the feelin of missin u jus settles in mai heart
its hard to explain but u kno it when ish there
the empty feelin inside when i cant see you
brings emotions to meeh from all over
wonder where u are, wonder wht ur doin
ish it selfish to ask jus for a lil of ur time
i realli never kno how to cope with this feelin
cant sit still,cant do nethin without thinkin of u
somehow,somewhere faith pushed us together
moments in time if onli it can freeze n never end
its on goin,time passes without us knowin
eventually we'll know where this will lead us
turkey day for day weekend!!! =P get to go home for after i get off of mai last class. damn math lecture >.< i should of went to class on monday so i could of ditched today. blah..class at 4 and like i hab nothin to do rite now. dont feel like sleepin cuz i kno if i go to sleep i wont wake up. i guess time to pack up some stuff and take it home. ish gonna be hell bring all this bak on sunday...
11.25.03 l 5:57pm
i hab the weridest dream last nite. i cant quite remember it rite now but it had to do with the market place shopppin center bak in alhambra and richard. i thought it was kinda odd. in the dream he didnt look like himself, he looked pretty different but some how i kno it was him. we were jus sittin there n talkin or something..i dont kno..i should of wrote it down when i woke up.
11.25.03l 1:03am
watched pool hall junkies with lisa n will in the tv loundge in mai hall. the movie was pretty good but i think they show some of the shots over and over again, sayin that it was something new. i dont kno...some of the shots were pretty krazie. i like =) made meeh want to play pool rite after the movie but i was pretty tired. i started to fall asleep rite when i got bak to mai room n like people kept wakin meeh up and stealin mai pillow. i get picked on even in mai own room!! i left the room to get something and when i got bak i thought will left cuz he said he was goin to head out but he freakin hide under mai blankets and tried to scare meeh. rite when i got bak into the room lisa was like "ur phone rang" so i walked to mai bed to pick up mai phone next thing u kno it he freakin popped out of no where and i scareamed =X it wasnt scarie tho butit was unexpected. evil evil evil >.< !!!
erRr...ive been tagged?!?!?! o.O lisa and will stuck a posted on mai bak and it said "TAGGED BY LISA AND APPLE 11.25.03 12:25am" i didnt even kno that...blah
11.23.03 l 7:05pm
i should be doin mai hw rite now but i guess imma update for now. khon, jthan, and lil john stayed for the nite. it was fun habin all them over at once. tooh bad everyone was tired and knocked out rite when we got bak. i would of stayed up if there was someone to enteritain meeh for a while. ahH...freakin khon stole mai bed last nite. i felt all cramped up this morning cuz i was like sleepin so close to the wall last nite. i woke up snezzin mai head off, i think that i caught a cold standing outside tooh..*ahhh chooo* damn it does get pretty cold here at nite or jus when the sunsets. everyone left this morning before i even woke up. i was jus like dead tired the whole time.
about like 2sh i went out to the UV to watch gothica with Edwin. the moive was pretty good it actually scared meeh, well the movie itself wasnt that scarie but i kept thinkin about the ring. that lil girl reminds meeh of the ring, i jus dont like lil kids in horror movies in general. i love the pscyological aspect of the movie tho, makes meeh realli want to go into criminal psychology. but then again ish alreayd scarie enough jus watchin it, dont realli feel like workin with madmans out there. i wanna see this movie umm...i think ish called mindhunters. that looks soo koool, crinimal profilin..that ish like mai thing. i might switch majors n go into CNASS for like crime sceen investigation stuff. i dont kno how would i react to like seein a pool of blood but eek jus thinkin of that gives meeh chills.
after movie got some boba and went bak to lothian to shoot pool. it was like the best game i ever played. i was actually makin the shoots in. practice does make perfect. now i jus got to figure out how to do those angle shots. i can get those in sometimes, i improved a lot since summer. it was a pretty good game tho even tho i didnt win any of the rounds. ish all bout the playin process, winnin and loosin ish nothing, but damn freakin edwin ish a hussler. the RSO was kinda gay..closed so earlie on us, and like we hab to carry the pool stuff with us to dinner, but at least we didnt get charged for it tho. yah,..umm got more food after pool. sunday nite dinner ish actually pretty good. there was ribs, mac and cheese, some kinda stake taco thing. i should start on mai hw and then off to CSA meeting, more later tonite if nething interesting happens.
