12.29.02 1 6:57pm
i found mai dress for winterball!!!! =) i was plannin to wear this other dress that i got a while ago but then it doesnt look rite ne more. i liked it bak then but i dont like it now..blah..now i kno i should not buy cloth in advance. the dress i jus bought ish fits perfectly, it seems like i got it talored or something. i hope no one else got it..
12.28.02 l 11:45pm
went to work on the rose parade floats today. i smell like coconut..haha. wellz better then smellin like chilly powder. we were workin on the plam leaves of the float. those leaves were pretty high up, i still refused to go on the scaffold but the ladders were still high. i was so scared that someone was goin to run and knock over mai ladder *knock on wood* the highest i went up was like the fourth step on the ladder, everything seems realli dizzy from up there. yep ur rite,i was stallin for time cuz i didnt wanna go on the scaffold. after a while instead of workin on the floats we kinda ditched and went to jack in the box. the food there wasnt that good but it was fun. we gots to kno lil bit more bout each other and accordin to them "well walk out of here a better person" , joanna called it honest day. at first we were jus playin truth and dare but we were tooh lazie to move so all of us chose truth. at the end we jus asked general questions and got a lot of feedback on out personality and faults. the stuff they said bout meeh are true but i didnt realize it until they point it out. thanks guy for tellin meeh mai faults =) hope wht i said didnt hurt u guy in ne way. it was the best part of the whole day well except the cheese spagettie and meatball for lunch.
12.27.02
boring day, jus sat at home and did nothing -_-
12.26.02 l 8:20pm
i smell like chilly powder!! spent the whole day workin on the china airline float. i dont get the theme tho, ish china airline but the theme ish dreaming of taiwan o.O who ever gets the theme wanna tell meeh cuz i dont get it. meeh and diana were workin on the wagon part of the float and that whole thing was made with chily powder. i think i took some home in mai sweater tooh. gots to empty that out. it was pretty high up but the platform was realli stable. i would not go on the scafold for nething. ish so freakin high, i dont think i can ever get over mai fear of hights. it got so crowded after a while that we jus left and took a break. i think i might of got something in mai eye, it kinda burned for a while but then it went away. it better stay away. lunch was alrite, i cant believe that hotdog filled meeh up that much, i still dont feel hungry unlike someone who ate and ate all day. hoz can ne one eat like a big bowl of rice and soup for breakeft, 2 hotdogs, 3 cups of hot chocolate, 2 cups of ginger ale, chip ahoy cookies, alot of chips, tempura, and tapoica milk tea and still hab room for diiner?!?!?! where did all the food go?!?!?! ate all that in less then like 10 hrs. enjoy ur metabolism while it lastes..
12.25.02 l 10:51pm
damn mai bro for talkin on the phone the whole nite. argh..i couldnt sleep. i hab no rite to complain cuz then i do that to them tooh. i think bai like 5 in the morning i got feed up and went to sleep in the living room. the freakin living room was soo cold and i couldnt feel mai legs after a while. i was stupid enough to sleep in the small sofa. i love peace and quiet. i guess after a while i went bak to mai room.
diana and khon woke meeh up to go to movies, round like 12 something. the meaning of the movies starts at 2 didnt click in mai head until it was like1:20 and i was oh shoot, the freakin movies starts in like 40 min and we gots to get to puenta hills. soorie guy for laggin. i dont think mai brain was workin that well in the morning. we got there like ten minuets after the show started. everything was almost sold out. i thought pplz spend their christmas at home but i guess not. bought the five o clock for this hot chick. hab like 3 something hrs to kill. so we went to eat, wander round the mall, and followed the pond of koi. we caused a whole crowd of people to start lookin at the koi. blah we didnt even get to watch the movie. freakin there was no more seats in the theather. we got our money bak and went to shoot pool instead. pool was kool =) n for ur information i am not a hustler ish jus plain luck. after that we went to tapoica express and then visit lisa q. stayed there for a while and went to kick it at diana house then home. overall fun day, didnt even seem like christmas but HAPPY HOLIDAYS pplz =)
12.24.02 l 11:56pm
ish been a while since i woke up before 12. cant seem to sleep ne more, feel to tired even tho i get so much sleep. chted online for a while and then went to kick it at lisa q house. made hot chocolate =) ish soo cold outside..*burrr* walked round main st for like two hours or so waitin for pplz go get bak from the mall. i cant believe i didnt buy nething todai. all i spent was on food. i wasnt even plannin on eatting but we hab nothing else to do. those kfc coupons come in handy. meeh, lisa q, lil john, and j'than went to watch drumline. :ra ta tat tat: the drums were soo kool but then the storyline was kinda boring to meeh. love the ending. wish i can play drums like that..mai puffy jacket ish not warm enough. yesterdai nite i hab like a sweater inside the puffy jacket and the sees candy lady was makin fun of meeh, askin if i was cold -_- blah..came home and for once mai parents didnt yell at meeh..christmas eve was alrite..hab fun talkin and wanderin round..
