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7-12-00 First entry. I've had some crap happen to me in the past few months, some of which I brought upon myself. I may have deserved some of it, but hell come on. I've talke dabout it too much already so give me a few days before I tell you what happened back then. I work as a wholesale travelagent. nowhere near what I want to do. I want to get my ass back in school and get my mechanical engineering dergree. I put in a few years at UNLV. Something cool did happen today. My friend Jessie's new wife called me and wants me to go down to Texas to surprise him next month. She is pregnant right now and says that the doctors already okayed that they induce her labor on my birthday. So, I have to get some tickets and a few days off and get down there. This will be such a cool birthday present to me. Vacation, best friend, and a new best friend's baby all at once. I'm done for today. bye bye diary :)
7-15-00 Well, the secrets out. Samantha broke down and told Jessie the whole plan. But that is still cool, because Jessie called me and I finally got to talk to him, since December. It's July now. Also I went out with Jessica tonight, and told her that I wasn't sure how long I'll live. I have this damn infection in my skull that will at least paralyze me sooner or later.Fucking water skiing accident that put a hole in my eardrum, ear infection , then it spread. So, I don't know if I should be planning for the future or the present. I really like Jessica, though. Just had to throw that in there. bye
7-19-00 I finally got the days off from work, so now, i'm going to buy my tickets and spend a week in Texas. I haven't worked on my site in a while , or been to the gym for that matter. I need to get into a groove. I want to try and bulk up and gain about 20 lbs. I'm 6'1" 150# now, so I just want to put some meat on my bones. I think I'll go today.

7-21-00 Some REAL Diary shit here. 1:30 this morning, just 2 hours ago. I was almost a dead man. I decided to go in a car with a drunk driver. Mistake number 1. Then drunk driver #1 wants to race drunk driver #2. Mistake number 2. Coming off the freeway, we lose control of the car and I watched as the light pole just kept heading towards us. I don't remember if i was even buckled in. My arms went up to try and prevent the inevitable. Like that was going to help. I closed my eyes and just said , "here I go". I didn't give a damn for me because as you will learn I have very little regard for human life and even less for my own. The only thing I did think about was the driver, a VERY close friend of mine. I know she wasn't ready to go , and I didn't want to see her leave. One of the very few people I do hope keep their life. Well, some how we came to a stop and just barley nicked the pole and after later inspection missed a gas main. What it was doing above ground I'd like to know but it was very clearly marked. CAr was FUBARed , nobody was hurt, and supposedly the driver #1 learned thier lesson. I really doubt it though. Driver #2 did not learn thier lesson. He had the only car and wasn't even racing anybody but still hauled much ass. FUCKIN stupid. I'd call myself stupid, too, but if I die I die.
7-25-00 I finally finished my book. I read "The Cobra Event" and "The Street Lawyer". They are in a collection of books I got from Readers Digest. The first book I've read on my own since high school. I noticed that I have ALOT more dreams now than before. I'm trying to say that it stimulates the imagination, because I've had some really cool dreams. This is one of the hobbies I'm trying to force myself into, and it might work. I have few other books floating around the apartment that I can dive into.
8-14-00 Got back from Texas last night. Oh man did I have fun. Not the regular guys fun but I was sooo happy to see Jessie again and his new wife. It was cool when I heard her say her name with his last name. DOPE. She did have her baby girl on the 10th of Aug. My birthday, a real cool present. I'm now a god father. I saw the whole thing, maybe too much, because they had to cut her for the birth but. It was cool at first. Then the after birth got REAL bloody. But no one was paying any attention to her, just the newborn. I feel for all the mommies out there who get none of the attention after all of that. Jessie and Samantha have started their family and I was there to see it happen. And then when I got back to work , they want to change my schedule up and give me a promotion. So it's going alright now. I haven't been to the gym in 2 weeks and i miss so I'm going to assume that's good because that means I was getting on a roll. Happy late Birthday 2 Me.
8-18-00 My brother is going back to Reno tomorrow. So we went out to Hooter's tonight with a few guys to throw the night away. Just some advice. DO NOT get a Hooter shooter. It is an over priced nasty shot of some NASTY junk that doesn't even get you any kind of a buzz. I'd tell you what is in it but I'd probably get sued. No news but good news though. Finally got to talk to Jessica after about a week of phone tag. and still haven't seen eachother since I got back from TX but it's all gravy.
