08.29.03 l
so much stuff to do todai. well not exactly alot but enough to keep meeh busy for the whole day. i spent most of the morning scannin all mai pictures into the computer. there ish still so much more to scan but i'll finish it tomorrow or something. i think round 12 something big tony came and we went to kick at CueBall. we were suppose to go shoot pool at CalState La but then the recreation place was closed. thats the third time!! everytime i go there they are closed. oh wellz..pool at CueBall ish bout the same thing. i can't believe he ish not 18 yet!!! make meeh feel so old >.< after that, it was tooh hot to go hikin so we jus went to rent movies to watch instead. who knos that with a blockbuster that big they didnt hab Jeepers Creepers. i heard it was pretty scarie..i wannna see that before i watch the second part. since they didnt hab it so we watced American Pie instead. i've seen the other two parts before i've watched the first part. later on at nite i went with mai sister to get meeh insurance. since their plan ish almost up, it onli cost bout 60$ to add meeh on for two months. YEEY!!! ^__^

08.28.03 l
in the morning i went to get mai test results for mai TB test the other day and at nite i went to kick it with diana at Holiday Cafe. got some yummie spanish coffee and went to kick it at her house for a while. i wanna go to San Diego!!!! ne one wanna take a tour up to San Francisco before school starts?

08.27.03 l
housin for UCR came in todai!!

Building: Lothian residence Hall
Roomate:Lisa Quach
Mailing Address:
500 W Big Springs
Mail Box #604
Riverside, CA 92507
Phone No: (909) 827-8621

that's if i decide to get a room phone or jus call mai cell no long distance charge or u can rite to meeh or theres always AIM

08.26.03 l 7:30pm
a strange feelin hit meeh all of a sudden when i realize todai ish tuesday. i spent the whole day thinkin todai was the 25th. ish been a week...

all i've been doin for the past couple of days ish eat, sleep, n watch tv. talk boout being lazie. i went to get mai physical checkup todai. i was so happie i didnt need to get ne shots except for the TB test. gotta go bak thursday to get mai results. blah..everytime i get the TB test i always get a bruise. let's see, wht else..imma 62 3/4 inches tall, so close to being 5'3 >.< weight ish 104. before that i went to kick it with lisa q for a while. she got her nails done and we got boba. i choose boba over ice cream ne day. after all that i went to costco to drop off like six rolls of film. those were all the pictures i took at the last week of school n senior luncheon.

08.24.03 l 11:59pm
i got mai new computer up n workin todai. there ish still so much programs i still need to install. ish workin pretty good rite now except i cant get the scanner to work. oh well..eyes r tired. i'll deal with it tomorrow. didnt realli do much todai, watched alot of tv. the gymanistics were pretty interestin to watch. team usa came in first place at the team compeition and placed second for the women's gymanistics.

i feel like i've just wasted another day sittin at home. dont feel like i am being productive. i need to find something more meaninful to do to kill time. ne suggestions peoples? ish kinda earlie to be packin mai stuff for the dorm but none the less ish a good head start. i still got alot of stuff to buy >.<

08.23.03 l 6:01pm
i was so tried by the time i got home last nite. i jus didnt feel like moving but i was still pretty wide awake. tryin to fall asleep whrn ur wide awake ish the hard part. i kinda laid there for awhile, i didnt even kno wht time i feel asleep. it was probablly like three bai the time i fell asleep. mai sister woke meeh up at like ten this morning. i had so much to do. i went to open mai student checkin and savings account. then i went over to some insurance place to check how much it ish to add meeh on for six months. it was actually alot cheaper then i expceted it to be..ish jus an extra 179$ to add mai name on. the good student discount realli helped. now i need to get mai transcript to prove mai gpa.

i spent so much money at west co mall todai. i got a tan and navy blue tshirt, a red and white cashmer long sleeve shirts from anchor blue, and a little bag. i hab like three hours to shop n shop till i cant find nething else i want to get. imma still lookin for a decent lookin wallet. the one imma usin rite now, i had it since 8th grade. i ate lunch at the food court, that Mongolian noodle place ish okie..it doesnt realli taste as good as it looks. when i got home i found mai computer sittin in mai room. well it looks pretty nice..white n silver. i cant use it till they install windows xp. does neone hab it that i can borrow? imma need that virus scan program tooh.