12.23.02
blah..woke up this morning for nothing. i was suppose to go to six flags but then mai parents wouldnt let meeh go cuz i am still sick. i guess it was a good thing that i didnt go cuz i heard it was freezin cold out there..sat round for like half the day. then went to the mall with mai sis to do some last min xmas shopping. i thought the lines were goin to be long but then it wasnt that bad. i bought some kinda kakhi coat thingy. the freakin computer kept crashing on meeh. argh..whyy ish it when i am usin the computer there ish always something wrong with it?!?!?!
umm..i love goin on 6th and front (as long as i am not the one that ish driving) lets go through there again =) library parkin space..haha..the lines are suppose to mean something. u cant repaint them and make it seem like everyone else ish wrong..hehe
12.22.02
ish the first time i slept till like 2 in the afternoon. woke up watched some tv and went to dianas house. mcDonalds..haha. freakin diana turned the cute lil tribal angel into some monk walkin into hell..o.O she ish wacked. ne ways. i think she needs a hearing aide. she cant even hear the door bell ring and i can. i thought i hab bad hearing. ish so easy to sneak into her rook without her knowing it. later we went with khon and j'than to montobell mall. it was so hard to find parking, so mani pplz. the guy at starbucks took forever to make the hot coco. j'than went shoppin at fashion 21 o.O walked round for a while and then went to bookstore to look for japanese movies. thanks j'than for the talkin stitch =) diana," i wanna strip the stitch" <~~ i sware she said that!! stitch talks ailen and engish..hehe..yeey six flags tomorrow..hope i can wake up in time..ish soo late rite now..
12.21.02 1 1:32pm
i got so much sleep in todai =) afterwards went to wills house for a chirstmas get together thing. it was kool gettin to see all the old pplz again..hehe. chantha ish soo mean kept stealing mashimaro. thankes jesse and stella for the ham-ham stuffed animal..ish sooo cutie..thanks diana and kan for the mashi maro..ish soo white and cuddly. they realli threw together a last min chriatmas dinner. the chicken took like 2 1/2 hrs to roast in the oven. by the time it was finihsed and we get to eat was like round 11:30. i was soo hungry!! garlic bread, pasta, smached potatos, and roasted chicken..yummie. but i didnt feel like i fit ne where. bai the time i got home was already like 1:20 something. mai parents got soo mad. i dont get it tho. they used to let meeh out till like later then this and then they didnt care but now they do. it doesnt make ne sense. they let meeh stay out later then this before..argh..oh well..i dont kno ne more. ish kool. i guess in a another couple of months no one ish goin to nag ne more..christmas ish comming near but yet it still feels so far away. i miss those carefree days. i think the onli things i want for christmas ish for everything to be the same like it used to be. everything feels so different. imma prob hab break to pull maiself bak together. lookin forward to winter ball..heard it looks nice..i like the water fountain..ive never been to a formal dance before so i dont kno wht i need to get for it. ack..need to sleep..soo tired...nite nite
12.20.02 l 11:48pm
winter break finailly here!!!!! found out where winterball ish goin to be at the capstriano/embassy suite's hotel on Jan 11, colors are ivory, pink, lilac O.O i hear it looks nice..water fountain =)
didnt do much todai..went to starbucks afterskool with diana and kevin. then we went to life plaza..damn their coffee take bad!! i am not goin to get a drink there again but yet i still do it. freakin hell they should learn to make better drinks, no wonter ish buy one get one free. sat there and talked for a long time then meeh and diana wandered around san gabriel until we found a mcD in rosemead.chick mcnuggets are yummieee!!! after that mario cart and smash bro at diana house. did i tell u i like the backwards racing course.hahahha..i still cant control yoshi..i kept fallin off the side...argh...must learn to do outher moves...over all good day =)