11.22.03 l
will ish so kool, he brought meeh boba last nite from the tapoica express on valley. ish kinda far tho but thankie =P i was right riverside equals no sleep, we kept talkin until like 430ish in the morning. i wouldnt of felt sleepie but the fact that i found out it was 4something in the morning i start feelin a lil tired. then eventually i fell alseep n he sneeked out of the room tryin not to wake meeh up. haha i thought that was kinda funnie tho but i still heard the door lock slam against the wall. good attempt but the doors r jus tooh loud. i was surpirsed i got up for the CSA trash pick up service at 10. the wind ish NOT mai friend. geezus..it was so freakin windy and cold todai. after like the 20 min walk from the dorms to the UV i was so wide awake. riverside ish freakin dirty..well not at the parts were we were pickin up trash at but at like the streets towards the consturction sites. there ish like beer cardboard containers everywhere and like endless amount of cigratte butts. gurr..make us clean up their mess but it was kinda kool to find out at the end that we adopted the street. mai hair was flyin around like medusa, it was not a pretty sight. i hab like this mad funky lookin hair do in this one picture..eek..
after the trash pick up all of CSA went over to our presidents house to kick it and grubb. the bbq was alrite, kinda salty tho. melon ice cream was goood. i got to go find meeh some of those. imma startin to like korean desserts now. i finailly learned how to play Texas Hold Up. well at least i kno wht ish goin no now. damn ben, i always think he ish bluffin and i end up loosin all mai money cuz of that. i got to learn how to do that poker face and take risk. i onli go all out when i kno that imma for sure goin to win. i throw in chips like it was worth nothing. well it ish worth nothing but in the end it was all fun. i cant believe mai two high pairs lost to his three of a kind, i was soooo sure mai hand was goin to win..argh!!! haha...i challege u again Ben. at nite we had this Blast from the Past Semiformal dance at the AI Cafeteria. the word semiformal means alot of things, some people went all out with corsage n prom dress while some wore like jeans. it was all good tho..it took forver to get into the dance floor and i was freezin outside with mai skirt and top. i think it was bout 40 something dregress outside. took some picture with people, professional ones and camera ones =P after that got starbucks with lisa, lil john, jthan, khon, will, mey, henry, and victor. we were gonna go hikin but mai the time we got bak to the dorms everyone was tooh lazie to go so we called it off.
11.21.03 l 1:46pm
argh...everyone gets to sign up for their winter classes todai but i cant register for mines until money. blah..i hab a feelin imma gonna be takin classes bai maiself next qurter..ish all good as long as i get out a decent time on fridays.
here ish something interesting that happens almost everytime lawence ish kickin it with meeh n lisa n mai room. he would go on either of our screen name jus to flirt with other guys. look wht college has done to lawrence o.O
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: wha do u plan on takin?
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: take korean w/ me iph we can even take that class
lawrence w/ mai sn: ok
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: okayyy
lawrence w/ mai sn: i will take n e thing with you honey
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: ?_?
lawrence w/ mai sn: i wanna be in every class with you so i can see your cute face everyday
lawrence w/ mai sn: rawr sexy beast
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: aww freal?
lawrence w/ mai sn: hahahahaha
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: dat'll be great hunnie
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: =D
lawrence w/ mai sn: muah muah muah
lawrence w/ mai sn: kiss me my dear
vlawrence w/ mai sn: muahahaha
vw1LLy aPpLe SeEd: woah slow down turbo
lawrence w/ mai sn: no
lawrence w/ mai sn: fast fast fast\
lawrence w/ mai sn: vroom vroom
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: ahaha
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: aniwayz lawrence haha i'ma take a quick nap b4 mah class so i'll talk to u guyz later alrite?
