11.28.02 l 11:47pm
didnt do much todai..jus stayed home the whole day and slept. i dont wanna stay home tom. imma goin to go krazie being inside four walls all day again tom. now to think of it, kinda wanted to go to that service this morning, but ish tooh late now. since i am anti-turkey cuz i almost died from it last yr, mai parents got viet food for dinner. it was so freakin oily. got like a mild stomach ache cuz of that but it wasnt that bad. so mean pplz wont stop callin meeh a turkey!!! i am NOT a turkey! diana ish a freakin danish that crawls everywhere she goes!! haha i am not liein bout her crawlin. she even remba when she crawled. ::yawnz:: getting sleepie..99 swt dreamz pplz..
11.26.02 l 10:24pm
why cant we hab minium day tom >.< ! i remba it was minium day last yr before turkey day. everywhere constantly reminds meeh of the past..like i said in mai info "wht ish time passin by.. if the past ish still the present" i find that kinda true from time to time. days dont seem real ne more. everythin i do now feels like a routine. go to skool, hw, club meeting, out with friends, sleep and then it ish the next day again. time ish passin bai so fast, with jus an blink of an eye the week ish almost over. ish almost thanksgiving..gibing thanks to things that ment so much to me. i still remba riting that essay bout wht i am thankful for in japanese last yr. i wonder if i still hab that. another time for meeh to look for this weekend..
11.25.02 l 11:51pm
soo sleepie..didnt wanna wake up this morning. it didnt feel like i slept at all last nite. went to skool, nothing much happened, the same as usual. went to FBLA meeting after skool. there ish soo much fobs in there, i wonder if they kno wht they are doin. after that went to sit at the quad and diana bought soda with a dollar ish pennys dimes and quarters. i made clamchodwer then i got home =D it was yumMmie..self note: must go bak and get more clam chowder..kinda watched this bizzare scarie movie. it wasnt even scarie at all but the plot was very twisted, the ending was pretty much unexpected. orchestra was alritie. i jus found out that there ishnt orchestra on wed. ne one wanna go out on wed?!?!
freakin csu apps are soo freakin long. it took meeh like almost 2 hrs to fill out the apps for cal poly. the other ones better be shorter. soo tired rite now. cant think ne more. ish almost thanksgivin. i still remba being food poisioned from the stupid turkey last yr. i am soo anti-turkey but happie early turkey day everyone...
memories habent faded away..they are still here, as if it was yesterday..
11.24.02 l 9:31pm
i didnt wanna wake up this morning. i looked so dead that the optimtict. i got new glasses whoo hoo!! i dont gots to wear that gold one ne more. imma thinkin of gettin those vision correction contact lens but then they are hella expensive. the idea of stickin a finger in mai eye ish scarie. the guy at the optimitict places talks soo much. he jus dont shut up. after that went to eat at holiday cafe with mai parents. i finailly found that KISS CD that i was lookin for!!! =) then sat at the A.G. Telecom for like 45 min gettin mai upgrade and mai sis opened two new phone lines. so mani phones!! went to susan house to work on the enviro presentation for a while. sewage ish ickie!! i hope i kno wht to sai tom since imma goin to do the intro. came home and ate dinner. this ish the first time that ive eaten dinner at home with mai parents. damn college apps. i dont wanna fill it out but then i dont hab alot of time left. gots to finish the rest of mai essay and get pplz to proof read it. ne one wanna help meeh correct it?!?!?!
