentle caresses, just as paper thin -frail and only- lack the strength to hold. What if could go to sleep for days, would you count the hours, or would your restlessness consume fading memories of me? Fall into open arms that offer their protection. Quick to deny that their open to deceit. Long to believe that support will never cease. Bitter and lonely, those they've left before. What if could go to sleep for days, would you count the hours, or would your restlessness consume fading memories of me? The vibrant heart so quickly growing old, the warmest eyes so quickly growing cold. Just a glance for they don't care to see what becomes of me. The vibrant heart so quickly growing old, the warmest eyes so quickly growing cold. Just a glance for they don't care to see what becomes of me What becomes of me What becomes of me What becomes of me What if could go to sleep for days, would you count the hours, or would your restlessness consume fading memories of me? What if could go to sleep for days, would you count the hours, or would your restlessness consume fading memories of me? |
| At A Glance |
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| Let's admire the pattern forming
Murderous filigree
I'm caught in the twisting of the vine Go ascend with ivy, climbing Ignore and leave for me The headstone crumbling behind I can't help my laughter as she cries My soul brings tears to angelic eyes Let's amend the classic story Close it so beautifully I'll let animosity unwind Steal away the darkened pages Hidden so shamefully I'll still feel the violence of the lies I can't stand my laughter as they cry My soul brings tears to angelic eyes And miles away my mother cries Omnipotence, nurturing malevolence |
| God Called In Sick Today |
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| Open wounds in the palms of my hands,
festering through infectious time.
I feel so faint as my life spills over you. Backstep over glass as I repent. I fear I cannot prevent myself from spilling your life all over me. I'm so sick, so sick of myself. Mother, say you'll pray for me. I'm premature in my decay. Shards of glass swimming in my eyes. A small voice in the back of my mind that's whispering words I never want to hear. I pray that you won't hesitate, as you watch me degenerate, to reach in my wounds and extract all of my fear. My suffocation, asphyxiation. I've been choking on my own blood. |
| 3 1/2 |
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| I have seen ten roses bleed,
seen new petals fall,
I have felt my soul tear.
I have felt nothing at all. Watched what was vibrant fade as shadows fall. I can see it's been done, all that was pure has been eradicated. I can see, it's all done. Nothing can erase the damage done. I have seen ten liars love, seen two lovers lie, seen youth, blinded, smiling. I have seen deceit handed down. From the highest height,below the lowly. I can see it's been done, all that was pure has been eradicated. I have seen beasts bathed in glory, tread across the angels as they crawl. Take it all away. Regress to nothing. Can someone please take these images from my mind? |
| Over Exposure |
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| Creatures kissing in the rain,
shapeless in the dark again.
In the hanging garden, please don't speak. In the hanging garden, no one sleeps. In the hanging garden. In the hanging garden. Catching haloes on the moon, gives my hands the shapes of angels. In the heat of the night, the animals scream. In the heat of the night, walking into a dream... Fall, fall, fall, fall into the walls. Jump, jump out of time. Fall, fall, fall, fall out of the sky. Cover my face as the animals cry, in the hanging garden. In the hanging garden. Creatures kissing in the rain, shapeless in the dark again. In a hanging garden, change the past. In a hanging garden, wearing furs and masks... Fall, fall, fall, fall into the walls. Jump, jump out of time. Fall, fall, fall, fall out of the sky. Cover my face as the animals die. In the hanging garden. as the animals die. Cover my face as the animals die. In the hanging garden. In the hanging garden. In the hanging garden. In the hanging garden. In the hanging garden. |
| The Hanging Garden |
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| Look upon me
I am the beast
Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania My father was a wolf Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania My mother was a whore You check and see Reality of the wolf It's in the blood I wanna be the fucking savior Humans are weak What else you fucking do Humans are weak I want your blood Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania My father was a wolf Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania My mother was a whore Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania My mother was a whore Demonomania, Demonomania, Demonomania My father was a wolf |
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| We are the ones with the radiating eyes.