12.16.02 l 11:43pm
thankie guy for makin mai bday so memorable!! =D lots of laughs..hehe.. i dont think i am goin to forget todai for a realli long time. ish not like pourin rain ish bad enough but meeh and diana were runnnin round in the rain like idiots. i soo wanted to buy an umbrella..the ones at mervyens are like 12-24$..so expensive..afterwards we went to starbucks and khon showed it. it was soo kool him and diana were tryin to surprise meeh and take meeh out. but then i kept wanderin everywhere excpet star bucks they are soo evil..tryin to make meeh fat. first we went to islands. the endless chips and salas were realli engless chip and salsa. we couldnt even finish the first batch of chips. then we went to pick up lil victoria. went to creip in the grip. those things are soo hard to eat. the ice cream kept drippin all over the place. i knew they were goin to buy whip cream to cake meeh but then i didnt kno when. freakin diana thew like a hand full of whip cream and it hit meeh rite in the face..imma freakin get u bak even when ish not ur bday =) i looked like an idiot chasin her with like whip cream all over meeh. then we went to cake lisa at her house. hehe.. dont u jus love whip cream...eh..whip cream smellls sooo bad. i smell like pie rite now..cant seem to get the smell out of mai hair..imma get u guy bak next time!! thanks for callin to sai happie day..it means alot..thanks u guyz for everything!!
12.13.02 1 11:47pm
thanks guy for goin and supportin us tonite =) there was alot more pplz at the winter concert then i thought there was goin to be. after intermission all these ppplz kept comming in..i was like wht the hell..where did all these pplz come from O.O i was pretty surprised that alot of pplz showed up. the concert was pretty good..better then all the ones that we hab before. so happie..everything ish almost over. ne one wanna come watch us when we perform at SGHS next tuesday nite? i dont kno hoz much admission cost tho but wht ever it ish, ish worth it. by far ish been the best day all week =)
recap on wht i did todai: after skool i spent like ten minuets tryin to find mai orchestra cloth..as of rite now i hab a pile of cloth that i got to put back b4 i go to sleep. then we kicked it at kan's house for a while. mario cart ish EVIL..i hate those bombs that come out of no where. i always run into them!!! FKC was yummie, both our meal combined ish less then 7 dollars...let see there was chicken, potato wedges, and mocha coffee. i kno i am a pig..haha. then winter concert. after that walked round main st for a while tryin to figure out wht to do. i was soo freakin thirsty we jus went to ricks and sat there was talk..came home..shower..and now..
friday the 13th wasnt that bad..put i guess i spoke too soon..ish onli (11:57:03 PM)*sigh* i feel like something wants to rip mai heart out. certain things i cant believe..i feel realli selfish..
12.12.02 l 10:45pm
no time to update todai...so much essay i need to finish..who ever invented trig should die!!! ahHHhHhHHHHh!!!!! *screamin lungs out* feel kinda better now..
12.11.02 l 10:21pm
u wont believe wht i got u for ur bday >=)
orchestra was long..kept playin that one christmas song over and over and over. chior doesnt sound as bad as i thought it would be but then i dont kno if the pplz in the audience can hear them sing. haha. no one can find meeh when i perform on friday. i sit way in the bak and plus the conductor ish blocking meh =)i still hab two tickets left. anyone wanna go watch orchestra band and chior perform?!?!?! tickets still on sale now..buy it while i still hab it..
12.10.02 l 11:47pm
i hab alot of mai mind rite now and all i can do ish drown all mai feelins with work. trin to rite the freakin govt report rite now but i cant freakin concentrate. i kno i should let things pass, it ish wht it ish, nothing can change it now. dont worrie..ill feel better soon, once all these stress ish gone...
i feel so evil..u dont get to see hoz short mai hair ish. i kno i am over reacting but muhahahha >=) weekend ish 3 days away..curiosity killed the vincent. hahahaha..