9-1-00 much fun, much fun. I went out to the lake on Sunday night, the 28th. It was my roomy Brian's idea, so I figured he wanted to try and fuck all my friends. I was right. So we invited a few girls and guys from work and whatever. So, first no one wanted to show up, then we pissed off a few boyfriends cause there wasn't room in anyone's car. And one of the girls that did show, tried to play sick all night to keep Sam off of her I'm guessing, but I may be wrong. But I got a girlfriend. neener neener. A lot of alcohol, and mind games, well more mind games, but still a lot of liquor. She turned it around on me and asked me out. Well kissed me and later like just yesterday told me she was trying to get with me. And then one of those boyfriends we pissed of, wants to "get my ass kicked." Not even kick it him self. Pussy ass crack head. I think I should go over there and take his girlfriend again and see what he says , or who he calls. HAHA :)
9-4-00 okay i was lying. I don't have a girlfriend. I am nothing but a loser. Everyone keeps reminding me that I am so it must be true. nothing else today but some BBQ at mom's for labor day. I had a shitty day that's about it. I knew it wouldn't last but... not even 3 days, cause this was the first time I saw Jess since thursady anyway. I'm a loser I'm a loser, I'm a loser baby so why don't you kill me, PLEASE!!!!!
9-15-00 Just chillin today but, there is news. I started another job a few days ago to try and pay off some bills. I can't seem to save up a dime the way I'm going now so I'll just use every dime from this check to pay off my traffic warrent. Yes I got a warrent and my license is suspended from driving without insurance and illegal plates. That's what i get for trying to be nice. (dream sequence) I had a car that I didn't want so i straight GAVE it to a friend of mine. I was helping her out because she was a single mother of four and was always between jobs. Not her fault, she was a hard worker and i loved her and her kids. But anyway. She never had her license so i was driving her around, but she never did any thing with the car, reg., fix, etc. I didn't care, but i ended up driving her around so much that i was late to work quite a few times and that helped in my getting fired. So, story story i got a warrent for no insurance that is about a $1000 that i need to pay off, plus all my other bills. And then I upset my best friend, that gave me a heart break, I was crying all night, as was she. Just to let you know i am a sensitive guy.
1-24-01 Damn it's been a long time. ANd there's a reason for it. The second job uses up a lot of it and so does running around trying to get a new girlfriend. Her name Mo Mo. A sweet girl and so nice in everyway. Tried going with her for a while. We always talked about how we were so lucky to have met each other, and how cuter the other was, and we didn't deserve eachother cause the other was so perfect. Then she dropped it on me, "I just want to be friends" right after, the fuckin same hour after I had met her brother and sister. She took me over to meet the parents but they were out who knows where. SO, I'm thinking the whole day I'm going to meet the parents and then she kills me. It took me an few hours before I could breath, but that's life. Who needs air anyway!!! So I try and move on. That happend not long after christmas, great way to start a mutha fuckin new year. Then I'm out today with Jessica and her boyfriend and he's getting all jealous and mad 'cause he "can't get any quality time" with just the both of them. My ASS. I have had so little time with my Jessica because of that son of a bitch and he wants to complain. Don't get me wrong, I think he's pretty cool and right for Jessica but he keeps trying to talk crap behind my back; that ,in turn, Jessica tells me, and it's totally uncalled for. I've never wronged him and I've looked out for Jessica more than he ever can dream of. I almost broke a pool stick over his head tonight, just because I felt like it. Other than the bad stuff, I've had a pretty good Christmas and New Years. Got a lot of cool pants which I really needed and the My New Years resolution is to not cut my hair this year. I'm going to grow a big old fro and pick it out, and start braiding it. all the good stuf. I still need to get some pictures on here so i hope you're as patient as I am a procrastinator.
1-06-05 It's been even longer this time. Well i just read over what i wrote and i guess i may have been exagerating with the infection in the skull and dead thing. I still have problems with my ear that made me think such in the first place but it hasn't gotten any worse. I went to so many docs and the didn't say anything good or bad no explenation. Only one was able to describe anything to me, supposedly there is scar tissue from a surgury messing with my ears sweat glands. Well the reason for todays visit is to get my website updated a little. Still no pictures but .. ah well. I put up my cadillac page today after a few months work trying to find info. I learned a bit more HTML but I still like to keep the page simple. Well that's today.
