.:Thursday, January 31, 2002:.
commercial
Today, Mama jane and Papa Tats is celebrating their 5th year wedding anniversary!!
Wishes:
I wish them long life together... Happy moments and Everlasting love. Kids in the future and Warm embraces and kisses til the end of time. In commemoration of this day, Judy, Diana and I would meet for dinner and some coffee. Well.. that's the itinerary at least..who knows what the three of us would do?! .... heheehee! A toast and some cheers to the couple!
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 8:07 AM|:. + 
.:Wednesday, January 30, 2002:.
something stupid
Sex is part of human nature. It's not stupid. Pre-marital sex is a natural occurrence, it is also not stupid. Getting pregnant at a time when you haven't finished school yet & when you are not ready to have one-- this is stupid. My cousin is getting married soon cause she got herself pregnant. A condom costs how much?! A freaking 5 pesos. You can get 3 rubbers for 5 pesos, and you can choose your favorite flavor. A five-peso rubber would have made a difference. I can't believe they haven't learned anything from school! In fact, she didn't learn anything…
Having a child is a serious commitment, something that cannot be a result of trial and error. Being young-- the hormones have this rush that is so unbearable that you need to release. Lust composes 75% of your being when you are young... A touch here, a kiss there… you are willing to experiment, you heightened the feeling-- getting lost into the emotion and the new feeling..Until all you can sense is the need to let it out. I have long accepted the fact that my cousins would have sex with their bf's/gf's, anyway.. Sex is a part of life…However, I haven't readied myself that SHE would get pregnant. Get marry at an early age, yes.. It was predicted that she will get marry ahead of us… but that is AFTER she graduated not BEFORE. I don't pity her cause she is young and I know that she's aware of the consequences of her actions. I pity her dad the most-- he's been working his butt to be able to let his children attend school. To finish school and to work and help in the expenses.
Luckily, her in-laws like her. I haven't met the Hubby yet nor the in-laws but I will soon enough. Haaaaay… I'm lucky to be educated enough when it comes to s-e-x. I got my friends.. hehehe.. they have taught me well. A new baby in the family.. Another blessing.
Practice SAFE SEX.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 11:50 AM|:. +
.:Tuesday, January 29, 2002:.
time space warp
There are times when I'm alone that I wish that it's yesterday again…then I wouldn't have to worry about my future. Then I would know what future holds for me. Living in the past… living in hope that someday I would be able to rectify all the mistakes that I have done… and wishing that History didn't repeat itself. Because that would mean only one thing -- I have learned my lesson.
There's a certain phase of my youth that I want to return to and that's when I stayed out in the street and play with kids my age. No inhibitions, no malice, nothing adult only pure honest to goodness fun. It was where the problems in world as well as the worries are left to the adults. And you simply exist to live, to breathe, to eat, and to give inspiration that someday everything will be all right and things will be better. Life was so simple then-- I got no worries with anything except the material things that I want but cannot afford. I was not born with a golden spoon… I didn't play with nice, expensive dolls.. but rather I play with sticks, kites, marbles and softball… I play games that don't require expensive toys. I don't like playing dolls and all those intellectual games when it's so fun to run and sweat and get dirty. The only feminine game that I play is the lutu-lutuan, and we almost burn our neighbors house. I like climbing trees (or at least try to..) and just simply be as boyish as I can get. I play tricks on them, we hit each other on the head.. But I never did get into a fight. Haaaaaaay.. sarap maging bata…
My Nanay went to Sta. Mesa and know what?! My childhood friends there have their own kids already! Some have died.. and some stayed just the same… Waaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! I'm getting old…. Someday, I'll be back in that old place, visit my childhood friends and reminisce. Then I would be able to relive our past and all the good times. ]:)
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 2:59 PM|:. +
.:Monday, January 28, 2002:.
things to think about..
What would you do if every time you fell in love
you had to say good-bye?
What would you do if every time you wanted someone
they would never be there?
What would you do, if your best friend died tomorrow
and you never got to tell them how you felt?
What would you do if you loved someone more than ever
and you couldn't have them?
And if you hate me I just want you to know I am sorry
for what ever I did.
Some people live, and some people die and some people
dream and pray and hope and wish and love But I want
to tell you I love you, and you are a friend.
If I die tomorrow you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 2:08 PM|:. +
.:Sunday, January 27, 2002:.
waaaaah!
See that entry below? It's mama Jane's letter to me.
Yesterday, i feel so down that i wrote mama jane a letter. I missed her terribly last friday night. The entry below is a nice surprise.. and i cried. Yeah... I cried, not just teary eyed.. It was like December 4 again.. making me remember.. realize that we'll no longer enjoy each other's company. Words are the only way to communicate.. and reminisce all the good and bad times that we have shared. Remembering the times spent.... holding on to memories..... holding on to the past. Life is so fucking unfair. shit!
