10.31.02 10:15pm
happie bday rosanna
ur soo young...finailly uve turned 17. happy halloween!!
halloween would of been much better if like i freakin didnt hab like 3 test the next day. oh wellz stupid teachers gots to carm so much things before the end of the quarter. i hope i dont fail nething. feel so tired after like walkin for 2 hrs trick or treating with annie and jenny. the last time i went was like in 2nd grade. out of all the houses that i went to onli one of them knew that i was dressed as lilo and stitch. it was fun kickin it with them. i got like a bad full of candy and i cant eat it cuz i got a cough -_- oh wellz freakin SAT in two days and i still habent studied for it. stupid collegeboard. either way i gots to pay. i either gots to pay for late registration if i dont kno which SAT to sign up for or pay 13$ to see mai score before nov 4. stupid college board. jus think of ways to cheat pplz money. i hope i got a decent score >.< i think i am gettin sick. dont feel so good. goin to go sleep earlie..forget studyin...
10.28.02 l 11:32pm
i havent updated for a while. thought i might jus go bak n add in wht i did three days ago. it was soo funnie in first period todai mai english teacher didnt show up for first period. there wasnt a sub either. the nark jus stood there for the whole period jus stairin at us. damn that reminnds meeh gots to study for english test. i kno i wasnt goin to make it past the first cut for hc court but i tired ne ways. i kno i wasnt goin to make it but seein the fact that mai name wasnt on there it was kinda dissapointin. i didnt realli want to be on court that bad but seein the pplz that made it past the first cut was all those popular type. oh wellz not i feel kinda stupid that i even tired cuz i kno there wasnt going to b a chance. 3 more weeks till home comin game n dance. i wonder wht the dance theme ish goin to be. it better be a nice song. who to go with..humm..dont kno yet..
*yeey* minium day tomorrow and wednesday. gets out at like 11:10am but then i dont kno wht to do. dont got nething planned out yet i guess wht ever happeneds happenes. i want to go watch ghostship. ne one wanna join? this week sure has gone to a great start -_- i dont think nething ish goin to go rite for the next couple of days. halloween *sigh* why do i think of him again? images flashin. am i suppose to be like this...
10.27.02 l
*yeey* one more extra hour of sleep. not as tired as before but then it feels werid wakin up when there ish a sunlight. i keep thinkin that it was afternoon or something. woke up got something to eat and planned something to do. it took us a while to decide wht to do and we finailly decided on that i rent the movies and the others get the ice cream. mai brother took meeh to block buster and i got The glass house and camp fire stories. i dont kno both of them look scarie. went down to kick it at alans house with diana and steven. glass house wasnt that bad. not as scarie as the commerical portrayed it at the theather the other time but it was okie. played pokemon stadium. i hate ganger and those freakin substitution pokemon. those things are annoyin. i hate nite shade..gangar ish sooo evil. i keep diein in pokemon staduim. to mai partners sorrie -_- i'll get better at it next time. freakin eh charmander sux!! rematch!! that was soo unfair. pikachu ish better.
camp fire stories was lame. it was so freakin stupid and then we jus decided to go bak to the game. played for a while and steven and alan stated singing. stupid diana i kno u kno those songs. soo sad she wouldnt sing with meeh. out of all those songs that they played i onli kno two of them 'when the last tear drops fall and until i get over u' prob make sense why i kno those song i onli listened to it for a while. i knew she kno it but she lied..sooo EVIL. u shall sing next time n solo tooh. steven still gots to sing solo. sang for a while and i felt realli sick so then i jus went home earlie. stupid debate tomorrow..must kno wht to sai..
10.26.02 l
freakin eh..dont kno wht ish wrong with pplz. kept wakin meeh up in the morning. didnt they kno that i went to sleep at like 3 in the morning. ish been a while since like i slept till like 2:30 in the afternoon. i remba when i did that last yr i made maiself wake up cuz i thought sleep was a waste of time. woke up and like sat round for a while. i realli wanted to go to a morgure prob cuz knotts wasnt scarie enough. but since the suggestion was jus to get meeh out of the house we (diana and kan) ended up going to the mall with stella and jesse. it was fun jus sittin there and talkin. ish soo funnie. between guys there are no decent conversations and that ish proven not jus once but twice. we talked bout the funniest conversations ever that i couldnt stop laughin. i bet nething the pplz round us were prob wonderin wht the hell ish goin on.
