time:2:01am listening to: "mouth full of cavaties" and jason and jamie playing hockey on the goddamned nitendo..

so ya.....i havent done much the last couple days.....download songs.....talk to ppl on the net...tonite i drank a little with jay and his friends which was alrite...but unforunately fer me i think that jay has a girlfriend...which fer me isnt cool cuz i aint about stealing boyz from other girls cuz it just aint rite u know? anyway i thought today was good fer me....he was telling me stories and we were talking and shit....of course not about how i think hes hot er anything....but i was pretty sure when i changed my shirt on the couch earlier (i was wearing a tank top underneath) that he was staring @ me (i saw his reflection in the tv)....but just now i think i heard him say something about him going out with this claire chic and that hes been going out with her fer like 3 weex er something....shite....i dont need any of that shite...but oh well...i suck....
on another boy note...lately i been talking to this guy whos a friend of my friend diana....he seems pretty cool and we talk about all kindza shite and like a said he seems purdy cool so maybe if i ever meet the guy ill make a move....he said that my pics that i had up of me and my purdy new hair do (which is now blonde not that stupid colour that it is in the pix) looked good...so anyway yes im horny as fuck....i kinda wish that i was @ home this week so i could hang out with aaron (the guy i made out with a week or 2 ago @ that one party)....im bored....i want a boy....i want attention....i want to release the sexual tension which i have built up...i want a goddamned boyfriend so i can actually have a fucking relationship again...im really big into that whole caring fer someone else and having them care about u thing...i need the goddamned attention.....fuck....i want a goddamned boy...argh....fuck....so sexually frustrated and no fucking outlet....dammit...boyz suck...but alas i still want one....stupid societ stupid brain washing me into thinking that i can only be with someone i really care about....well thats not totally true....i just dont wanna go out and pick up some random guy and sleep with him....i want a guy that i find attractive....that i have things in common with...that i can talk to while we cuddle....thats what i want goddammit....stupid boyz....when the hell am i gonna find the boy fer me thats what i wanna know....anyway seeing as how im kinda buzzed and i have nothing else to say im gonna go now....nitey nite....ttfn....oh and ps holly if u read this its shitty that yer going away fer so long.....i know ppl in st. t suck but yer actually one of the cool ones....ill miss u baby...im auci 5000

stupid boyz
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