08.22.03 l
i went to school to pick up mai last pay check of this summer. ish not alot but enough for meeh to go shop like krazie for new cloth. kenneth picked meeh up at the bank n we went to paseo. there realli wasnt much to do there except walk round n look at stores. i realli wanted this cashmer long sleeve shirt at anchor blue but it was like freakin 32$. i hab enough to get it but didnt feel like spending all mai money rite there. got jamba juice and walked round some more. then we went over to santa anita mall for some more shoppin. jus walked round the whole mall, neither of us bought nething. after all that walkin round in the heat we went to Crep in the Grip for soda and i got some kinda banana icecream parfiet. it was pretty good except for the fact that they put corn flakes in there. kenneth ran into two of his friends and i recgonize one of them from the FBLA State Competition in Santa Clara. talked to them for a while, found out alot of interestin facts.

i went to kick it with jeff when kenneth left. met up with him at Crep in the Grip and then we went over to eat at Bacalli. we ordered tooh much Alfredo. ish good but u can realli get sick of the taste afterwards. that explains why i can never finish mai plate of food. alhamba ish such a boring place, there ish like nothing to do here. we went over to visit lisa q for a while and then i went with him to some friday church thingy. i've never been to one of those friday gatherins before. it was quite interesting, kinda different from wht i expceted it to be. came back to alhambra and waited for everyone (diana, khon, lisa q, john) to show up to shoot pool at CueBall. that place was freakin packed. ish the first time i've seen so much people there in one night. we waited for about an hour to get the table. played for a while till like 1:30 and headed home. it was pretty cheap, about 7$ a person.

there was so much that went through mai mind todai. alot of stuff that ish kinda hard to explain. it was such a long day. the day didnt realli go the way i expected but imma happie to kno wht i kno now. i feel alot better after talkin bout it. umm..thanks people for listenin to meeh babble on and on for the last couple of days. sorry if i kinda bored yah. it made meeh realize the friends i have here that will be there for meeh, even if i talk and not make ne sense at all.

08.21.03 l 10:06pm
i like the combination of silence and darkness. sitting alone in the dark takes alot off the mind. there ish so much people in mai house that ish hard for meeh to find a place quiet and to maiself. i move around the house alot, i just dont feel like there ish ne space for meeh here. i dont feel like there ish a place that i can call mai own space, everywhere i turn there ish someone there. maybe thats the reason why i am so eager to move out. i want some place where i wont be distrubed when i want to be alone or kicked out cuz mai sister wants to be in the room bai herself. bleh...

08.19.03 l 11:59am
"You can never run away from your problems.. you can hide and hype up a new start.. but deep down inside you'll be asking why, what happened and how can i over come your faults.. The only way you can rid your problem is by confrontation therefore feeling as if you have been ripped in half... time will repair the damages that occured.. and you will be left wit the knowledge and experience to start on a new beginning. Otherwise, let history repeat itself."

8:05pm
i jus got bak from kickin it with big tony todai. i realize that i've known him for four years and we never kicked it together outside of school. thanks for the meaningful conversation, i apperciate that. ur a great person to talk to, ur opinions and thoughts made meeh feel a lot better todai. thanks for listening to all that i hab to sai. in the morning we went to golfland n we challenged each other to those arcade games n mini golf. i wasnt exacly into the mini golf cuz it was so freakin hot. it was like a sizziling hot pan outside. we played two games n i lost both times by like a couple of strokes. went to montobello mall so he can buy his chocolates for nora. i never knew those golddiva chocolates cost so much. it was so freakin expensive that it made see candies's candies look cheap! walked aimlessly around alhambra, went to TenRen for boba, and start our long cht. now i am home stairin at this crappie computer that shuts down all the programs on meeh...argh

08.18.03 l 1:25pm
i feel like i hab trapped maiself in the corner. i dont kno wht to do ne more. i brought this upon maiseif and i dont kno how to get out of it. i've been tellin maiself not to but then subconciously i grew attached. even tho i kno i will eventually have to let go, i've been puttin it off, refuseing to remember it. this feeling building up inside of meeh ish drivin meeh krazie. i cant sit still, i cant do nething. imma trapped.

08.17.03 l
ish hard for meeh to sleep. i cant seem to fall alseep at nite. at times i jus stair at the ceilin for hours. even tho it takes meeh that long to fall asleep..lil noise wake meeh up n i cant go bak to sleep. i kno i am not a lightsleeper, i used to sleep though everything even earthquakes. it jus all of a sudden i cant sleep ne more.