ish soo kool we tricked kan into watchin The Ring with u. the movier wasnt that scarie at first. a couple of scense made meeh jump but that was it. i kidna get the storyline now and lot of why does the gyrl do this or that ish like answered. i wasnt to watch the japanese one now. i think that one ish 10 times scarier the the english version. um. freakin diana eh. she scared the hell out of meeh on the phone. at first i was helpin her scare kan but then when i closed mai eyes i saw that gyrl's face and it freaked meeh out. i didnt wanna look out the window cuz it was so dark outside but i had to cuz i hab the head set on and there was a feakin tv rite in front of meeh. i wanted to turn on the radio but then i didnt want to go near the tv. it took meeh a while to fall asleep after we hung up cuz i couldnt get hide of her face from mai memories. parts of the movie was still flashin threw mai mind. >.<
10.25.02 l
finailly the week ish over. knotts scarie farm =) went to lisa q's house after skool and kick it there for a while. then went to mcDs to visit lil person with lisa khon and jonathan. damn it ish gettin soo cold at nite. i think i would of froze if i stayed at the keppel home commin game. the pre game show was alritie. the dancers were okie i guess but not as good as our drill team. ish the first pre game ive ever seen considerin the fact that durin home commin i am at the float judement thingy. knotts was funnie prob a lil bit scarie at the begining because i didt kno hoz the so called monsters popped out. i think it was onli scared at the begining cuz everyone told meeh it was scarie. it was soo funnie the monsters kept followin this gyrl and didnt even bother to scare us in the maze. i made j'than walk on the side where the monsters came up so if nething happened i can hide behind him. mai walkin stick ish sooo kool =) went threw a couple of mazes. pplz made meeh go threw the stupid spider maze -_- dame!!! the funnie thing was that the log ride aka bloody something massacue scared meeh more then the monsters did. over all it was fun met a couple of new pplz but the ride there was kinda boring cuz i didnt kno ne one. the glow stick necklase looked soo kool. bought like two of them. i think we were there from like 8-2. walked soo much and mai legs were tired from walkin, couldnt even feel nething passed the knee. i think i got home round like 3 something. *phew* so close to gettin in trouble..
10.22.02 l 9:10pm
it jus made meeh think why i am even goin to go for it even tho i kno there ish soo much competition. someone asked meeh earlier why i wanted to be on homecomin court. homecoming was realli special to meeh last yr and it still remains the happiest moments of mai life. i cant forget the things that happened last yr. everything ish jus apart of mai momories rite now..everything from float house, home comin game, SAT class on saturday, birthday party.i kno the memories will be with meeh forever. onli the things that are important cant be erased from mai momories. also being on court was something i always wanted to do. add them two up and u get meeh goin for homecomin court. there ish no other dance that has a special meanin to meeh then this one. "imagine" was last years theme and "apart of this world" ish this years. i still cant believe the fact that he plays football now. thats i got to see.. ne one gonna go watch keppels hc game?
10.21.02 1 l1:08pm
ack..soo freakin sleepie todai. i didnt wanna go to skool this morning but then i already got sooo much stuff to make up. i dont kno i wanna go to their hc..i dont like askin ne one to dances. it kno it dont sound hard but ish hard for meeh to do it. ish not that i am shy to ask ish jus that i rather perfer not to ask. dont kno i think ish jus meeeh and the werid way that i think. umm..ish that time of the year again. stressin to find a date to home commin. oh for those of u who read this go vote for meeh for HC court =D ..thankie i realli wanna be on court. it seems fun. i remab before when pplz announce the seniors on court i jus wish that when mai senior yr ish here that i can do that tooh. i kno i dont gots a chance to win but it doesnt hurt to try. so go vote for meeh...haha..i am not makin ne sense rite now. i think i should go to sleep.. ookie dokie nite ntie people. why ish it when i call no one picks up?
10.20.02 l 10:57pm
recap on this weekend
Friday
- woke up at 8 ish. got ready to go to Fresno.. =D
- lisa took us to the amtrack at union station in LA
- waited for a couple of hrs to board the bus
- another 2 hrs on the train. met pplz from another skool
- the hotel room ish so freakin tiny
- workshop before dinner -_-
- eh..sleep? stayed up and watched tv. pillow fight
Saturday
- so sleepie..jus wanted to stay in the hotel and sleep
- general session. fallin alsleep. cingular guy cappin on all the other serivce providers
- freakin 5 hrs worth of workshopz from lunch till dinner
- ate that peppers, some sorta of mexican resurant
- FBLA Idol. some sorta of talent show thingy
- dance..i guess it made up for missin frist dance >.<
- packed. gettin ready to go home tomorrow morning
- stayed up most of the nite talkin to pplz
-stayed up most of the nite watchin movies. it was soo kool there was free cable and there was so much movies at nite.