12.09.02 l 11:6pm
didnt do much todai. went to tapoic express afta FBLA meeting. that stupid photo place next to TE that charges like 12$ to freakin make reprints. i thought it was goin to be cheaper then that.. went to orchestra and no one told meh that it was like two hrs long tonite. mai sis was waitin out there for meeh for like 30 mins =X that was prety bad. came home and rushed to finish all the freakin hw and stuff. i didnt loose mai arm afta orchestra tonite. i guess playin those 5 songs arnt that bad. ne one wanna buy tickets from meeh!! ish onli 3$ this friday the 13th at ahs audotorium, starts 6:30 =)
i dont kno wht ish wrong with meeh..*sigh* sometimes i cry over the stupidest reasons..cry over the wrong thing for the rite reason. dont kno if that makes ne sense. it jus makes meeh think, when will this end. repression ish not workin, i cant keep pushin it into the unconcious level. jus when i thought it was over, i end up where i started. i habent gotten ne where. i sai one thing but mai hearts feels another way, but some times imma jus so sure of it.. i hope this ish jus a phase of healin. i dont kno why i try to avoid him by pretendin not to see or jus walk to somewhere else. freakin eh i dont even kno wht i am thinkin. wht i want to do, i cant do it. imma an id...imma off balance..
God knows it's time for me to move on:: I want to feel alive again:: I want to be in love again:: And no matter how hard I try:: I can't erase you from my mind:: And I gotta find somebody new:: But I just can't give over you:: I tried to move on but you're not gone:: Cuz in my heart you still live on:: See now I know why:: I'll never love another for the rest of my life:: And why Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on:: And deep in my heart:: I wanna move on:: And now I know why:: I'll never love another for the rest of my life::
12.07.02 l 11:56pm
i jus got bak from j'thans house rite now. it was soo funnie duckie, khon, j'than and meeh were jus sitting there playin hang-a-roo..i cant believe we spent like 3 hrs playin that hangman ish like game. i kept killin the kangaroo. first we watched part 0 for the ring and i was the translator. damn there was so much details and meanings that i missed when i watched it the first two times. ish so hard to catch wht things mean..stupid foreshadowin. imma prob gonna pay more attention now to the details and stuff. victoria ish soo cutie..haha..she ish so freakin engergic and still calls meeh mr.clinton. well she stopped after she found out wht mai name was. i got bored and started to draw pplz..haha duckie looks like a bum and the other people looks soo funnie. it was fun kickin it with them and jus talkin..it was kinda weird spendin a saturday night playing hang-a-roo..the highest we got rite ish five consective times..someone gib meeh that web site !!!!!! damn ish soo freakin late rite now..umm gots to wake up in a couple of hrs to work on english project bout ancient persia with mai group >.< crap that means i dont get to sleep in again..ahHh..i hab SATs this morning. it wasnt that bad but i dont think i put in ne effort to take the test. i kno i messed up on the verbal section as usual and math was okie. i was soo hugry durin the test...i was so scared that mai stomach was goin to growl. came home and sat around for a while and ate lunch but i was still freakin hungry..something ish wrong why am i getting hungry so often now..that ish not good..ack..gonna go sleep now..99 pplz
12.06.02 l 11:19pm
omg..i feel like i am bald!!! that freakin person cut mai hair soo freakin short..bout like 9 hours ago mai hair was three times as long as it ish rite now..*sniff sniff* i miss mai hair!! imma gonna reattach them..dont ask hoz i am goin to do that cuz i dont even kno..ill find a way =) i hope mai hair grow out bai winter ball. it was soo funnie took diana a while to figure out that i cut mai hair and some pplz noticed rite away..it was a pretty borin friday, there wasnt much to do. went to diana house to kick it for a while. does ne one kno who was the person that founded sulfur? it was so hard to search for that >.< then we walked all the way to pitts house. it was soo windy when we started to walk. kinda reminded meeh of new york. i wanna go bak there for a white christmas but then i heard planes cant land there cuz of the huge snow storms...snow!! soo koool. i realli wanna see snow on mai bday *hint hint* haha..went to star bucks ish soo kool to kno that pplz actually take the time to read this =) white chocolate mocha!! haha..i saw lisa and lit person (john) there. like the saiin "when u gib them hugs make sure u feel it" i was almost squeezed to death.haha. went bak to pitts house and watched 40 days and 40 nites. i dont even wanna comment on that movie..ish such a guy movie..came home..watched the news..freakin hell i got SATs tom..wellz last chance to get a better score then the one i got last time and thatll be it for SATs for the rest of mai life.. =D
12.05.02 l 8:26pm
omg..mai tummy hurts from lauhgin soo freakin hard. stupid pplz kept makin fun of meeh in class and online!! pplz these days soo mean. i cant believe some of the stupid things they sai..LMAO..i habent laughed this hard in a long time..haha here are some funnie charts..if u get wht we are talkin bout..all these chts are happen simotamiously..