08.16.03 l 4:06pm
there ish still a little bit more then a month before school starts again. even tho summer ish boring sittin at home n all i dont want school to start ne time soon. ish jus that i dont want to leave. i kinda dont want to go to riverside ne more. there ish no one to blame but meeh, i should of gotten mai license earlier, so i would be able to drive down there n come bak whenever i want to. there ish something goin on inside of meeh that imma not sure of rite now. i keep gettin this feelin..imma still not sure wht this feelin ish. i had trouble fallin asleep last nite. i laid there stairin at the ceilin till like 5 am. i couldnt get maiself to fall alseep. i jus laid there for a long while..thinkin. something inside of meh ish tellin meeh something ish wrong but i dont kno wht it ish. i dont like this feelin..confused? scared? worried? i dont kno..manybe a little bit of all of those n more.. i feel like a rollin snowball..

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
Cuz my heart's been through it before
Am I'm just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true
Could you really be

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love

And I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I wanna take a chance
Oh please
Give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one that you'll always be

It's been so hard for me
To give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say...

08.15.03 l 11:03pm
i spent the morning pratically doin nothing. i jus sat round n watched some tv. i couldnt stand stayin at home ne longer so i jus went to TenRen to get boba. i was there for about 3 1/2 hours reading magazine n drinkin strawberry milk tea. i was surprised they didnt kick meeh out for stayin there for so long. kenneth came around 8:30. we didnt do much but it was good as long as i get to see him. i habent realli talked to him for a while cuz he had school n stuff. i found out that yesterdai was his last day of summer school but now he has to work full time at barens park. i realli need a job to kill time. ne one kno where that will hire meeh for the next 6 weeks? if i didnt hab to go to riverside next yr..i would apply for a job at the park. i like recreation..the park looks like a nice n quite place to work at. we went to eat at Denny's and then off to alhambra park for a stroll. thanks for stayin out with meeh even tho i kno u were tired. i kinda feel bad for makin u stay but i jus wanted to spend a lil bit more time with u =)

08.13.03 l 10:56pm
did ne one watch the meteor shower? i didnt stay up for it last nite. i wanted to but when i woke up at 4 o'clock i was tooh lazie to walk outside. i jus kinda laid around for a few minuets and went bak to sleep. i thought todai was gonna be another borin day sittin at home watchin tv but around the afternoon j'than called meeh to go get ice cream with him. mai brother let meeh drive his car up to cold stones but for some reason i felt like i couldnt drive. i've been so out of it lately maybe cuz i've been sittin at home even since sunday. i sat there n watch him eat ice cream while the workers there sing "hi-ho" and "the flinstones" theme when they got their tip. the workers there was freakin hailiarous...they were so enthuastic bout singin for their tip. i was jus crackin up. after that i made j'than sit with meeh at TenRen. i got apple green tea and we jus sat there for two hours talkin n talkin. there was this article in the Time magazine that talked bout people who attend nudeist resorts are mainly Republicans. that place ish like a family resort tooh and people that usually go there range from the age of 11 to 25. i dont think ish rite to be a family recreation site. ish jus not rite..

we were kinda sittin at TenRen for bout like two hours jus kickin bak n relaxin in the ac. one of his friends called n asked him we're at. this ish how j'than replies:

some calls j'than: where u at?
j'than: imma at grand opening
meeh: er..grand opening?!?!? o.O
j'than: yah..we're at grand opening
meeh: wht the hell...we're r at TenRen Tea Time!!!

the word Grand Opening was ten times bigger then the name of the store n he thought the name of the boba place was grand opening. i felt like smackin him when he said that. you had to be there to hear it..it was sooo funnie. partrick n wendy came,they sat for a while, and we went bowling in arcadia with their other friends. i didn't kno neone else there so i jus kept pickin on j'than. ack..mai bowlin ish horrible. everyone there was freakin good at it and i keep gettin gutter ball like every other time i bowl. umm..practice makes perfect? ne ways..we got bak to alhambra n got something to eat at mcDonalds. christina n another jonathan came. talked for another bit and they dropped meeh off at home.