- eh..sleep..like round 4:30ish in the morning
Sunday
- we had to wake up like at 7 for the section breakfest thingy
- fruits fruits..yummie breakfest but it didnt make meeh full
- check out of rooms and closin session
- wait for freakin 3 hrs in the lobby for the train to come
- played cards all the way to Bakersfield
- slept on the bus ride home..damn imma still so dead tired rite now
- went to diana house for a while
- with kan and diana went to star buck then drivin range
- mai phone kept diein on him. sorrie. -_-
- dead tired...sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeepin
10.16.02 l 9:51pm
the things i do when i get bored...
hes the cutiest one out of all the other ones in the movie but he looks funnie in this pix. ahHh imma turnin into a fob >.<
10.15.02 l 10:42pm
sometime there ish so much things to but so lil time but when there ish alot of time i wish there wasnt. stress ish the onli thing i hab to push everything aside without it time ish takin over. time ish the onli form that ish tellin meeh that i cant hide from it ne more. i dont wanna face it i rather hide behind stress and let it be. mai mind likes to wander when ish relaxing mayb that why i like to keep it bz. time seem to pass bai so slow todai prob ish that i hab nothing much to do and i mean nothing at all.
does ne one kno when ish the next meteor shower? i wonder who ish goin to be there to watcht it with meeh..
10.13.02 l 10:50pm
i felt so dead todai. i didnt go to sleep till like two something talkin on the phone. i habent had alot of sleep this weekend. imma going to be hella tired tomorrow. pplz kept wakin meeh up this morning cuz i was suppose to get ready to take pictues. meeh, diana, june, annie, lisa q, lisa w, rosanna, michelle, stephanie, n betty. it took them like two hrs to pose us. stupid pplz machine wouldnt work. gots to go bak on thursays to see the proof and stuff. i also took solo pix. i habent taken that for a long time. prob since like april. i hope i turned out okie. if not then i am not going to pass it out. i hab a feelin i look werid in it.
why are u callin meeh a werido???????
10.12.02l 10:34pm
SATs todai. i dont think i did that bad the test wasnt that hard but then i dont want to be tooh confident..i felt so stupid..i got to the test center like an hr before the test started. i was jus sittin there like an idiot. three hrs actually went bai pretty fast. *prayin* that i did good this time. i dont wanna take it again for the third time. went out to eat with mai parents after the test. lunch wasnt that bad cept the fact that i woke up on the wrong side of the bed todai and the freakin waiter pist meeh off. i wasnt in the happiest of all moods. i kept wakin up in the middle of the nite cuz i drempt that a stupid cocaroch was attackin meeh and i was runnin away from it. n that cocaroach got like this pink gem stone on its bak. i think it was the thought of diana gettin chased by a roach (true story) and debatein wether or not i should get the class ring. the freakin ring that i want ish 3 bills
it was so fun todai. went to shoot pool at safari. we were plannin to go to calstate la first but then it was closed. umm..lets see meeh, steven, diana, kan, alan, lisa q, jonathan, khon all went to safari then lisa w and vincent came. then later a bunch of other guys. pool was fun even tho we lost. it was meeh and diana against steven and kan. who kno the rules to pool ish so complicated and so hard. damn those rules or else we would of won -_- REMATCH!! i call rematch...later it was meeh and steven against diana and kan. we won tho =D despite the fact that i kept messin up. went to eat at carles js afterwards. sat there for a while playin mind games. something came up and pplz in our car slpit up. i hope she is okie and feels better. meeh diana and kan went to creipt in the grip *yummie* omg those are soooo good. i found a new place to go eat ice cream at. they changed alot of things at pacific plaza..there ish sooo much stores. soo cutie. i love those angles especially the yellow one. i habent had this much fun in a long time. i wish there can be more of these weekends.
wheeeeeeeeeee!!!! 5 more days till FRESNO!!!!!!
10.10.02 l does time realli matter?
if it can i wish it was 10:56 pm a year ago
genuwine - differences
"ill alwayz look bak..as i walk awayz..these memoriez will last...for eternity....."
10.09.02 l 11:14pm
i jus realized wht tomorrow ish going to be. i still rember everything clearly like as if it jus happend. i cant believe it. time passed by so fast. ish already been a yr. *sigh* when i was fillin in tomorrow date. i kinda froze for a second when i ralized wht the date was. in that split second so mani memroes flooded my head. i rember every detail so clearly. i didnt let this fact bother me todai but nite falls seems so sadly. i cant help but think of more n more. i kno it wasnt a long time but i kno imma going to rember this for a long time..the past ish always with u,u can never forget it. time doesnt make memories fade away at least not the important ones. i habent heard this song for a long time. it jus brings bak so much memories..