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: haha have fun flirtin w/ other guyz ;-)
lawrence w/ mai sn: haha you think its lawrence, its lisa
lawrence w/ mai sn: dork
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: oh hahaha dun't make me tell john u butt -O
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: =P*
lisa w/ mai sn: O.O
lisa w/ mai sn: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
lisa w/ mai sn: that' was lawrence
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: just playin just playin
lisa w/ mai sn: not med
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: haha
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: whudda
lisa w/ mai sn: i'm doing my schedule
lisa w/ mai sn: -_-
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: u guyz confusin =P
lisa w/ mai sn: puNK!
lisa w/ mai sn: tell john on me
lisa w/ mai sn: imuna kick ur ass now
lisa w/ mai sn: bah
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: hahah
lisa w/ mai sn: >=O !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: i wouldn't
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: don't be mad
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: lol
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: haha totally confused...
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: g'nitez u guyz
w1LLy aPpLe SeEd: haha
11.20.03 l 10:59pm
blah..ten weeks of english discussion ish almost over n i still cant write for crap..gurr stupid subject verb agreement and past/present tense..those r stupid grammer school stuff. i cant believe imma still makin those same mistakes. wht the heck ish a 3+...freakin jus give meeh a 4. imma so close to passin mai midterm..one more chance to go..i still got like two more essays to rite for that class, there goes mai thanksgivin break besides that i hab one 4-6 page essay due for english lecutre *sigh* ... writing writing writin..ack
since todai was a short day..me, lisa, lawrence, and lil john went to get Pho at this VietNam Resturant in Moreno Valley, it was about 15 mins away from here. for once lisa ish not lazie to go out n get food =P after that lawrence picked up june and we went shoppin at Cabazon with will, henr, victor, and john. it was kinda funnie a bunhc of asian walkin into the stores, look at clothe, and then walk bak out. i didnt want to spend any money but i ended up gettin another tank top and another scarf at Polo Jeans. oh wellz, another 20$ is not goin to make much of a difference on a credit card bill =X after shoppin we ate at churces chicken. omg the food ish so cheap there, they hab this specail where it was three piece of chicken and biscut for onli 1.99$..yummie dinner =P
11.19.03 l
big thanks to the people who came out and supported CSA @ our shakey's nite fundraiser thing. the food there ish way better then the dorm food and plus u dont hab to cook it urself =P meeh n lisa split like this 12 piece of spicey chicken with mojo and a personal pan pizza. umm...so full rite now. lisa and will went krazie tryin to win tickets and trade it in for those colorful bracelets. lisa won like everyone at our table a bracelet. u guys should of seen her she was like jumping up and down pounding on those poor little frogs. staff was so funnie, james was spinnin his phone and sayin that which ever end that points at the person recieves a lap dance from the person who the phone points at with the butt end of the phone. i think it was met for judy to get/give a lap dance to james cuz it always points at both of them. she didnt want to give him one so he kept spinnin until someone would actually do it and finally at the end it was james givin a lap dance to judy and he did it. it was so funnie, i think he was high on something when that happened.
the meteor shower was realli interestin last nite. thanks u guys for tellin meeh bout it. meeh along with lisa, will, ryan, victor, john, and pablvo hiked up this hill to watch the meteor shower. it was freakin cold up there but the view of riverside was so worth it. i was so sore by the time we got to the top of that hill, the trail was pretty steep. i bet sunset would look pretty krazie up there. the first meteor i saw was soooooooo pretty =P it was so bright that it lighted up the sky and it left like a while streak mark for a couple seconds. the ones that came after that were kinda lil ones that u can barely make out. umm..i realli wanna see a meteor shower that ish jus rainin down constantly instead of seein one like every 15-20 minuets.
riverside at nite...soo pretty

..will meeh lisa pointing at the sky..

