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time: 2:56pm
listening to: "sleepwalking" scratching post
nice fucking colours eh??........shut up
oh my was last nite er well early this morning strange.....so ya kirk went to the movies last nite.....and i was gonna talk to him when he got back.....i dunno i thought around like ummm.....maybe 12..12:30 at the latest.......so he calls me at like 1:30 er 2.....ok.....whatever.......and we talk and i cry and we talk some more and i cry some more.....and he doesnt get it and i cry and then miranda just starts to puke.....so i let kirk go fer a bit and get mir some water and stuff and take out the garbage bag filled with puke....and figure shell be fine so i call kirk back.....well she wasnt.......she puked like every half hr til like 10 this morning.....i was really worried that she mite have toxic shock syndrome on account of the fact that were both on the rag and we often wear our tampons fer more than the reccommended 8 hrs.......i was kinda worried about her....and then i started to feel sick and it was all really shitty b/c i had to get up fer greek at like 7:30.......needless to say no greek fer me today......
anyways so here is how me and kirk stand.....were friends.....good friends.....and if something happens cool and if nothing happens well then were still friends......IF something happens.......ya rite........the first thing im gonna wanna do when i see him is stick my goddamn tongue down his throat.......oh well......he doesnt want to have sex with anyone but me......so i guess thats a good thing.....and well however this worx im gonna end up getting hurt so at least this stupid somewhat relationship with the...uh...benefits...is better than nothing.......and whatever.........i dunno.....i love him and blah blah blah......and he cares fer me......notice the different terms there.......cuz thats what he said.....fucker....its so weird.....part of me just hates him......cuz of all the shit hes put me thru (see me and kirks history) and ya if it happens again somebody will pay dearly........prolly me.......anywayz im an idiot and i know it and theres nothing else i can do about it.....so ya......why not just enjoy the kix eh??....and i really really miss sex man.....holy fucking shit...sex is the worst addiction in the entire world i tell u.....at least the worst one ive xperienced......once u start u just cant stop.....u cant just not have sex with someone yur in a relationship with if uve ever had sex b4.....well at least i cant.....so maybe im weak......oh well.....if thats my only weakness at least it feels really good!! ahhhhhh!! just want to go home and jump him......oh my......its been like almost a month.....oh my poor poor lonely vagina.......god im a freak.....oh well.....i know it........too bad fer me......ta fer now......really need some eats i tell u......massively
time: 2:48am
listening to: "friends of p" the rentals
tonite was pretty cool.......me and erin and matt and ross went to the trash again......i love 80s nite......i live fer it.....i put my hair up and wore this little black dress with my bullseye shirt over it and my red leopard stockings....oh ya.....im one fly momma.......anywayz...it was cool......the played the bay city rollers man.......it doesnt get any better than that....and "ruby soho" rancid=cool........fun fun fun......and sue was there.......shes cool....so i danced and danced and now im all sweaty and sitting here drinking lemonade.....yumm!
oh....matt mite be putting on a show..... yeah!! we need some xcitement in peterboro man......its so dead here....im gonna see if we can get some st. thomas (where im originally from) bands to come up and play.....thatd be cool......a nice little punk and hardcore show......oh my oh my......
so i think im gonna go and call kirk......but i dont know......part of me wants to but part of my doesnt......maybe ill just email him instead.....i dont wanna wake him up.....so ill email him......yup thats what ill do........dear god do i have freakin issues er what?? oh well im a fucking sycho.......what u gonna do about it.......i laff....i amuse myself with my insanity.......at least i amuse someone eh?? oh well......nitey