10.07.02 l 11:43pm
recently ive felt like ive lost apart of myself. the support that i had to keep meeh from collasping ish gone. there ish nothing to keep meeh going. imma jus so tired. i want to rest i dont care ne more. i felt sad out of no where to day. nothing in particular happened but i jus wasnt happy. i cant put into words how i feel rite now. mayb ish jus a feelin out of the blue. who can i ask that can explain to meeh why i am feelin this way? for some reason imma startin to think of the past again. memories circle inside mai head as imma seein it happen again rite infront of my eyes. todai ive jus taken the things people do n sai so seriouly that nothing seems like a joke ne more. everythin annoyed meeh, i jus wanted to walk out of the room and forget about everything. i dont kno wht ish wrong with meeh, imma jus not up for it rite now. at the most part i kno half of this ish cuz of stress and the other half....i jus want everything to be over with. i thought sleepin would make it go away but that never helps..."tomorrow a begining of a new day" ish that true?
10.05.02 l 10:21pm
didnt do much in the moring. woke up at like 7:40 and went to the last SAt class that i am ever going to take. went threw like freakin 20 hrs of instructions and like i didnt even realli learn nething. oh wellz better then nothing i guess. came home n started workin on the total hrs for september. freakin eh i kept messin up that thing pist meeh off. i hate numbers i am not orgainzed n like it freakin takes up so much time. seriously if i can resign i would so gib up that position. i guess i am not up for this, if i cant even put up with this i dont think i should run for president. pplz said that i will do a good job but i dont think i will. if pplz habent noticed i wait till the freakin last possible minuet until i do nething. went to a mino bbq thing at alan's house todai. wht ish with pplz and their bbq? this ish like the third time this week that i went to one. the chicken was yummie. gah..i am eating soo much chicken. look wht u did to meeh freakin diana >.< kicked bak for a while listenin to pplz talk. the weather ish so nice in MP. ish not as hot as it ish up here n like ish nice to sit outside n talk. diana lost her sandles when we were racing bak to alan's house. so funnie u gots to be there to see it. sat round n watched duckie n alan tryin to hit each other n they suggested karaoke. mai ride came before it was mai trun to go n sing.
so mani freakin test this week:
sunday - write 2 essays..work on government paper with annie
monday - more essays to rite..remember direct legislation debate
tuesday - trig quiz..3 chapter enviro test
wednesday - psychology test
thursday - scholarship essay due
friday - 2 chapter government test. freakin remba like the 7 articles and the 27 amendments..the whole freakin constitution !!
-_- ne more freakin work to do this week. who said senior yr ish kick bak yr???
10.04.02 l 11:16pm
tammy: i am sooo going to get u bak on mai birthday watch.
alan: hope u hab fun at ur party. sorrie that i couldnt make it.
cake cakee cake!! so much cake!! i got caked when it ish not even mai bday!! >.< this was the first time i was caked all mai 17 years of life. imma so goin to get u pplz bak.u kno who u are shirley..tammy..the cake was soo thick n greasy. so hard to wash off. we caked everyone left and right, there was so much cream flyin all over the room *evil grin* i thought i could aviod it cuz i thought everyone forgot about me. ish not fun being the last one to be caked cuz u get everything and i mean everything. it got it all over mai heair and face. a big mess -_- but it was fun at tammy's bday party. i got to talk to alot of pplz that i habent seen around for a long time n most of all bbq *yummie* i got to cook mai own food. even tho it was kinda burnt but i still made it maiself =D i ate sooo much food..umm..shisk-o-bob, meat, shrimps, little meat ball things, chicken wings, and oysters. i cant believe that she hab oysters at the bbq. krazie pplz n like they were so skilled at doin it tooh. i got so hot in the back yerd cuz like there was four heated pots of coal. kicked bak n talked. damn eh i talked soo much tonite i jus went on n on n on. i felt bad cuz i couldnt make it to alan's bday party. sorrie alan that i didnt go cuz i didnt hab a ride. happie bday tho. hope u hab fun..
10.03.02
- diana house..kicked it at lollicup for a while
- found the F4 CD that i wanted =D
- runnin around last min to get ready for senior pix. i wanted to curl mai hair but i didnt hab time to go to rosanna house and bak to skool in like 5 min >.<
- 6:30pm retake of senior pix..i hope i turned out better this time *prayin*
ne one wanna trade with meeh when i get mines? IM meeh n tell meeh kk??
10.02.02 l 3:25pm
it was soo stupid..i went threw the whole day yesterdai thinkin that it was september 31th. that was pretty stupid since like september doesnt hab 31 days. i labeled all mai hw and mai journal as u can see " 09.31.02 l 10:51pm " i wonder if ne one noticed it. wht the hell was i thinkin when i wrote sept 31. i prob subconciously dont want october to come. ish onli been like a month of skool n freakin there ish already so much work. weeks are seem to pass by faster and faster. pretty soon before u kno it it ish going to be christmas break..i dont want to rite personal statement n the skool scholarship essay. ne one wanna do it for meeh?? ish due on monday so i guess meeh goin to procrastinate till the weekends to do it. blah..gots to go start on trig hw -_-