eh, whts victor doin in the bakground? - meeh n lisa

..pablvo..ryan..meeh..john..
..victor..will..lisa..
..will..pablvo..ryan..john..victor..
.. meeh ..
11.16.03 l
recap on this weekend:
- attempt to work on mai essay
- shoot pool @ lothian n grandmarc
- saturday brunch >.<
- grandmarc - DVDs
- gladiator, matrix, drumline, save the last dance
- carls jr sunday special
- CSA meeting
- boba with drew, nakiya, james
11.15.03 l
something i got to rite down before i forget tomorrow morning. actually i dont think will ish goin to forget it netime soon =P since i was stayin for the weekend will brought meeh boba and karen brought meeh frozen grapes. *yummie* dont ask how they go together but they jus do. ne ways i walk out of the room for less then five minuets and will falls alsleep. meeh n karen decide to bust a jiggly puff and draw all over him. we were gonna draw on his face but then he would have to walk down the hall with scribbly marks. we were laughin so hard that we had to walk outside or else we would wake him up. good job karen *high five* imma upload the pictures when ever i get them..funnie that made mai nite =D *jiggly jiggly puff*
11.14.03 l 8:16pm
sometimes i wonder why we live though life
ish it jus to live to learn and then die
unhappie memories can be brushed away with the blink of an eye
but when it comes down to how ur heart realli feels..
you cant help but just to cry
tonite the first nite imma actually stayin in the dorms bai maiself. ish kinda quite here without lisa to talk to. it hasnt been so quite around meeh for a long time. i always find things to do cuz onli movin around will not give meeh time to look bak. when imma still it feels like time has stopped movin around meeh . . . . .
11.14.03 l 4:08am
i jus got bak from LA rite now..so freakin tired but i dont feel like sleepin yet. hope u guys had fun at Century tonite =) i felt like i could of danced the nite away..except for all those random people poppin out of no where but yah it was fun. i think i'll update more later, since imma gonna be in riverside over the weekend. *yawns* nite
11.12.03 l
- school .. midterms .. lack of sleep
- out with James, Drew, Tony, n Patty
- Cabazon Desert Springs Outlet =P
- Reb Robins.. bonzai burger *pineapple*
11.11.03 l 9:51pm
it feels so good to sleep for like ten hours staright without worryin to wake up and go to school in the morning. it feels so good not to have school period =) for lunch i got church's chicken with lisa and lil john. yummie chicken but ish not as good as popeyes. i miss popeyes chicken. ne ways after lunch headed out to Santa Monica 3rd St Promenade with CSA people (james, tony, drew, cynthia, n judy). talk about being inpulsive buyers,these people r like freakin shopaholics. imma no where near them especially the guys. 430$ for a lether jacket at AX o.O a lil tooh krazie for meeh. imma happie with the stuff i bought. i still need to buy more cloth tho, to replace the stuff i threw away in the summer. must shop shop shop until i drop. i tasted actaul korean food at Tofu House tonite. it was pretty good, more traditional then i thought it was going to be. i love korean bbq. the tofu soup bowl thing was good tooh. i wanna learn how to order in korean, i dont kno it jus sounds kool =P
11.10.03 l 5:16pm
mai day finailly ended rite now. damn i was up since like eight thirty this morning runnin around doin stuff. gurr..sooo tired n sleepie rite now. i didnt want to go to english todai but since we were jus goin to watch a movie i jus went to sleep there. i tried to watch the movie but the freakin classical music in the background put meeh to sleep. after that i went to work on the CSA posters with people. i got there onli to find out no one was there so i worked on the posters bai maiself. i guess ish okie since now i dont got to do the sign up for posters next week =) the posters look so girlie and the turkey looks kinda funnie but oh wells..i got food at the common's caferteria but the italian food there ish jus like the ones they serve in the dorms, nothing special there. umm..waited for people for a while and wrote mai essay. this ish the first time i spent the whole day on campus instead of in mai dorm.