11.24.02 1 12:49 am
jus got bak from keppels play 'Fools' rite now..it was written by the same man that wrote Alhambra play. It was jus stupid funnie cuz like the way the actor acts was soo funnie. that one gyrl that was all over the guy and cackling..i gib her props for actin like that..haha. the play wasnt that bad. it was pretty funnie. i still realli dont get the plot tho. it ish either the writer ish realli hard to understand or he jus likes to make u think at the end of the play. after the play a couple of us went to star bucks and there was this one guy that took forever in the restroom. it took so long that i thought that he died in there then the funnie part ish that his friend comes bangin on the door and say " man did u die in there" . i was tryin so hard not to laugh when i heard that. then went to kick it at alans house for a while. then chris's dad took all of us to carlos to eat. i didnt want to eat. stupid pplz make meeh eat now mai stomach hurts >.< chris's dad ish soo nice tho..felt bad that he paid for the food
i freakin hab to wake up at like 8 this morning to get ready to go to this freakin can drive. it was mandatory tooh. if it wasnt i would of jus slept in. it was soo boring. walkin round askin pplz if they wanted to donate cans to an orphanage in tijuana mexico o.O some pplz were soo nice. it wasnt as fun as last yr but it was okie. walkin round from door to door for three hours ish not exactly hoz i want to spend a morning. houses in san marino ish freakin nice eh..we jus went round most of san marino house cuz we thought that since they can afford those kinda house they should hab alot of can foods. we collected like 367 cans i think. after that went with lisa to alamnsor park to sai HI to pplz. then i walked to diana house. damn i didnt kno that walkin from the park to her house took that long. kicked it at her house for a while and then went home to get ready and go to the play.
11.22.02 l 11:47pm
jus got bak home rite now. the play wasnt that bad. there were some stupid funnie parts. ish jus the actin that ish funnie. i dont get the story. i still dont get the ending. 'Rumors' ish jus bout a bunch of rich stuck up pplz tellin rumors bout each other. if ne of u pplz out there that get the ending plz tell meeh. i dont even wanna bother and try to figure it out. after the play went to kick it at star bucks for a while..
since the play started at 8 meeh and diana decided to stay round skool. first we met up with chris at star bucks, stayed there for a while makin fun of each other. then we went to hallmark. it ish sooo white in there. i want that percious moment white doggie with that 2**2 scarf!! it looks soo cute. there ish seriously nothing to do on main st except eatiin but we didnt plan to eat till like 630 ish. then went to untra zone for a while. i was goin to play ddr but then the pplz there were tooh krazie for meh. i left cuz i didnt want to look like an idiot when i fail. then we all went to play air hockey at kiddy land. i habent been there in a long time. the last time i went was bout a yr ago. it brought bak a lot of memories tho but i still hab fun. puzzle bubble!! i got so addicted to that cuz of him. hehe. rite before the play we went to eat at KCF. that was like the thrid night in a row that i ate chicken for dinner. i am so anti-chicken now -_-
11.21.02 l 10:43pm
i feel so empty without rice. mai mom made this funky lookin rice it was "supposely" healthy >.< it was called red rice (in chinese) it looked soo nasty. all i ate was chicken. i am asian wht do u expect..i WANT rice!!!! jus a little bit, prob bout like 1/2 a bowl cuz i dont eat that much rice ne ways..someone go make meeh a bowl of rice and clam chowder. that would be good =) i wanna go to soup plantation now!! ne one wanna go with meeh?
who ish goin to go watch the play tomorrow? Rumors..i dont realli get wht it ish talkin bout i hope the real thing ish better then preview. damn i gots to do so much for jus a couple points of extra credit!! i think i might go watch keppels play on sat. soo mani plays. i dont got to sleep in again this weekend. gots to wake up for the can food drive on sat and i got to go to optimitist on sunday. there goes mai weekend..jus random thoughts, ne one interseted in goin to the jay chow concert in lasvegas on christmas? i wanna go but then i wanna stay here for christmas. i hate makin decisions...