12.04.02 l 10:49pm
happie happpie happie.. haha found mai glasses todai =) someone turned it into the deans office. at least i can see now..and dance pic finailly here tomorrow..
12.03.02 l 4:48pm
wht a crappie day todai. i looked like an idiot after school tryin to retrace where i walked after 3rd to try and find mai glasses. went to the lunch area, deans office, guidence office, and mai 3rd period class. i dont even rember if i ever put it in mai back pack after 3rd. ayiah..have ne one seem mai glasses?!?! i hate lookin for stuff especially when i cant freakin see rite now..plus i jus hate lookin for things in general. spent like half the day worrin where the hell mai glass went. damn eh..i jus got it like bout a week or so ago. mai mom ish freakin gonna kill meeh when she finds out that i lost it. the glasses plus the frame total was like a bill something. that ish one hell expesive pair of glasses..
jus finished watchin the ring0. it wasnt that bad. it kinda explained wht happened in part 2. (the part where they said that she lived inside of the well for 30 yrs or something) actually i dont kno..then again it didtn explain ne thing. it explained hoz she got in there and wht she did before her dad therw her into the well. it was soo hard tryin to read the simplified chinese and watch it at the same time. i dont under simplified chinese characters, anyone wanna be mai translator the next time i watch it?? i realli should find something that goes english subtites..
12.02.02 l 11:29pm
i couldnt feel mai shouders after orchestra todai. imma beginin to feel old -_- i cant even hold the violin up for 45 min. the stupid christmas songs were so freakin long. imma gettin so tired to listenin to those songs, its all ive been hearin everywhere i go. i dont even bother to listen to the radio rite now. ne one wanna watch our winter concert? ish on friday the 13th (hence wht a nice day they pick to hab the concert) of december. ish featurin tri-city orchestra, band, and chior. i think it starts at 6 or 7, not sure yet. if u interesting come buy a ticket from meeh =) ish onli 3$ then after that i got another concert at san gabriel high on the 17th. eee..two more weeks till break..cant wait..
humm..there ish so mani version of the ring floatin round. the one imma watch rite now ish the ring0. haha ish actually before the first part of the ring. i wonder if ish goin to make ne sense. i heard ish kinda scarie. i dont kno i might scare maiself..everyone ish freakin asleep rite now and most of the light ish off and imma the onli one watchin this. bai the looks of it i dont think imma goin to finish, the movie ish like 90 min longs. haha i hab a collection goin i got 0, 1 , and 2.
12.01.02 l 8:40pm
yeey,,december ish finailly here. at least the yr ish commin to and end. i cant wait till this yr is over. nothing good came out of 2oo2 jus want it to end so that everything can be put to rest. i guess after the yr ish over then i can start out new again..=) in another 15 days and imma be 18. dame eh..i feel freakin old. no offense diana, but 17 ish an evil number. well at least for meeh. it jus been such a bad yr. as of now i guess 16 was the best yr. it was a very special yr besides being mai swt 16. dont think i can ever forget that yr and this yr. still dont kno wht i am goin to do for mai bday. might jus kick it with friends. i can onli plan stuff for other pplz cuz when ever i plann somethingfor maiself it doesnt come out rite. kiss- without you