time: 2:38am
listening to: "bela lugosis dead" bauhaus
so today was fuct...my dad was being a real jerk...he woke me up....got in a fite with his gf carolyn who is super nice and i adore...and then he came down stairs and balled me out cuz i dont have a job...i havent been yelled @ in ages...i cant say that i missed it....so that just fuct me up...then he left and me and carolyn sat around and talked...which ended up making me cry more...but it was good...i really like carolyn...shes a super chic....anyway then juliann came over and we went downtown fer a little then watched "mission impossible 2" cuz it was on tmn....devon started freaking out so carolyn and jay where trying to keep him from hurting them but carolyn ended up calling the cops eventually.....so that all was pretty fuct....my dad apologized after dinner tho and then me and jay had a good chat about what girls look for in boys....later zach and i made plans to get married in 2006 over the net which was quite entertaining....but now to the reason why im worried....i read my friends journal....shes not eating and shes throwing up all the time and im pretty worried about her.....i wish i could do something to help but i really dont know what to do...i sent her a msg telling her that if she wanted to talk about it i would listen but thats about all i can do....im worried abou ther...i dont want her to be sick....she helped me thru a tuff time with all the kirk shite and i wanna help her get better anyway that i can....i love u babe u know who u r....im here fer u....