mai senior quote " i know lookin bak at the tears would make meeh laugh, but i didnt kno that lookin bak at laughs will make meeh cry" - i hab a feelin that i am goin to start cryin at graduation *sniff sniff* there was so much happie and sad memories and when i look bak at either of them i jus bring tears to mai eyes. this quote ish to all mai friends =D who made these memories possible
11.20.02 l 11:59pm
didnt do much todai. for once i get to go home rite after school. i was soo tired todai. we worked on the govt commercial to the very last min..*phew* at least that ish over. came home kick bak and started on other projects -_- i still got like soo much hw to do..ahHh group debate tomorrow.. round like 6 i went to orchestra. when i got home i spent like almost 3 hrs scannin the other parties plateforms and sendin it to mai group. i hab so mani windows open, it freakin lagged like hell..christmas wish list: FASTER computer. ne one that ish so nice as to get meeh a faster computer and possibable cable connections tooh. ill love u forever =) hehe
thank god j'than ish not a gyrl. the things u want are small but they are hella expensive. ask for soo much vaulable things. hehe. u still owe meeh mai digital camcorder, big house, and the diamond ring!!!!
11.19.02 l 9:49pm
i tried to stay up last nite to wait for the meteor shower and i fell asleep -_- all that stayin up till like one something was jus wasted. well the meteor shower didnt come till like 2:45 in the morning so it was all good i gues. i would of been soo dead if i stayed up till like three. i realli reali wanted to watch a meteor shower. i hope one coems sometme soon tooh. ne one wanna take meeh to the mountains to watch the next one? hehe let see i was sleepin in like the first three classes, diana wanted to draw a swaistica on mai forehead again like usual >.< after skool i went to the mac lab to work on the rest of the imoive. damm that thing took a long time. three hrs was not enough to edit and put everything together. i dont think we are going to finish netime soon todai. after that we walked to kerrys house to finish all the other stuff that ish due tom. i cant wait till all this is over so that i can finailly start on mai college apps. speakin of that i still habent writeen mai essay yet. i think i am going to go to sleep once i get home..imma sooo sleepie i can jus fall asleep rite now. ne one read the illiad yet. i dont wanna read it for hw. damn william gib us like soo much pages to read...
11.19.02 l 1:02am
one more hour till the meteor shower. i dont kno if i can last that long. i hab a feelin that i am goin to knock out before ish 2:30. why does it gots to be so late for?!? but ish kool i got mai unexpected wish from this =) this ish wht ish in mai info rite now "ive been waitin for a meteor shower ,finailly there ish one tonite..ne one wanna stay up and watch it with meh?
onli if there ish someone special to watch it with.." if i miss this meteor shower i might hab to wait 50 yrs. should i jus stay for another hr and half or 50 yrs, which one ish longer?!?! i'll be like 68 bai then..sheeh that ish freakin old. umMmMm..i wanna star..mai bday ish commin up ne one wannan buy meeh one =)
11.17.02 l 11:58pm
woke up round like 9:30 this morning and went to china town to see herb medicine doctor >.< did alot of walkin in chinatown umm..let see..went to buy iet food and then dimsum..sui mai ish sooo yummie at that place..after that i went to expo to retake mai pix. umm..it didnt trun out the way that i want it but ish kool i guess. i saw stephanie and michelle there tooh. waited for a freakin long time for them to take mai pix and it took a while to develope it tooh. then i went to kerry house..damn eh worked on the govt project from like 2 to like 11 todai and we still didnt finish. we got all the things together but we cant put it together yet.oh wellz i guess gots to spend the next two days workin on it. they better not freakin hab ne more projects this week i gots to work on college essay and apps -_- wht a waste of a day..spent workin on one freakin govt project. oh wellz hope next weekend ish better..
11.17.02 l 1:08am
i jus got home from the dance rite now. mai legs are sooo tired. home coming dance was fun =) hope ur tummy feels better steven. the songs are the dance was alrite but some of them were so hard to dance to. i still hab tooh much on mai mind but the dance was kool. i cant wait to see the group pic. for once steven ish not the pimp..haha..j'than doggin the camera eh..i prob look all retarded..ne way the pose ish like this three gyrls around j'than and steven and lil john ish suppose to look like they are goin to jump him or something. u gots to see it to kno wht i mean. also took couple pic and another group pic with campus. i think i look funnie in that one. it took forever to take the group pic with campus. rite when i got bak into the dance floor it was a slow dance song. i felt bad cuz all of them were jus sittin there -_- i dagged duckie out even tho it was a slow dance song for court..stupid pplz kept bumpin into us when we were slow dancein..u kno who u are (j'than! diana! lisa! john! >.<) u pplz and ur bony hips eh..hurts..i think i got a bruise on mai side.. after the dance we all went to eat at Garden. chicken terayki sandwich ish yummie and spanish coffee ish sooo koool, there ish ice cream in it!!!