08.12.03 l 7:01pm
damn it..imma so pist rite now. freakin yahoo deactived mai [email protected] account. wht the hell..i didnt do nething wrong with it..why the hell did it delete that account. imma not even sure if they did or not or if someone changed mai password. it was working perfectly fine yesterdai. DAMN IT!!! i hab that email account since 8th grade...there ish alot of stuff in there that cant be replaced. stuff that i kept over the years..ish all gone now. some of the stuff in there shouldnt matter to meeh ne more but i kept it for so long n imma not ready to hab it all erased yet. i felt like i hab jus lost apart of maiself..ish almost like the other time where i deleted part of mai journal bai accident. now come to think of it that whole journal ish deleted now..there ish no way i can find out wht i typed up in there before. it was workin fine yesterdai..i even used it to send an email to kenneth. can someone tell meeh wht the hell happenend. argh... =(

- This Yahoo! Account Has Been Deactivated Please remember that the Yahoo! Terms of Service provides that Yahoo! may terminate a User's password, account or use of the Service if Yahoo! believes (a) that a User has violated or acted inconsistently with the letter or spirit of the Yahoo! Terms of Service, or (b) that a User has violated the rights of Yahoo! or other Users or parties. -

wht the hell ish this?!?!?!?! klasjdfljksksljakfjjksdf...argh...i hate yahoo!!

08.11.03 l 8:11pm
i heard there was goin to be a meteor shower on wednesday morning. if onli he can be here to watch it with meeh. the last time i tried to stay up to watch a meteor shower i fell alseep like an hour before it was suppose to happen. i think i was waitin for this one last year tooh; the Perseid Meteor Shower. i gotta get enough sleep before wednesday..don't want to fall asleep again like last yr.

08.09.03 l 9:50pm
i told mai sister last nite that i would go shoppin with her this morning so she woke meeh up at like 10:30!!! she kept naggin n repeatin mai name over n over again in differnt tones to annoy meeh. wht a nice sister huh..wouldnt even let meeh sleep in. the thing ish after she woke meeh up, i thought we were goin to leave, but we hab to wait n order pizza for lunch. stupid pizza place doesnt open till 11 >.< i was like up for no reason. i was hungry when i woke up but bai the time the pizza got here, i didnt feel like eatting. there was nothing much to look at at the mall. i wasnt realli into shoppin, i was jus walkin with her down the asiles. old navy has this sale promotion where wht ever u can fit into this medium size bag ish 20% off. the thing ish that i couldnt find nething to buy!! i cant believe i used to shop there, the cloth there was so bak in the days.

rosanna picked meeh up at like 3 to go to santa monica. i wanted to go there to get those finger painting pictures. i like the one kenneth has in his room. there was mad traffic goin to santa monica. i dont kno but the cars were crawlin like ants on the freeway. the goin n stoppin was makin meeh freakin sleepie. i wanted to fall asleep but i made maiself stay awake. i wanted to even out the tan i got at Catalina but bai the time we got there it was already 4:30 and the sun wasnt as bright. mai attempt to even out mai tan failed. i still look the same. meeh n rosanna took funnie lookin picutres in those booth on the pier. i never kno where to look at when the machine takes the picture. i always look at the screen. we took the same pose like so mani times before we got it rite. it turned out that the nulit-pose one ish a postcard. we both made a postcard so it was like a total of 10$. from the pier we walked all the way down to vience beach. that was a freakin long walk to the lil mini market. i guess ish okie though cuz the sun was settin and it wasnt that hot ne more. i hab no idea that vience beach ish that close to santa monica. i bought sunglasses but it was kinda stupid cuz the sun already settting, there was no use for them. the sun sets looks pretty!!! i hope the picture turns out.

08.08.03 l 10:36pm
finailly today ish the last day of work. ish been seven weeks since i started workin this summer. it passed bai pretty quick. the ladies in the principal's office ish realli realli nice. i actaully like workin there. it was so kick bak. all i did was jus sit round, talk to jenny, and shred papers. when i got to work this morning at 8 there was like no one there. i waited for half an hour and went over to the career center to see if they kno if ne one ish gonna come in at the principal' office. bleh..i should of waited cuz rite when i got to the career center the lady made meeh work. i could of been sittin outside for another 30 minuets cuz mrs. korpal came in at 9. oh well, at least i got to pick up mai check. i was like missin about 150$ on that check. thats wht i get for missin three days of work.