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 5:46 AM|:. +
I MISS YOU....
haaaaaay......how are you na bespren? i read your e-mail last night and i cried my eyes out again! anyway, this post let's you and the whole world know that you're my only best friend and goddammit! miss you ever! grrrrr! i hope you and joy had a good time, you met ross pala.....nyay! polite ka lang talaga...... wehehehe!
you know what? papa told me something that made me think about us.... when you look at the moon, you begin to wonder how you can see it though it's so far. farther than we are from each other but cannot even see a glimpse of the other. the only way we remember is through the memories we made, but even that doesn't permit us hold the other or look into each other's eyes, knowing what goes through each other's mind and heart....where words need not be uttered....
kinda makes it unfair huh? well, that which hurts us makes us stronger. i miss our times together... no amount of anything here can compensate for my loss of not seeing you. still, even though we can't do anything about it for now, we have to make the best of what we have. always keep your bitchy coolness up and as ever... TO HELL WITH EVERYBODY!
take care always and keep close contact with all the bitches. i love you forever bestest best friend!!! ........ JANE GANDA =)
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 2:06 AM|:. +
.:Saturday, January 26, 2002:.
emode's love story
Romantic Rescue is my primary love story!
The love story that grips you, Romantic Rescue, uses love to give better meaning and significance to your life. Love, in your story, is all-powerful. It is the catalyst to change yourself, help your partner become the person you want them to be, and show the world what you are made of. Some people put themselves in the role of hero in this love story — nursing an ailing partner back to health, saving him from a string of previously destructive relationships, maybe even saving him from a physical danger. Other people with whom you share this story cast themselves as those in need of rescue - relying on their partners to swoop in and save them from whatever ill-fate's been visited upon them, either real or imagined.
In your love story, actions speak almost louder than words. The more present you are to your partner, or he to you, the stronger and faster your bond can develop. The image of one partner as caregiver and the other as recipient of that care, sets up an immediate give-and-take relationship, one that makes your union seem all the more magical.
It also sets up one of the parties as a savior. Though perhaps not as epic as seen in the characters in novels or films, this is significant nonetheless. In Hemingway's tragic love story, "Farewell to Arms," an injured soldier is nurtured back to health and into a blissful romance by a kindly nurse. Not long after, she's the one at death's door. In "Run Lola Run," a woman has twenty minutes to come up with a large amount of money to save her boyfriend's life. How far she goes to obtain it is a measure of her devotion or delusion.
COMMENT:
Well.. it hit a sore spot. darn..... this one is so true.. maybe that's why I choose Losers.. hahahah! I want to be a heroine.. hmmmmmmn.... is that a good sign?
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 3:52 AM|:. +
new link
I was browsing and i discovered this site.. I like it.. love letter project
have you ever wandered? Walking and riding transportation heading no where? You just want to be alone and travel? I did that today...
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 12:39 AM|:. +
.:Thursday, January 24, 2002:.
a date with joy
Today, I spent the day with Jocel. She was a classmate and friend since our College Days. It was agreed upon before Mama Jane left for NY that whenever she would be in Manila, we would see each other. This was our first meeting since Jane left. Hmmm.. We met in SM City and stroll around-- had our lunch and just talk. Remembering old times, Jane, & the rest of the Barkada. My Nanay thought I'm going to school after our meeting, but I got tardy going to Manila --the ride for home is just outside the mall!! Anyway, I'll be attending tomorrow's class.. so why bother going now? It's just a waste of time and energy.
Our supposed itinerary was-- We would meet in SM then go meet her friend, thereafter going to Sta. Mesa for the Film and then back in SM to talk to Mama Jane. I arrived late due to some inevitable force. We had our talk about our lives when we were still "young" and err.. men. Hahahaha!! Her men not mine since I don't have any. [ahehehe!] She asked if I'm going to take the BAR exams come September, I told her that I would, no matter what. Pass or Fail, I don't care. I just want to get over it. I told her that I would put the things we talked about here in my journal and she got paranoid again as always. Thinking someone would know her and her BF. Hmm.. Did I mention that she is a mistress? Oops.. I was not supposed to put it here.. Hahaha! I met her BF.. He's so quiet and so serious looking, but mama Jane was right-- Joy is too beautiful for him. No wonder he does not want to let her go. Though he looks fine to me. [Hey mama! He's not that shiny anymoreeeeeee!] And I think he grew a bit taller. Joy and I looked for blouses and designs of gowns-- she would be attending a wedding. As usual she wants to be the center of attention.. Picking a style that befits a bride. A gown with a long trail and she wants to wear a veil. Daims! Hmm then she asked if I want to smoke. Haaaay… `twas a long time since I had my taste of cigarette. We looked into each other's eyes and then bought some. Puff… puff… puff.. haaaaay.. it was heaven. Then we panicked and stuff mints inside our mouths. Tsk… we are grown ups now… and yet we can't smoke freely. I brought it home with me.
