time: 4:45am
listening to: "butterflies" crimpshrine
so today......me and mir went out fer lunch with my gramma and my cousin melissa.....i got outta bed when they got here....so i went to lunch unshowered.....oh ya....then we came home and i had a nice relaxing bath.....that was nice.....and ya i wasted the rest of the day away watching tv.....i called kirk to see if he wanted to come over and watch a movie with me and mir....but he was going to his friend woodys to watch a movie....i asked him to stop in after....he said hed see...which meant he wasnt gonna show....so i asked him to call if he wasnt gonna show....blah....
so me and mir watched movies anyway......we watched "get real" it was sooo awesome.....it kicked so much ass...and kirk woulda loved it.....at like 2 he called and said he was at home and had had a beer and was going to bed...shocked and astounded i was...shocked and astounded....i asked him if i mite be able to see him b4 i went back to school...and he asked me what i was doing friday.....me mir and rachel r sposed to drink at my house.....i really hope i see him.....i think he feels weird about the sex....either that er he just doesnt care about the sex and if thats the case well i wanna know cuz whats the point in us fucking if he doesnt care or he feels weird.....sheesh.....he was the one who brought it up in the first place.....and im the one being used and i dont have a problem with it....oh well....ill never understand that boy.....he just cant make up his mind....but i digress
me and mir finished watching "get real" and then i tried to call him back....but he was on the net....looking at porn im sure....and then when it wasnt busy any more he just didnt answer prolly cuz he knew it was me....oh well.....
so then me and mir watched her fav movie of all time "beautiful thing" also about gay boys....it also kicked ass....the gay boys were so cute together.....they were so sweet....i need to find me a straight boy like that.....argh....and now i sit he typing fer no reason knowing that i have to get up tomorrow and type a freaking resume and go and hand the mother fucker out.....argh....someone just shoot me.....oh well...at least ill be drinking tomorrow nite.....hopefully.....so i end with this i wish that the boy i love was even more femme than he is....cuz maybe then we could be like a straight version of that amazingly cute couple in "beautiful thing" awe....oh well...like i always say a girl can dream cant she? ttfn