at the end i noticed something but i dont kno if that matters. prob curiousity..i dont kno..reading reading. the more i read the more confusin i get. but curiuosity killed the cat i cant stop reading..
well since the 16th was yesterdai, i was suppose to go to a service at like 8 in the morning but then i think i caught a cold from the hc game i jus stayed in bed till like 11 something. picked up canna at skool and went to PAM. PAM was alrite it wasnt that good. i am sooo sick of curry..eee i cant get that smell out of mai head. wendy ish soo koool, she helped meeh braid the cornrolls =) thankie sooo much!
11.15.02 l 10:45pm
this was by far the best hc game that i went to. it was soo funnie. freakin j'than and khon >.< they wont stop makin fun of meeh and along with all u other guy tooh!! soo mean to meeh >.< imma soo glad that i dont got a lil sis like victoria i think i would of died tryin to take care of her. damn she ish soo engeritic..i cant keep up with her..durin half time i was helpin executive with presentin hc court. i looked sooo retarded. i was a freakin jellyfish >.< i was jus out there bobbin up and down that that huge white umbrella and like plastic tentacles. i bet the pplz that were watchin were laughin their head off..it was soo cold out there. i awalys get sick durin or after the hc game. i remba last yr i sat therw the whole hc game waitin for him. whoohoo AHS won..haha..as usual 27-12. ish mai last hc game but campus didnt win the float this time. ish okie with meeh..4th time would of been kool but oh wellz..after the game we went to eat at wendys. haha it was soo funnie they locked all the doors everything pplz wanna leave they gots to open it and then lock it again. i dont realli seee the point of lockin it and openin it. victoria kept callin meeh mr.clinton. do i look like a mr.cliinton to u?!?!
funniest convo of the nite:
khon: where ish ur bag
meeh: j'than has it
kohn: where ish mai sister?
meeh: lisa has it <~~o.O
- i didnt mean to call her an it
- i called khon a condo, i was tryin to sai "khon tho..."
but it was soo funnie. kept laugin the whole nite..=P
11.15.02 l 3:02pm
this ish the first time that ive ever started to rite mai journal entry after school. i jus feel like if i dont rite this out imma jus going to explode. i dont kno why ive been actin this way. something i dont even kno that i am acting that way. i guess ish jus that i am not in a good mood and i do tend to take it out on others when things dont go mai way. imma sorrie if ur one of those pplz that ive been takin out all these stress out on. sometimes i feel like i hab no one to turn to. i jus keep everything inside but there ish onli limited space in wht i can hold inside. i dont kno i jus dont wanna deal with everythin and all the skool projects that i hab. i kno i sound stupid and all when i do try to tell pplz hoz i feel and wht i think i guess the comments that i get bak arnt the ones that i am lookin for. maybe imma tryin to find someone to comfort meeh but when ish not there i jus feel like wht ever. i kno i am not the type of person that if i am not happie i hide it. i guess for being someone that ish happie all the time when obstacles come i dont kno hoz to deal with it and i dont want to deal with it. i jus want everything to go away. most of the time i feel like no one understand the way that i think. something things that i find important arnt the things that pplz would think ish stupid. i thought i was able to pull maiself together last weekend but i guess it didnt. i think if u read this i hope u understand. i jus sorrie for the way that ive been acting. sometimes i jus wish pplz would jus tell meeh. i jus feel like i hab no one to turn to. i rather jus type this up then sai it cuz i kno wht i want to sai ish not goin to come out rite. there are jus certain things that i cant forget and not be sad over even tho it ish the stupidest thing in the world to everyone else.
