01.27.04 l 1:30pm
imma kinda realli dissapointed. i thought it was but i didnt want to ask and confirm what i thought ish goin on. jus stuff rushing though mai mind. it felt like apart of meeh hasnt let go yet. that smile..i kno would not be directed towards meeh again...

Love is like a gust of wind
Finished blowing, it then goes away
This kind of rhythm
No one can cope with
Afterwards without you
My soul goes out of control
The dark cloud is landing
I am pulled away by it

Without knowing it
You have already left me
Without knowing it
I have followed this rhythm
In hindsight
Passed another autumn
In hindsight
I should make good use of my life

01.26.04l 11:59pm
hey big sis!!!! takes for the presents =P lots of pictures..lot of fun!!!
and for u who do not kno..DI ish mai big sis!!! =D

01.23.04 l 1:01pm
didnt realli do much on chinese new year, didnt go home or nething but i went clubbin with CSA staff, june, annie, and lan @ the Lunar New Year Bash @ century. there was so much people there, so freakin crowded. it was okie tho, got there kinda late, and we onli stayed for while but it was kool get to see some old friends again. ish surprisin who u bumb into nowadays. meeh n june didnt get bak to riverside till like 3 in the morning. imma still so freakin sleepie rite now. i was prob half asleep when i was takin mai history midterm this morning, oh wellz, hope i did good. imma prob gonna head home for the weekend and collect mai "hoang bao" (red envelopes filled with money) =P

01.22.04 l

happie lunar new year!!!!!!!!!!!!

where ish mai red envelope u guys??

ahH...i went to sleep at like 3 something this morning watchin Battle Royale with the guys. that japanese movie was sooo krazie. it was about this class of 43 students on a class trip, they get gased and all of them were sent to an isolated island. they were told that they were suppose to kill each other and the last person standin will be able to leave the island, kinda like "surivial of the fittest". the killin were pretty uglie. i didnt expcet some parts of the movie to be kinda freakie, this one girl looked sooo scarie. she freaked meeh out >.< when i got bak to mai room i left mai desk light on cuz i kept seein that girl's distored face with like blood drippin all over the palce n her wide eyes with that big grin *shudders* damn but it was a good movie tho, sorta confusin. cant wait to see the second part, ne one have it?

01.20.04 l
- bought Autobiograhy of Benjamin Franklin
- 4 hours of lecture..school >.<
- homework...math..essays
- CSA first general meeting @ MoVal Bowling
- Big Sis n Lil Sis GetTogether @ Alyson's apt

01.19.04 l
didnt realli do much todai, i jus realized that i got a crap load of homework to do when i get bak later to the dorms. traffic on the freakin 60 was horrible. we were sittin in traffic for about two hours >.< first stop was the CSA meetin at Drew's place. talked over some activies for this commin quarter and details about the bowling first general meeting tomorrow. second stop was Tina'a apartment for the Rho Bid Party. it was soo kool that everyone accepted the bid, i hope we stay strong all the way. cake, apple cider, talk, and jus kick bak for the rest of the nite.

01.18.04 l
ahHhHHhHHhhh.......i got a bid from RhoDeltaChi!!!!! Alpha Gamma Pledge Class =P hehe..imma so happie!!!! there ish a total of 12 of us. meeh, lisa, june, gina (ahs class of 03) and karen, nikki, jennifer, crystal, grace, kaila, tan, and katrina.

01.17.04 l
i went shoppin with diana and mai sister at chinatown todai. i bought some kinda of chinese new year dress, imma not a pink person but the pink dress looks realli cute. even tho ish cute i got the light blue one cuz they ran out of the pink one, it was onli 18$ so ish all good. at nite, i went ice skatin with a bunch of 626 people. i think imma gettin the hang of it, thanks u guys for puttin up with meeh wantin to stay close to the wall. maybe next time ill move a lil bit towards the center. i used up all mai freakin energies pushin maiself to move with those skates. after that all of us went to eat at ABC cafe,, rib eye stake was soooo yummie. it was a fun day,ish been a while since a whole group of us went out like that. we should do it again sometimes =P

01.16.04 l
interview for Rho wasnt that bad. hope i did good. now it beings the three day weekend. i wonder whats there to do..ne idea peoples?

01.15.04 l 9:30pm
its been so much fun this week rushin for RhoDeltaChi. it was info nite on monday and i met alot of new girls. it was pretty kool. after the meetin there was boba. mai kinda drink =P tuesdays was sisterhood nite, met some more new girls and played some games. cerades ish so freakin funnie, good thing i didnt get the one with the nutty professor or married with children. it was so funnie to see everyone. i think the game i like the best was the one where u get into a circle and one person ish the leader makin diff dance moves and the person who ish outside ish suppose to guess who ish the leader. wednesday was the rush party at elcastillo. it was jus as fun as last week, except this time there was more people to dance with. =P jeff was so fun to dance with, i dont kno it was jus something but soooo fun! i didnt get bak till like one something in the morning. i was so hungry that we went to the 24hour drive in del taco and got some chicken soft tacos. *yummie* and tonite was the pizza nite with the house frats at bb bbq grill. their dance routine was sooo cute, i like how they run out and then another group run in and finish the routine. now the onli last thing to do ish go though with the interview and wait for the results. ahHh..why does it got to be a three day weekend. i dont think i can find out the results until monday night

01.12.04 l 1:03pm
argh...i cant decide which one i like more; imma not sure which one i wanna rush for. i mean i dont realli care for which one i rush for rite now even tho i like the other one better. ish kinda hard to decide which one ish better because at the end it all comes down to who u actually wanna be sisters with. if onli i can make up mai mind about it rite now. i got a couple more hours to think of it before the actual event tonight. i should realli think abou this and do what i want instead of listenin to others and do what they do. i mean i already missed out on the business frat that i wanted to rush for, cant make that mistake again. if onli someone understands what imma thinkin rite now.