2-1-05 Okay, so I left everyone out there for quite a while but i guess there's a reason for it. Before I get started, I must say that I guess I was occupied and happy. Most of the time that I wasn't eeping up on the site I was with Jessica finally :) I actually asked her out and we dated and had a great time. What I'm trying to say is that she kept me happy that I wasn't worrying about my site. Actually I wasn't worrying about anything that's how in bliss I was. But stuff happened that I may fill in on later, but I wrote the following just as I moved back from California( yep in cali and didn't even write, man I was happy):
A bit more diary since I've left California. Why'd I leave Cali? Because I was supposed to go to college and get into the fall semester at UNLV. I came out with some income, just had to find a job for a bit more income and I'd be set. What happens next? It was like just after 2 weeks Jessica tells me that she wants a divorce. “I can't be alone. I need to be with somebody,” she says. I ask her “Does this mean you want to leave me?” “Yes.” After being up and down that roller coaster so many times I was almost ready for it. I knew she wanted to leave me for the past 3 days at least maybe even week, I could tell by her voice. And being on this roller coaster so many times I knew how to handle it. Or thought I did. I accepted it and went on knowing that no matter what I say or do she'll make up her mind. I didn't even try to put up a fight. I turned around and bowed my head. Now what. I have no wife and I'm in a place that I don't want to be doing things that I'm not ready for. First thing in my head was to hit up the court. I wasn't going to be floating in lala land again. That is a place I hate being, in limbo. If something is going to happen then fucking do it. Then I thought the main reason I was going to finish school was for us, my new family, but I have no family so I think about doing the military again. Actually I made my decision I just needed to get the divorce filed because they told me no court while in boot camp and I didn't want anything holding me up. Then I thought about death. Why would I want to do this damn thing called life up and down like this for another 60 some years? You say it has its ups and down but the up are little anthills the downs like the chronic. I'm not ready for that never will be but this time I told myself get the doe get the cars you want. And being the guy I am I can't just take a free ride except from the gov. See Jessica was my income that was supposed to pay for school. She offered to still pay after she told me about the divorce, but I can't take that money, so now I can't afford school the only reason I came out this place that I don't even want to be. So I get the papers for the divorce, and what do you know. It takes a really long time to file and wait and drag out god DAMN what the fuck. Son of somebody else it finally gets done. The Divorce court TV show called my cell and said they wanted us on. I never called them back because I don't want to air my dirty laundry out there and the talks about such shows with Jessica she wouldn't either. Just had to put it in there for the memories. So I go to the Airforce recruiter after all this time I have to catch him on vacation, so I go to another office he's out, god damn son of a baby daddy mistress. The navy recruiter next door says “come by here I’ll get you in.” I wait a bit for the air force guy, but then talk myself into the navy I go back and the mother is out of the office now. FUCK. Some where in there I had Chinese and the fortune cookie said something about patience. The birthday card from my grandmother said something about patience so I try and take it as a sign to wait for the air force. When he comes back from vacation I see him and he tells me that there is a waiting list and it will be a while, geese, but remember patience, so instead of trying to jump on the navy I am going to wait out this list and get the better air force deal. And so here we are on Tuesday I get to go take the asvab and set up to go to MEPS see I'm still not even IN yet. I have some blanks to fill in because I’m not a great story teller so here is some more of the chaos out of order. I still love Jessica and that will never change either. I may get mad every once in a while but still love. Like In the midst of all this divorce she keeps mentioning that I’m getting the better end and if I could help her out because she can't afford this or that. It hurts when you start hearing that and start thinking the relationship was all for her money. I know it wasn't but it hurts to hear stay around so I can afford this. I got excuses like to pay her tickets or so she'd get the moving money from the navy but only if we were married on paper. She didn't want me to file not so we could work it out but so she could get the big check from being married in military. So I told her this and she got all mad but I also told her that it hurts not that I believe it as truth if ya'll get that. But she "didn't hear that part.” Another hole to fill in, right after I file the papers she calls and tells me she doesn't want a divorce. The only time she told me she still loves me was when she was drunk after she watched her friends all up with their boyfriends. This whole time she tries to blame me for the divorce saying I wanted it because I filed. I'm not the one that called the other and said "I want a divorce.” I only filed because I hate limbo and had been there for too long already. I CAN'T believe that she's trying to put the blame on me for this. I still love Jessica and hope that in the future after we've got what life owes us we can get together again. It may be a long awhile but that's okay by me. All the old folks say there are too many women to choose from and watch out for yourself. I believe you need to watch out for yourself but there is only one soul mate. Hopefully the 2 can work out together. You need to get yourself right and get the girl and if she's good she'll let you and she'll get herself right and you'll let her. If I’d have got myself right while I was younger then I’d have the girl now too.