11.14.02
- float house..asembled the float =) damn i still got 12 more hrs..
- hc reshersal..jellyfish?!?! o.O i cant believe it took like 2 hrs
- kerry's house to work on stupid govt project. ne one wanna come help meeh film i need 3 more pplz
11.13.02
- japanese students came todai to visit
- kerry's house for govt project
- stupid finicial aid meeting. they didnt even tell us when they cancled it..damn kool
- bak to kerry's house. oh wellz gib us more time to work on the freakin project >.<
11.12.02
- finailly got the time to go pick up mai solo pix at expo but that freakin place lost mai negative. i guess ish partly mai fault it took meeh so long to go there and get it. at least i get to retake it -_-
- i habnt been to float house. damn i still need like 17 more hrs. ne one wanna go with meeh and help meeh finish?? there was sooo mani creatures..paper mache looks eh..no comment =/
11.11.02 l 10:57pm
didnt do much todai. one hella boring day. woke up in the morning n the first thing i did was hw >.< there ish so much things to do but in soo little time. i dont even kno where to start. all these group projects to work on even tho they are not due yet but procrastinatin ish not a good thing. i dont wanna wait till last min to rite mai college essay but then it doesnt look like i got a choice rite now..stuff ish pilein up everyday.. when ish this endless load of work goin to be over? who said that senior yr ish kick bak yr? there ish so much stuff for seniors to do bai the end of this month n i habent even started with half of it yet. imma screwed -_- onli thing lookin forward to now ish homecoming..
indirect talkin..haha..that will hab to do for now.. then i went to kick it at diana's house for a while. i was plannin to go to float house but then it wouldnt realli made a difference if i went now. i wont be able to finish the 20 hrs ne ways. i prob might go tom since ish alot closer now. but i kno goin there will bring bak so much memories. i dont wanna rember i dont wanan think..the bruise that i got from walkin into the corner of the ac ish still hurting rite now. when it does it reminds meeh of the day that i walked into it cuz i was thinkin of him and hoz stupid i was to loose the page that i tired to save for so long..memories..they are sweet but also painful..
11.10.02 l 5:25pm
i habent updated for a while..due to the fact that mai IE didnt work and i habnt hab the time in the world to update.
time, date, place..still has meaning to meeh..as mush as ish not suppose to ish apart of mai past..ish apart of meeh. the past ish the past there isnt nething that i can do rite now that ish goin to change it. it ish hoz it ish. it ish never goin to change. u learn from ur past to change for the better but u also learn from the past to protect urself from all the pain, close up all the feelin u hab for someone. afraid to try again, gibing up before it has even start. for u pplz out there jus be greatful that there ish someone who ish willin to gib up their time jus for u. u jus dont see hoz lucky u are to hab someone like that. expectin alot ish not a good thing but if they dont expcet alot then they wont be ur bf/gf..when it comes to love everyone ish selfish that ish the ways pplz are. they want wht they dont hab and when they hab it, they jus dont seem to treasure it..the cycle ish endless. it ish never goin to end at least until u find that one, that one that will be with u forever..but ish there forever??
11.05.02 l 9:10pm
thinkin of the past, when will it be the past?
even now i cant forget the memories
after such a long time it still seem like it was jus yesterdai
recovering ish a hard thing to do..will i be able to do it?
dreaming memories, crying , heartbroken
readin past enteries, feelin all the pain and sorrow
opening mai heart again for someone ish impossible
pushing and shoving all mai memories away into the dark
still mai mind wont gib in to mai heart..
falling into the hole that i dug for maiself
allowing maiself to hold on to the past
letting mai heart take control of mai mind
loosing..i hab lost.. maiself and mai heart
imagine a world without affection jus the cold cold breeze
nothing much to think bout..the past ish the past
goin on with life..missing yoOoh..