01.11.04 l 3:11pm
i went up to Big Bears for Winter Retreat with CSA this weekend. it was so fun kickin it with them this weekend. 15 of us got a cabin with two rooms, a living room, kitchen, and a hot tub in the backyard. the weather wasnt that bad during the day but it was freezin cold at night. the beds were given out depending on senority, which means the older members and top four officers got the rooms. lisa, june, and me we jus stayed in the living room. it was so cold in the middle of the night that i woke up and jus stared a the ceiling until the heater kicked in.

evaluations were kinda scarie even tho i kno the officers, jus being up on the stoplight like that ish jus scarie. even now after givin out so much interview in high school i still hate interview like situations. it was pretty laid bak for the rest of the night. tony and sean were playing this game called Fatal Frame II, the game was so freakin interesting. it was bout these two twin sisters who goes into this forgotten village and like take pictures of ghost. it was scarie at first but after while the ghost jus looks retarded. we got up on saturaday for this long meeting, i cant belive it lasted for almost 2 1/2 hours. mai bottom was gettin numb and i kept moving around.

everyone went snowboarding but meeh and june jus walked around checkin out shops and making stuff with the snow. we engraved UCR CSA on the snow and this bratty little boy jus ran by and stepped into it. he deliberatly ran into it!!! stupid lil kids i so wanted to throw something at him..argh..took a picture of it after we finished fixing it. james cookd spagettie for dinner and then people jus sat around playing King's Cup. good thing i didnt play, i would of passses out if i had to drink that much, surpsised no one threw up at the end. all of us watched the UCR basketball team and one after another everyone jus fell alseep.

01.09.04 l 1:54am
i had so much fun at the BUD party with lisa q, amy ha, diana wei, david, and with edwin and them from ardacia. i habnt been clubbin in a freakin long time. i couldnt walk bai the time we left El Castillo. it doesnt matter where ur at but who u go with, it was so fun dancing with them =P we got to go together again next time. umm..jason came down to visit edwin, i habent seen him since senior year, and kevin, bobby, soloman was there tooh, i didnt think i was goin to see them again. tired..time to go to sleep, i got at eight tomorrow and i still got to pack for Big Bears. so much stuff to do, so little time...nite nite people

01.08.04 l 6:55pm
i spend most of last nite watching this anime called Kimi ga Nozomu Eien "The Eternity You Desire" even tho the anime had a nice ending, i felt kinda sad cuz it wasnt the ending that i wanted. there was something about the ending, Mayawamu's Present that remindind meeh how hard it ish to say farewell to someone speical. the last couple mins of the anime recaped about the love and friendship between the four friends reminded meeh so much about high school.

01.07.04 l

"like the twinkling stars in the sky
hearts that have joined shall never fade
even if these hands are apart
onli if the two of us dont forget"
- Kimi ga Nozomu Eien

01.06.04 l 1:35am
ish actually been a while since i actually updated on the date is said thati updated. well, i jus got bak from dustin's surprise birthday gettogether thing at GrandMarc. the surprise was cute but we took tooh long to get hin out of the room and the ice cream cake already started to melt. it was so freakin funnie when like lisa was gonna jus push his legs and will yelled out lets pants him and like dustin fell and sat on one of lisa's shoulders. poor lisa but it was funnie dustin like jus hit the floor and didnt want to walk ne more. the ice cream cake was yummie, i habent hab that for along time. everytime i see ice cream cake all i can think of ish the time that i got semi food poision when i hab it for mai 12th birthday in 5th grade.

winter classes started today. i swear nine o clock class ish tooh freakin earlie in the morning. i guess it ish all worth it in the end when i can leave at like 11:30am on fridays =P i habent been up this earlie in the morning since like three weeks ago when i hab to take mai math final in the morning. class was actually alrite, better then i thought it was goin to be. it was so funnnie habin class with lisa, lawrence, and ricky. after class i came bak and tried to finish unpackin the rest of the junk i brought bak here. i thought i would of sorted out the stuff i brought bak and actually brought the stuff that i need bak but i brought bak alot of the presents/decorations that i got for christmas and mai birthday. THANKS GUYS/GIRLS for all the gifts this yr =P

01.04.04 l
- DimSum with family
- move bak to riverside
- Cabazon
- CSA mtg

01.03.04 l
did some last minuet shoppin before i move bak to the dorms tomorrow. i bought alot of junk food and picked up picture. the pictures i took from riverside ish so freakin funnie, memories =P in the afternoon i went to Long Beach Acquarim with Diana, Khon, and Andy. the wind was like blowing at top speed or something, meeh and Diana wandered around the dock for a while lookin at ships and we found the ship for Pirates of the Caribbean. the fish inside the acquairm ish sooooooo huge. this shark that swam rite infront of meeh freakin made meeh up, i felt like i was standing underwater with them or something. we got to pet the dog sharks and rays. this one little ray was soo cute, it kept pokeing its head out of the water like if it was tellin us to pet him. we had about an hour to run around the aquarium lookin at all the exits, if onli we had more time to jus stand there and look at it.

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