after work i went to get lunch at love birds and waited for kenneth to finish gettin his car fixed. i sat there for like almost two hours. it took meeh that long to finish the avolcado turkey sandwich. talk bout eattin slow. imma startin to like rootbeer again =P rootbeer float..YUM!! cashed mai check n went shoppin. kenneth picked meeh up round four something and we went over to the Renissance to watch SWAT. the movie had a pretty crappie endin. none the less it looked better in the commerical. ahHh..hes so comfortable to lean on ^__^ it sux that i onli get to see him once a week but summer school ish almost over for him, jus two more weeks. he had stuff to do so i jus went home after the movie. wht a long day..tired from walkin..gonna go to sleep now. nite nite

08.06.03 l 4:30pm
today ish a good day. i am offically a licensed pedestrian. the examiner kept talkin to meeh after the test, he scared the crap out of meeh, cuz he made it seem like i didnt pass. i got like 11 wrong =X but you dont need to kno wht i got marked off for rite, as long as i got mai license. i can drive with mai instructor but then when i see the examiner i jus freak out. oh wellz..ish all good now. no more behind the wheel testin for meeh. i still felt a bit scared at the begining but since it was mai second time takin it, the situation felt alot better. bleh..i lagged gettin mai licensed long enough, i wonder if i can still get the parkin pass for riverside. humm..i wonder if they are even goin to get meeh a car ne time soon >.<

08.05.03 l
I didnt want to wake up this morning to go on the Campus SPU trip to Catalina Island. its kinda gay cuz they split up the seniors into two groups. one group goes today and the other one goes later this week. if i knew they were gonna do that i would of told them i couldnt go today. the first group consist just the three of us, meeh siem and larson, and the second group ish big tony, linda kwong, tiffay, and czrilla. we were suppose to meet at Jasper's house at 6:15 so i got up round 5:30 to get maiself ready. it was onli 6 when i got to his house but wht pist meeh off was that when i got to his house n called him he was still sleepin n i jus woke him up. wht the hell ish that..i get up so freakin earlie in the morning cuz u said to and ur still sleepin. ne way..freakin we didnt leave Jasper's house till like almost 6:40 cuz siem and larson was late. omg..i could of been sleepin all that time and not feel so freakin dead in the morning. being late was one thing but they didnt even apologize. i mean u hab like people waitin for u, at least hab the coutresy to get there earlier. if they didnt get there within another few minuets, we would of jus left them. i guess meeh wanderin round Catalina bai maiself ish not that bad rite. the onli reason we hab to leave so freakin earlie in the morning ish cuz he got to get there at least an hour before our boardin time and it takes another hour to get to Long Beach. if u wanna kno wht time we hab to board the Catalina Express u do the math.

it did take round another hour to get to Long Beach. the senery was okie at the Downtown Landing were we boarded the Catalina Express. we got there so earlie that we hab time to sit around, grab some food, before they started to board the ship. besides the free trip to Catalina we also got 39$ of spending money for this SPU trip. when i boarded the ship i was so scared that i was goin to be sea sick. ive never seen on one before, at least i dont remba ever being on a ship ride for about an hour. when the ship moved i felt kinda woozy cuz i was stairin at the waves. it was makin meeh feel sick to mai stomach but i couldnt help but stair at it. i dont like the idea of food commin out the way it came in, i jus sat there n kept mai mouth busy by eattin MnM the whole way there. i guess chewin and movin mai jaw made the sick feelin go away. on the way out of the harbor we passed by the Queen Mary. it looks alot crapper then wht i imagined. i used to hear how nice it ish, but when i saw it the colors on the Queen Mary was fadin. it needs a new paint job. the ocean ish sooo blue, i like =) we kinda saw a couple of dophines on the way to the island. they were so far away, i could barely see them. i was luckie enough to get rid of that sick feelin but larson on the other hand didnt look so good when he got off.

i couldnt wait to get off the Catalina Express and go explore Catalina. ish mai first time there, so everything seem so new and interesting. i was suppose to go there two other times but due to mishaps and the fact that i dont kno how to swim i couldnt go. meeh n siem left larson to sit and we went to walk round the dock. being the lazie people that we are we decided to rent mountain bikes the whole day so we dont hab to walk. it wasnt bad 20$ for the whole day. the boke map lied to us, all the trails looked flat but when we got to the One Way trail it was so slanted. by the time we wanted to trun bak it was tooh late, we were stuck goin the whole way. damn, i got a freakin tan on the hike up there. it got so slanted to a part that we couldnt ride the bike ne more. at least i didnt hab the leg muscles to bike up there. i was tired, hot, sweaty, n burnt bai the time we got to the top of the mountains. the view from the top was unbelieveable, the harbor with the ships looked sooooooooooo pretty. the bike ride down hill was so kool. it was like wooosh and before u kno it we were at the bottom. it was all worth it at the end.