We are the ones who have a fire inside. We are the ones only we can recognize. We've been rejected (we've been rejected)- Suffered the ignorance, suffered the selfishness, been pushed so far down now comes our time to surface. Turn from the light, that made them all go blind. We've been protected (we've been protected) ALL ARISE TO WHAT WE BRING, OUTSTRETCHED HANDS, UNFOLDED WINGS. We've hurt ourselves, and I feel the sting of broken hearts and burning wings... |
| Keeping Out Of Direct Sunlight |
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| Where were you? Say you were gone?
Well, ask me and I'll swear you were there all along. Another place? Another state? At any rate, I can't relate. There's no two ways, you're a disgrace. Drown down your fear, suffocate every spark of clarity. Your weakness: sickens me, saddens me, strengthens me. There's no way to free responsibility. Who's to blame? Who's in the wrong? The truth from which you hide - it was you all along. You were there, you didn't care, and your heart and mind were self impaired. Now, all that's left is our despair. |
| Three Reasons |
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| Oh my God!
My God this can't be happening!
God tell me, tell me this isn't real! I can't believe all that I have foreseen is finally happening. I cannot for a single second stand the way I feel. I always knew. I always saw it coming. Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear. I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing, I never wanted to cease to exist,just disappear. Fear memories are all that lie ahead. (Memories dull my senses.) Never have I felt so lost. Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead. (Memories dull my senses.) Never have I felt so dead. Once felt so warm, now I'm fucking freezing. I am the once embraced abandoned one. I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing; no relief was mine, I was burnt, by the sun. Fear memories are all that lie ahead. (Memories dull my senses.) Never have I felt so lost. Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead. (Memories dull my senses.) Never have I felt so dead. I Feel So I Feel So Lost I Feel So Lost I Feel So Lost Fear memories are all that lie ahead. (Memories dull my senses.) Never have I felt so lost. Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead. (Memories dull my senses.) Never have I felt so dead. Fear memories are all that lie ahead. (Memories dull my senses.) Never have I felt so lost. Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead. (Memories dull my senses.) Never have I felt so. |
| A Single Second |
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| So quickly draining away.
If you could only hear all the things you used to say.
Consumed now by what you knew was poisonous, quenching your thirst for life (for life.) Will you die, die for me? Will you live, live for me? Kill aspirations away. Embrace a dream that was a nightmare only yesterday. True friends forgotten and all hopes been traded in, exchanged for what. for what, for what will you die, die for me? will you live live for me? die for me, you gave it all away live for me, you gave it all away all at once, you gave it all away all is lost will you die, die for me? die for me will you live, live for me? live for me will you die, die for me? die for me will you live, live for me? all is lost |
| pH Low |
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| I live in truth, complacently.
Where's the threat you see in me?
Am I the cause of your Self consciousness? You scream at me 'cause I can't ignore the destructiveness that you support, 'cause my life's contrary to yours. No soft words from my mouth. A glazed look in your eyes. I live in the world of reality, you comfort yourself with lies. I will release myself, I will detach myself from you. I will detach myself from you kind. I've seen your life but I can't see how it is that you can be so content in your own ignorance. Its been so dark for so long now a new light has come along, illuminating all, so shut your eyes. I won't tell you what you want to hear, I will show you what's real. I will, will defy. |
| Let It Be Broke |
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| Can you feel the pulse?
Can you feel the heat rising from below?
Can you feel the energy? It's gaining strength, oh so slowly But I'll wait...I'll wait...till the seasons change. Why wait?...Why wait?... till the fall comes. (Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!) Ohhh. And I'll say.. I'll give you nothing but a mirthless laugh. Ohhh. Can you see the signs? Can you sense the changing of the winds? Can you sense the stillness in the air? Calm will remain...oh so shortly. But I'll wait... I'll wait... till the seasons change. Why wait?...Why wait?... till the fall comes. (Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!) Ohhh. And I'll say.. I'll give you nothing but a mirthless laugh. Ohhh. And I'll say.. Gonna take you by... Gonna take you by... Gonna take you by surprise as it rises. Ohhh.. (Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey) Ohhh. And I'll say.. I'll give you nothing but a mirthless laugh. Ohhh. And I'll say.. Whoa! Whoa! Gonna take you by surprise Whoa! Whoa! Ohhhhh........... |
| Third Season |
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| Drowned in flames is where I can be found,
my nose broke from being smashed into the ground. What a waste, this place I call my home. Escape this place and break out on my own! I'm still reaching. Try to slap me down, but I'll still hold. In the fray is where I can be found. My head is bruised from always being knocked around. What a fight, this life I call my own! Escape this life, and break out on my own! I'm still reaching! Try to slap me down, but I'll still hold. I'll hold my own. |
| Lower Your Head and Take It In The Body |
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| I have slipped and I have fallen, so far down I can't get out.