11.08.03 l
big THANKS to James for drivin us down to CSA All Staff @ UCSD todai. it kinda sux that the whole car was dead asleep but yah it was nice of u to come bak from LA to take us to San Diego =) the ride there was long but the day went bai pretty fast. i thought our cheer was better then the other UC's even tho ish kinda =X lets see i think this ish how it goes:
HEY! HEY! CSA..u kno who u are
people near n far..come kick it at UCR
UCR Yeah Yeah UCR..u kno thats us
UCR Yeah Yeah u kno u wanna come get down with us
get down..get down..CSA
get down..get down..ficky ficky
get down..get down..CSA
get down..get down..ficky ficky
C-S-A ALL THE WAY whoOoOh wHoOoH
UCSD campus ish freakin huge. we had to play this scavenger hunt thing for president's signature..man was that a long walk. i was so sore bai the time we got from the first point to the other point. it kinda sux to kno that the dorms at UCSD ish organized bai colleges, so if ur friend ish at another college ish like u got to walk half way around campus to visit them. after the meeting/social we went to get Pho in SD. surprisin the asian food there ish pretty good. i like mai broken rice with bbq pork and steamed egg. *yuMmIe* umm..after dinner we all got boba. another good drink - apple green tea with boba. ish a change from all that milk tea stuff =P
11.07.03 l 2:01pm
imma so freakin tired rite now from the UnderWorld party last nite @ LA. i was sooooo fun..CSA Staff was freakin krazie on the dance floor. it was so kool kickin it with them, they realli dance =) well before we got to Century Club in LA we went to eat at this Hurry Curry of Tokyo place. the food there was okie. japanese curry ish pretty interesting. ish like not even curry ish, ish like a dark brown ish color. look kinda funnie to meeh, i thought it was kinda like gravy. after clubbin all of CSA Staff went to eat at Garden Cafe in Alhambra. it felt so good to eat asian food bak at home. it taste soooo much better then the place down in riverside. the drive home was so freakin long, ish like equavlent to like the drive from san deigo -_-' one and half hours. we got bak like round five something this morning...i didnt feel like sleepin but then there was nothing to do for like the next four hours. man it was hard tryin to get out of bed this morning. english then off to drop off a check for mai housin payment...$485 dollars o.O then off to get boba and food for lisa. clam chowder *yuMmie* i wonder how long am i goin to last with four hours of sleep..i feel very tried rite now
we were watchin this old tv show called "TV Nation" in english this morning. omg..it was so freakin funnie!!! the host of the show love to makes things rite and like makes fun of everything. there was this one eposide, there was like a KKK ralley in Gerogia. he gathered a bunch of people of other races n like were singins song sayin that they love them even tho they are full of hate. i thought it was kinda funnie, to have them like sing, cheer, and blow kisses on one side while the other side ish like cursin and yellin. there was also another one where like this guy, he looks like one of those bouncers u would see at a club, like gets pulled over for all the crimes that happen in his neighborhood. the host of a show made a huge billboard that said "NOT WANTED" this man ish NOT the man that u are lookin for. he ish NOT the one. i thought it was funnie cuz they like intergrated all the cops. puttin flyers and protestin rite next the cop cars. then they like man a commerical, national announcin that he ish NOT the man they the police in Washington D.C. is lookin for.