the two hour was not well spent but it was something to kill time. root beer float taste soooo yummie. i went shopin for a tshirt cuz being the idiot that i am i brought sweats to change into but i didnt bring a shirt. i went to so mani gift shops lookin for tshirts. i bought this one that said Catalina CA Island. it looked so cute, i would definately wear that when i go out. it was 23$ but it came with a hat. i needed the hat, i didnt want to get ne darker. i thought hikin for two hours was tiredin but after one bout an hour of walkin up and down the street shoppin i was so tired i could barely move. i got some kinda salad that doesnt look like a salad cuz it had like bay shrimps, that taste like raw fish, lettus, tortillas, cheese, pepper, and cream cheese. it was something to fill meeh up but taste on the other hand..ack. the first trail onli went round half of Catalina, so after lunch and shoppin we decided to finish wht we've started. omg, the second trail was a secnic route, it was alot steeper then the first one. we were like the onli ones with bikes hikin up the route, all the other people drove golf carts. amazinly how mani golf carts u see on that puney island. everyone drove golf carts!!! they were everywhere. we would of gotten that but it was like 30$ an hour plus u hab to be 25 yrs old with a vaild driver's license. since none of us were close to being 25 we jus rented the bikes instead. on the way down i was so busy lookin at the ocean secenary there was a couple times where i almost forgot to turn at the turns. that was scarie but goin full speed down a steep hill ish so fun =P at least i can sai that i bike/hike around the whole Catalina Island.

it was like 4 something bai the time we got into the water. the water at Pebbles Beach ish sooo clear. ish like u can see everything in the water, ish not like Huntington Beach were ish all merky and sandy. the bad thing was walkin on the pebbles. those things hurt when u walk on them. i tide got higher and higher and i got soaked wet. 5 o'clock came and we biked the bikes bak to the rental place to return it. now that we hab no more transportation, i countinued bak into the water to cool down. there was so much little kida on the fake beach. the area was so cute, ish like there ish sand near the shoreline area and when u look at whats behind u, u see like resturants and golf carts passin bai. i wanted to get a tan on mai legs but that didnt seem to happen. all i've noticed ish mai arms and face got alot darker. after messin round in the water i did more shoppin. there was so much stuff to buy but i dont hab that much money. i already spent the 39$ they gab us and along with 30$ of mai own money >.< talk bout being a compulsive buyer. the sun set behind the mountains so i couldnt see that. i thought it was look nice since Catalina ish like rite out there in the ocean. Japser called us like two hours before we were suppose to head bak to Long Beach that he didnt hab a ride for us bak. so rite there we were standed at Long Beach until we can find our own ride home. that was so gay, i mean u sent us here and guranteed that we hab a ride bak, and like two hours before we head bak to Long Beach, he tells us that we are stranded there?!?!?!?!

i hab clam chowder for dinner. that was yummmie. i love clam chowder but that was a lil bit expensive. it cools down alot after the sunsets. walked round some more, took alot of pictures, and headed to the dock to wait for the Catalina Express to take us bak to the Downtown Landing. on the ride bak we got to ride on the top deck. the ocean wind felt sooo goood. i didnt get that sick feelin when i was up there. i guess ish the fact that were not like sealed inside this tight area without fresh air or maybe it has to do with the fact that it was so dark i couldnt see the movement of the waves. the city lights of Catalina got dimmer and dimmer as we approached Long Beach and the lights there got brigher n brigher. looks nice =) i moved so much todai that i cant even feel mai legs ne more. it feel so tingy and i couldnt barely stand up. good thing larson got his dad to come pick us up from Long Beach so else i think i'll still be there right now. its like way past midnight rite now, imma so freakin tired. i got work tomorrow tooh >.< imma gonna be so sore. wht a day huh..it turned out alot better then i expected. hope the second batch of seniors had as much fun as i did.