I asked her when she would be back.. She answered indefinitely. Hopefully, I would be able to meet Ailes, Diana and Judy soon. Their Christmas gifts are rotting here… and I missed them already. I miss Jane the most. *sigh* time to halt, kulasisi… got to pick ate up! ta-tah!
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 5:27 PM|:. +
facts of life that will make you feel better
1. At least 5 people in this world, love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. Without you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique, in your own way.
9. Someone that you don't know even exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself,
you probably sooner or later will get it.
13. Always remember compliments you received, forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
*notice to the public: I got the List from the mail. I don't know who the actual author is so naturally i wasn't able to ask permission. hmmmmmm.. what else... meeting with Joy today!! :) yey! possible chit-chat with mama jane! Guess what?! that list actually made me feel better!! Hope it'll do the same to you! *winks*
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 5:43 AM|:. +
.:Tuesday, January 22, 2002:.
Magna est veritas et praevalebit
Truth is mighty and will prevail.
Truth is the basis of everything. With it, comes trust and with trust, one learns how to care and to love. Without Truth, there can only be lie. Without trust-- there can only be doubt. To love is the most important thing in the world. It's sharing of one's self to another person, disregarding all the flaws and imperfections. Giving of your own self wholly, without a doubt, with full trust and conviction. Entrusting your heart to someone is one of the most risky things you would ever do. Some protect it with their lives and some handled it carelessly leaving the heart battered, scarred and badly broken.
The day of freedom. It's futile to fight the inevitable. I know I should have given up a long time ago. I was just being stubborn. I hate admitting to myself that once more-- I failed. But I've come to accept that fact now. I've come to accept that life is about failure and success. Maybe it's not yet my time. Maybe it's too soon or too late, which one I don't really know. I'm tired of being second choice I guess. For once I know what I want -- all the while I was looking for someone who'll make me his first choice. Living each day in security that I am and will be the only one. I know I won't be able to find it in the net or maybe I won't be able to find it at all. And yet I keep on hoping that someday-- he will come, swept me off my feet and we'll live happily ever after. I want to live a fairy tale life.
I'm that wishful.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 8:49 AM|:. +
.:Monday, January 21, 2002:.
haayyy
I'm sick with Flu. I feel awful.. haay!! =( no school again.. fuck.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 4:26 PM|:. +
.:Sunday, January 20, 2002:.
fairy[?] godmother
I'm a Ninang , would you believe?! someone is actually entrusting their kid to me! Hehehehhe!! hmmm..They actually picked me up to be a second mom to their daughter. Poor Kid... she got a poor ninang.. hehehhe, but come to think of it-- she's lucky to have me. I'm groovy, I'm Cool.. I'm childish [sometimes!], I'm the coolest Ninang in the world. hmmmmmn... Raising a child in principles and values! I'm getting older.. responsibilities are piling up.. hehehehe!! Welcome to the Christian World, Joanna Marie!
I'm a godmother yeah.. but not a fairy... why?! Cause i don't have wings and wands =( I want those...
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 9:34 AM|:. +
.:Saturday, January 19, 2002:.
Yeheeeeey!! Before the day is through, I was able to fix the frigging layout!! a bunch of thanks to cliff.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 10:02 AM|:. +
announcement!
ok.. so I'm really not good with HTML! damn..... I'll be leaving it as is until I got the nerve to touch it again! I've never seen my site this messy before! heheheh!! anyway, bear with me. I hope no one visits me today!! waaaaaaaaah!! Guess what my problem this time is?! Fuck that table! grrrrrrr!!!!
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 8:57 AM|:. +
*yawn*
Good Morning Kulasisi!! yep! I woke up very early today... checked my mails and you ASAP.Yesterday was a shitty day. So many bad and hurtful things happened to me! yeps... sad to say-- it was a bad hair day. I wonder what this day holds for me.. Hope it'll be a good one.
I was reading some of the past entries and some made me think.. am I still being true? Or have I stopped being myself and turned into something I'm not. Is believing a lie to be the truth makes you a liar? Hmm... that's a thought to ponder on! Such a boring morning in IRC, no familiar names to see.. I guess they're all deep in their slumber. I'm wondering if sometimes is this worth it? Life and man.. such complex combination. *yawn* In fact I don't have anything better to say today-- my life is that stagnant. What the hell.. I'll be having fun soon. After this phase of hibernation, I'll be back to my jolly old self!