9:57pm
mai sis: ame look what ur little friend did? it ate the kit kat bars and looks like it left some for u. o.O damn that stupid rat that bit a hole in mai cloth ghost pumpkin >.< wait till i get a hold of u..your goin to die...i thought u were cutie so i let u run through the house..now uve gone tooh far...they dont sell that ghost pumkin ne more tooh =(
11.04.02 l 10.47pm
time flew by without meeh knowing it but why must i look bak at the past. in mai mind time ish frozen in place, it hasnt moved a bit. i wanted to ask if he was okie, but nothing came out of mai mouth. he was rite in front of meeh but all i could do was look away. i couldnt even sai a simple "hi". this feelin jus confused meeh..it seems like ive been liein to maiself all this time..*sigh* confusion ish life, inorder to be unconfused jus dont think bout it.that's probablly wht i'll choose to do..
"hwnet eh altst aerd orspf lasl..lils itllb eh dlognio nt oa llo fo rum omeseir..nada llo fw ahtu esdt ob e...." *last to the next, cut in half, right to left* if this doesnt make ne sense dont even bother tryin to figure out wht the stuff inside the quotes mean..
11.02.02 l 11:25pm
SAT was soo hard. good thing i didnt waste all mai time studyin for bio. the things that i was studyin wasnt even on the freakin test. >.< aww man i think i bombed it. the english essay part was not that hard but the stupid multiple choice that ish worth twice as much as the other i bombed. math..eh no comment. went out to eat with mai sis and lil bro after SAT. those lunch specials are pretty good. mango smoothie and boba ish soo yummie..went to the mall later n spent all of mai money buyin puffy jackets. now i hab all three colors =) i got like 40% off coupon from jeremy..that saved meeh like 50$..ish been a while since i walked round the mall for that long..
later i went to rosannas bday party round like 5 something. there was soo much food there. i love her mom's cookin. *yummie* i ate soo much. hot wings and those fried meatballs are yummie. watched 13 ghost again. i think it was better the first time but still it wasnt that scarie. i brought over the ring but then we didnt finish watching it. played ddr..must burn off all those food that i ate todai >.< umm..went home and watched the remainin of the movie bai mai self. i wonder if i can sleep tonite?
11.01.02 l 11:50pm
rite aftaskool meeh and diana walked all the way down to MP's chinese books stores to buy the japanese version of The Ring. the last time we walked down there was like in the summer, it wasnt that long of a walk, actually kinda liked it =) freakin diana eh she scared meeh with that freakin cover of the VCD -_- ish so kool i found out that there ish a part II of it tooh. knowin hoz impulsive that i am i bought that one tooh. it wasnt bad 2 VCD forlike jus 15$ i thought it would of cost alot more then that. then we went to eat at holiday cafe. chris came a lil later. seseame chicked with pinapple and beef and brocilli are sooo *yummie* later all of us and khon, j'than, and kelly went to puenta hills to watch 'Ghost Ship'. that movie was pretty lame it was sooo not worth like 7$ >.< i want mai money bak. it was pretty funnie, it wasnt as scarie as i thought it would of been.
umm..walked round the mall for a while. i bought this cute cell phone case. wellz ish jus plain milky white and the key pads look kool. next time i should freakin check if i got enough money and then ask them for something. it was so stupid i thought i hab like 2 tens but then it eneded up like i onli got like a 5 and 5 ones. that guy at that lil cart-store thing was pretty nice. he waited till i found pplz to lend meeh three dollars. thankie chris =) that guy was nice enough to gib meeh the milky while keypads tooh. i doubt it would of cost a lot but still. thankie to u who ever u are. haha. kk mai throat ish killin meeh rite now. freakin SATs II tomorrow morning and i habent studied yet. paid like 13$ to see last months score, damn i did so bad last time. dec ish mai last chance. gots to do better on it...kk 99 pplz
"hwnet eh altst aerd orspf lasl..lils itllb eh dlognio nt oa llo fo rum omeseir..nada llo fw ahtu esdt ob e...."