08.04.03 l 10:25pm
first day of work at the principal's office went by pretty fast. the people there was soo nice and cheerful..i seriously didnt mind workin there for five hours. i actually wanted to stay there longer and try to finish as much of mai 20 hours as possible. this other girl that works there with meeh ish pretty kool, at least she talks unlike the other one i used to work with at the district. there ish a difference between immature underlcassmen and someone who has common sense. there was like a city wide blackout earlier in the morning. since all the stuff they wanted meeh to do has to do with electrical machines, i jus sat round talkin to the girl that i work with. time flies when ur shreddin paper. the sound of that machine ish annoyin but i got used to it after a while; acutally more like an hour. the machine kept jammin so i hab to take it apart and pick at the lil piece of shredded paper with a bent paper clip. that was horrible, i thought i broke the machine. more to shred when i go bak to work on wednesday. i need ear muffs >.<

i went to kick it with rosanna and lisa q after work. i walked over to lisa q house after work while she got ready after dyin her hair. they were shocked when i got there cuz it onli took meeh like round ten minuets to walk to her house. we were plannin to go to glendal galley but due to some mishap with directions and which freeways to take, we took a slight detour to the fashion district in downtown. it was too freakin hot to be walkin up and down the steets but i guess nething ish worth it when it comes to shoppin. i wanted to get this hawaiian skirt top set that i saw last week with rosanna at santa monica pier but i ended up gettin shorts instead. i kinda need the shorts for the Campus SPU trip tomorrow to Catalina. ish kinda gettho to be goin to Catalina for a one day trip but i guess ish alright for the lack of sufficient funds from fundraisin by my academic filled service club. self note: hawaiian store ish located santee and 9th street; right next to mcdonalds. never park at the the other end of the fashion district cuz all they hab down there ish wholesale. the tops down there r cute but we dont need like a dozen of each of them.

rosanna had something to do, so lisa dropped her off, and we went KFC for some yummie yummie chicken with mashed potatos and macronnie and cheese. jus thinkin bout it rite now ish makin meeh feelin kinda hungry. while we were eattin at her house we were also watchin those fob dramas. it was a funnie one tho but more towards a chick flick. imma such a fob that i understood all the hidden meanings when they used metaphors to describe. i watched like three 45 minuets episodes before she had to go for dinner. there was jus one more episode n ish gonna be over. i wanna finish watchin it!!! imma gonna go make mai brother rent it now. one dollar a tape times ten tapes. the whole movie ish jus around ten dollars. i guess ish not that bad =X after dinner i was on the phone with kenneth for a while. =) habent heard his voice for a couple of days. well gonna go pack some lil stuff for Catalina tomorrow...gotta wake up at like 6. i think i should start sleepin rite now. imma gonna need the energy for tomrrow ship ride. ive never been on a ship before, i hope i am not sea sick. oh..btw does ne one kno how to get to Redando Beach? IM meeh n tell meeh the directions.

08.03.03 l 11:26am
i hab a werid dream last nite. i can barely remember it rite now. it had to do with a pool, swimmin, and kenneth. i think i was at some pool and kenneth was goin to teach meeh how to swim. there was alot of people at the pool. he told meeh to jump in and get wet first. i jumped in and i felt the impact of the water. got back out and started running up the stairs, away from the pool. the werid thing was that i was watchin all this happen. i saw maiself runnin up the stairs and i hab like freakin long hair. i woke up rite when he was goin to run after meeh. werid >.< i think this has to do with meeh goin to the beach yesterdai but who knos.

11:52pm
i like this quote "ish not where u are..ish who your with" i tired for three hours to put this quote on top of the picture of the lil girls and under mai LiLnezumi84 banner but after i decode the encrypted html the stuff on mai page doesnt seem to load rite. i cant seem to position it where i want it either. this ish gibin meeh a headache. i retire for the nite. someone help meeh with it tomorrow.