11.05.03 l
- International Food Fair - CSA Korean BBQ
- Stater Bro & Kirin Korean Store with Lawrence
- John and Jthan visit
- UV for Martix Revolution
- sprayed wipped cream @ belated birthday boy
11.03.03 l
people kept stealing mai bed when they come over to visit. jus cuz there ish nothing on mai bed execpt pillow and blankts, doesnt mean they can steal it. ahH..i cant believe freakin jthan came n pushed meeh off the bed. when i was sittin on mai bed lil john came over and treid to pull meeh off but jthan grabbed mai arm so i wouldnt fall off. now i am basically dangling off the side of mai bed, the next thing u kno jthan lets go and pushes meeh off!! that guy ish jus askin for a beat down man..i kept sockin him afterwards. i think they pusehd meeh off the bed at least three times n like bai the last time i jus stayed down there. tooh lazie to get bak up. jthan tired to pick meeh up and he got lazie and let go, so i landed head first into the floor!!! ahHh..evil peoples!! first they steal mai bed now they make meeh fall *shakes head*
11.02.03 l
i didnt get off the phone till like about three something last nite. ack..so sleepie this morning, i could barely open mai eye for the optimtric exam. i got contacts!!!!! I CAN SEE NOW!! i was so amazed when i can see clearly without mai glasses. the feelin was sooooo kool. i dont kno hoz to describe it but it felt so nice =) whts ish wrong with the weather these days. it ish so freakin cold in alhambra and in riverside. i thought it was goin to be at least warm bak at home. gurr..gotta go dig out mai winter clothe now. i was made craving Cocury this morning. i went there with Diana, Khon, Jthan, and Vickie. man, we ate like pigs!!! 11 plates..hahahha damn that was sooooooooooooooo gooood. ne one want to go bak there again. it was so kool kickin it with them again. ish been a realli long time since i realli got to talk to diana. it so happens that there was promo for t-mobile plans near cocury. i got a new number guys!!!!! (626)203-9496 i can talk on the phone in the day now. i got like 1000 weekdays mins and free nite and weekend with nation wide long distance. no more walking alone..i can talk now. the onli bad thing was that i hab to input all the freakin phone numbers into mai new simcard! 160 names and numbers!!! >.<
oh wells, bak to riverside at like 830ish n went over to CSA meeting. the meeting took forever. blah..food fair on wed, century la on thur nite, and all-staff on saturday. i wonder wht our cheer ish..hope it ish not something lame. u kno wht ish the funnest thing in the world? people blabbin on n on when they r buzzed. freakin lawrence was so funnie, he talks alot more, freakin hallarious. will came by to kick it too..it was so fun pickin on them. poor will when he comes over he ish always correcting someone's essay. that wht u get when u pass ur subect a exam. umm...talked n talked n talked some more. lawrence crashed here and will left like at one something. aww..u kno wht ish so cute lawrence slept with a cow over his head n he was huggin it. hahahahha i should of taken a picture of that..oh wells,,next time i guess..
11.01.03 l
eee..the writng test was okie. interesting topic tho "no will be - has ever been - educated by school" i agreed tho =X haha imma werid. i think that school never realli taught us anything. there ish like so much people out there that think they kno everything after high school. blah,,i wrote like freakin 6 pages!!!! >.< i hope i did good..i dont even kno wht i was writing about after a while..oh wells..at least it is jus a practice one..after the test meeh lisa and tan went shoppin at la peunte. ahHh..spent so much money shopping. i charged like a hundred something on mai credit card at robinsons may. i dont want to see mai credit card bill at the end of the month. umm...we were there from like 430 till 7 and we onli went to like four stores. geezus.. i saw this realli realli cute mousie cell phone holder stuffed animal thing. omg,,it was soooooooooooooooooo freakin cute. i so wanted to get it but it was kinda over priced at the store. ish like gray mousie holding a cheese with a big o smile!!!! imma so gonna get that the next time i go bak there.
umm..there was so much traffic on like the 10 west heding bak home. theres been so much accident on the freeways,,,kinda scarie. i habent seen vincent in like the longest time ever. after we got bak, we met up with vincent and john. we went to eat at this one gettho resturant in MP. i dont think the food ish ne good there but i guess it was edible. i was tooh hungry to argue with them. i got a plate of those jelly fish with pork slices. for u non-asian out there it ish this clearn strip of jelly like substance with some slice of pork meat at the side. this was the first time i ever had asian food with mai friends. it was quite interesting tho =) after that went to shoot pool at CueBall. YEEY..imma getting better at it..maybe if i aim more often i think i can shoot the ball in. home at last..after a very very long day..now i am on the phone..umm...that it for today's entry..nite nite people