2-23-05 It's been a cool few months. I have come across a few people from the past. I so suck at using the phone though. I still rarely call or have even met these people. I ran into Christy when i first moved out here a year ago and met the hubby, got the number with all intentions on hanging out, and I lost the damn number. Somehow it ended up in my storage unit and I found it the other day. I called her , it happeened to be just in time for her birthday !! I have come across some good people but i'm just stuck in limbo now. I'm waiting for this Air force thing to happen and have been waiting for almost 2 years now. I tried to join up when i was in California. Just my luck all kinds of screw ups and draggin out. By that time i was ready to move so that got put on the back burner. I get out here and try the AF . They gotta run more check ups and more draggin. But then again I had to clean up some of my credit before that could happen. But now i'm in all signed and everything and i have no job. Still on the waiting list. How is there a waiting list to get in the military. Escpecially since it looks like the AF is running a lot of commercials on TV. If there's a list then they don't need to be advertising as much as they do. Finally bouhgt me a good computer and I'll be damned if this guy tells me the next week i could of had a MAC (which i prefer) for $400 when i spent $700. But it's okay cause i got such a killer video card, even better than what i thought i was getting. That's a first to get more than expected. And i think I've finally figured me out. I realize how much social skills get you around and my lack of them. I 've always been a loner though but thought it was just a thing. But it builds on so many others. What gets me is that i have been out here for 10 months and have like 5 friends. So I'm on a rampage to meet all kinds of people and get something done to get outta this limbo. Maybe it should be my new years resolution if i still get one this late.
2-24-05 Whoo hoo!! I went down to the recruiter for a normal chek in to see that I'm still behaving and alive and got the good news. I got my job listed finally, no more waiting list for me, still get to wait though. I am signed and all offical. Will be a Flight Engineer on Aug 3 2005. I get to go to bootcamp for 6 weeks and 3 days then tech school for a whoping 13 MONTHS. And some more cool news too. Its the perks i guess. There will be a NASCAR race in town on March 13 I will be there for free watching the whole thing from the infield. We recruits get to go up and swear in before the whole crowd and hopfully get some applause instead of boos. We'll get to meet the drivers and whatnot. NASCAR isn't F1 or CART but very cool.
7-02-05 I'm done. I didin't keep up as acuratly as possible but i have gone through boot camp. I left earlier as a took a open mechanical spot to leave 3 months early. I started May 10 and graduated June 24. It was fun and easy because we had a lot of special events that a normal traniee woudn't be able to attend, just lucky timing. And now that I'm through I got Air Transportaion apprentice. Tech is only 6 weeks this time not 13 months, and the job is realy easy, and seems fun, but long hours. I'm only worried about getting to go to college. We'll see how that works out. I get to start school sooner cause you can't while in tech school but like i said long hours may mess up my class schedule. I put in for a lot of overseas bases so we'll see what I get. I am an Airman.
8-27-05 Now I'm in JAPAN. graduated tech on my birthday, Aug. 10. what a great present. Met some good people in there that i'll hopefully keep in touch with. I had a week in Vegas with the family and friends. I had a great time. Then another week in Manhatten, NY. You won't believe me when i say it was the most relaxed i've been in a while. I just walked around town enjoying the sights, no worries, enjoyed the family ( uncle, aunts, cousins and granny ). Vegas has little on New York. Both are great well maybe the same, fast paced, EVERYTHING you want is close, but new yourk is SOOO much bigger. and crowded. The only bad thing that happened was Jessica told me she NEVER wants to talk to me again. I guess she misses me so much it hurts, she says. She had a few boyfriends, but I think she never thought she could move on with me hanging around. I told do her thing I just wanted a great friend, but ....sob.I will miss her forever damn female.
1-5-06 Japan has been alright. It has a lot to offer, though I've only been to the clubs. I tried to learn some Japanese, but no luck yet. Some people here speak English so I can get around fine. I am finally getting old. I can't hang out with the whippersnappers any more. In the club I'm the old pervert. And some how I'm pissing people off. I tried to visit a friend from tech school who got stationed at a base a few hours from here. Everything was fine until I get there, then she won't return any of my calls. Never saw her during or after that trip. Can't say it was wasted cause I still had some fun. I have also drunk myself to too high a tolerance that I can't get drunk anymore. So it gets REAL expensive at the club just to leave with maybe a buzz. And I have FINALLY signed up for college classes. I'm gonna have to stick to it and get me a degree this time. So school is what I'll be working on for the rest of time in Japan.

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