08.02.03 l
mai sister accidently woke meeh up this morning at like eight in the morning. her n her cleaning man, so noisy. there was nothing to do, i tired to go bak asleep but i was so wide awake, so i was jus bumin around mai house the whole morning lookin for stuff to do. i even got some exercise done. i drove mai brothers car around alhambra/san gabriel. he was all scared at first because he didnt think i was checkin for traffic. he talks more then mai instructor but it was kool tho, at least he doesnt yell at meeh like mai dad. i realli wanna get mai licnese now. i like drivin, well maybe for now. i forgot what i hab for lunch. i dont think it was nething good. waited for mai sister's finace to come pick us up to go to bed bath & beyond, so i can get stuff for mai dorm.

i almost forgot that tammy and them planned a bonfire at Huntington Beach tonite. i also forgot to ask lisa q for a ride to the beach. i spent part of the morning callin her and i was on the phone with j'than for a while. i forgot how it feels to pick on him ^__^ by the time i got a hold of lisa q i found out that her car was already packed so i called other people for a ride. i thought it was gonna be hard to find a ride last minuet but when i got to tammy house there was like seven cars goin to the beach. goin there was kinda scarie, i hit mai head on the window a couple of times cuz of the turns n stuff. a couple of the cars goin there, includin us, almost got into an accident and one of the cars did. i hope everyone ish feelin okie =X there was so much traffic goin to the beach and bai the time we got there it was already six. all the pits for the bonfire was already taken bai other people. we hab like all these hot dogs and corn but no fire to cook it with. people wanted a bonfire but they didnt bring wood, all they bought was coal for the bbq. i guess ish okie.

it was kinda boring at first there was nothing to do at the beach. good thing i hab cards with meeh to keep maiself company. we were bored enough and started to bet with shells. lawrence and them kept goin "i bet all mai shells" lisa q, jenny, j'than, and lil john parked on the other side of the parkin lot and was already in the water bai the time we got there. they came over after they were done playin in the water. i met up with andy and jthan fang. talked to them for a while and waited for the rest of the lazie people to walk over here. meeh, jenny, annie, and kerry asked some people if we can borrow their fire to cook our hotdogs. the four of us cooked like five packs of hot dogs. there was more then enough for each person to eat like three.

i missed the sun set!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanted to take picutre of the sunset. yesh i kno i am obsessed with the sun set. bai the time we started to head bak at like eight something the rest of the group found an empty pitt to roast the corns in. there was more car trouble for them =X long car rides make a tired person sleepie. i was so tired that i fell alseep at lisa q house when we were watchin Training Day. i woke up from time to time, watchin it every now and then, bai the time it was towards the end of the movie i found out that ive seen it already. i dont remeber when i've seen it but i've watched it somewhere else. bleh, dad started yellin at meeh on the way bak home cause he couldn't find lisa's house. i went straight to sleep rite when i got home.

08.01.03 l
todays' the last day of ROP and mai job at the school district. startin next week imma work at the principal's office @ AHS from 8-1. just another week of work and imma freee to do nethin else. i dont get mai next pay check till next week. ish gonna be missin like about 80 something dollars cuz i missed like 18 hours of work >.< ROP was kool, we got paid for two hours to party. it wasnt much of a party, there was jus chips, sodas, donuts, and music. but none the less we didnt hab to do work. i was half eattin and half readin people's xangas. two hours flew bai like nothing, if onli work was like that. the last four hours of work at the distirct was okie, nothing special happened. there was still alot of filin and sortin papers. the ladies there thanked us for the help and wish us luck in the future. i went to sleep rite when i got home cuz i stayed up pretty late last nite dlin songs.

i woke up at six and got ready to go out with kenneth. he was gonna pick meeh up at six but something came up and he didnt come till like eight something. mai freakin uncle kept bring up the time he saw jeff pick meeh up last week. hes kept emphazin "u shouldnt hab a bf..goin out with friends ish okie" he said all this infront of mai dad. i would of been so pist if mai dad didnt let meeh out cuz of that. rite when kenneth came to pick meeh up, mai dad jus walked out of the house for his nightly exercise walk. kenneth drove rite past mai dad n in the distances i saw mai dad jus standin there stairin at the car. we hab a long conversation on the way to puente hills amc. it was pretty funnie. u kno i am rite!!! i wanted to see SAWT or Scarie Movie 3 but those two arnt out till like next week, so we watched America Wedding. there was like a freakin line of people waitin for the movie so start. we played cards for awhile and he bought candy. immitation gummy bears tast nasty. even tho we wernt the first ones to stand in line we were the first ones inside to get seats. the movie was pretty funnie and sick at the same time. its one of those movies that u can onli watch it once and think ish funnie and stupid the second time. the theather was so freakin packed. it was already 12 bai the time the movie was over, we got boba at Ten Ren, and headed home. i was tired but i didnt feel like goin home yet, i was still pretty awake.

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