Overwhelmed by my doubt. Things I said i'd never do i've done. Those I said i'd never be i've become. I have broken - i'm still breaking - cracked and wrecked, beyond repair. I can see that no one cares. Forgotten. Recalled. Smacks me in the face every time I fall. I cannot disregard, with each new fall I hit twice as hard. Would you be there for me? I would. I would be there for you. I would. Would you look up to see? I would. Falling forward and looking up. |
| Coin Return |
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| I've seen the light that emanates from you,
and it makes me feel proud,
a voice of reason above the muffling crowds. Such will to live and you've got so much to give, long lost sincerity. Lost in a world that's been scorched to black. Lost in myself until I finally find. A guide in you, and gratitude is mine, I admire the way you shine. Stare down the day from which others shield their eyes, with complete clarity, and no trace of apathy. So positive, and your heart you freely give, long lost vivacity. Lost in a world that's been scorched to black. Lost in myself until I finally find. A guide in you, and gratitude is mine, I admire the way you shine. |
| The New Patron Saints and Angels |
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| Submission- My back hurts from bowing down.
Attraction - Was once so strong now can't be found. Affection - One gift I wish you would return. Frustration - as I accede. I do not deserve your frigidness, such callousness, yet I persist. What's wrong with me? I told you ';you can't be replaced', you showed me I'm disposable. Spit in my face, as I submit, so I quit! |
| Three Second Notice |
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| There's a tear in my heart where the blood ran out.
There's a tear in my heart where the love ran out. I thought we worked, pushed toward the same ends, I'll never be so quick to trust again. Disenchanted, disgusted, I regret that I trusted. I put my faith. My faith in you, you poisoned me through and through. I though we both shared the same injuries. Now I've found it's you who injures me. My heart is cracked from being left out in the cold. I know you'll pay for what you've taken - tenfold. Disenchanted, disgusted, I regret that I trusted. I put my faith. My faith in them, they twisted the knife further in. |
| Salt For Your Wounds |
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| Here is your lesson for today,
ya better listen up real fucking good!
My cloud always has a silver lining, and I love everything that I see. My world is wonderful and no one could ever hurt me. You hate yourself, yes you do, and that's why right now I hate you. You hate yourself, yes you do, and that's why right now I can't stand you. Have you learned your lifes lesson yet? No? Well let me tell you something. I am your teacher you have a lot to learn from me you must love yourself. You are my teacher you teach me about my life. Theres a lot I can learn from you. And that's why right now I love you... So fuck you! |
| Todays Lesson (Filth) |
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| Do you understand what I'm trying to say?
Have you ever felt? Have you ever felt this way? Tainted with rage you can't drain away or it will cost you your life. I couldn't care more. Do you ever absorb what shouldn't be touched? Have you ever cared? Ever cared this much? Do you think it is I who is out of touch, or are you too scared to think at all? I couldn't care more. As your friends fall does it tear your heart? Do tears fill your eyes as your world falls apart? Do you notice at all, or are you sailing sublime? Am I completely alone? |
| The Devil Loves You |
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| It burns! It burns!
It burns my eyes and throat, but I need no antidote. Gnawing and tearing at my insides - seething, keeping me alive - hatred poisons me through and through - a sustenance - keeping me true. It's not too late. It's never gonna be too late. Embrace your hate. The pain! The pain it crushes me. I gain animosity. Acid sweat and bloody tears, through it all I preserve. Some sedate through indifference but I withheld zero tolerance. |
| Triple Zero |
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