I'll be changing the layout. My regular readers (ahem) told me that they're not comfortable with the new layout.. guess I'd better start to work on it. I miss my friends! sheet! By the way, mama Jane sent some pictures. I think I'm going to post it here! yeah.. that's a good idea. hmmm... Better go, catch you later kulasisi! muaaaaah! be good. (hmmmm.. now why did i say that?!?!)
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 5:59 AM|:. +
.:Friday, January 18, 2002:.
hay naku..shet!
Ok, My day didn't start out right! fucccccccccccck!!! first of all.. I haven't had a night's sleep!! Second of all, I was mistaken for a BOY!.Third, a huge fight happened in IRC. To top that, I caused it! Ok.. here's the fucking story.. i went online to wait for mama jane, When i got into the channel there was this chatter who was rude. I was in a bad mood so i answer back and make nasty remarks about him. He said that Im an SOB. What an earful did he get! Well... Mike saw what's happening so he came to my rescue. He was fuming mad and keep on calling names. WHich make the other Operators to get mad at us! Fuckkk! I feel awful! I didn't mean to cause anybody trouble, I'm just defending myself. I know i shouldn't have brougt it in the main but how am i supposed to think about that when all the bloods are rushing in my head. Making me feel like a volcano! No one can stop an errupting volcano. No one not even the Volcano itself. So in the end, that guy and i, patched things up. Now, the rest of my co-@'s are mad at me. Fucking life! fuck! fuck! fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuccccccccccccccccccccck!
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 3:30 AM|:. +
.:Thursday, January 17, 2002:.
hmmmnn
I watched Bridget Jone's Diary [again], and may I say that it never failed to amuse me. It's a movie that I can really identify with. That movie never fails to lift my mood and make me believe that someone is meant for someone. And once again, I remember the hateful fact that men are such polygamous bastards. I remember a story of my Nanay.. It's about men and their women. She said it's but natural for men to find and be involved with other women other than their wives. But then, time will come that men themselves would stop dallying on their own volition without their wives gluing themselves on their side or without anybody getting hurt--physically. When will men stop to flirt you may ask.. …-- That I don't know; some stopped early. Some just keep on going. Some just want to stay a bachelor forever. No ties, no commitments. Bachelor -- I hate this fucking word! For me, Bachelors doesn't want to commit, the things they want in life is composed of a --
1. CAR- every bachelor wants a car, a car with black tint. For what purpose? The tint? That will be discussed later. Well… the car is 1000 pogi points in itself. Darn, it attracts a lot of women. Women can easily fall in love with the car, actually they fall in love with the car first then later with the driver.
2. CAREER - you know those long sleeves and ties stuff… the prestige of being called a professional.
3. CUTE GIRLFRIEND-- sad to say not all girls are qualified.. One has to be real cute-- babysoft skin, kissable lips, & body body body! Never mind the brain as long as she is kind. Hmmm... Cute and nice-- such killer combination.
4. A GREAT LAID - umm a great laid whenever they want… this is where the black tint would come in.. You see, the tint of their car is so dark they can bring with them their woman/women for the night without getting scared that someone will see her in his car. This is to protect the guy's identity. Another purpose is that, if the guy doesn't have the budget to you know-- go to a private place and to keep his masculinity-- they can even do it right then and there. So, be wary of guys who have this kind of car..
5. FUN - endless fun. Self-explanatory.. All hanky panky included. As I've said-- having fun without ties and commitment.
Of course I maybe wrong but in my 24 years of existence, I haven't actually seen an honest man -- someone who would give up anything for the woman he loves. I wonder if this kind of man still exist. Someone who's faithful to his other half and faithful to the bonds and all the things that he said. Someone who can go and leave your sight, and yet you know wouldn't do anything to breach the trust that you both shared. Men don't tell lies…You just discover that they are lying and don't they love to get caught. Darn. They always leave clues behind to lead the girl to doubt. Then, the girl who is like McGyver-- discover that something is indeed going on and for the nth time, she was played for a fool. There are women who don't put up with this, and some women played along. Deciding to play along while waiting for the right one. I have to do something to keep me from being played.. And that is to be a player myself. Time to keep love hidden at the back of my mind. Time to say goodbye to love (for the meantime). Time to set my priorities up. Time to change point of views. Time to play.
The game has started.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 7:16 AM|:. +
.:Wednesday, January 16, 2002:.
haay
I had a dream and it's still fresh in my memory.
We were back in our College days, I'm in school and it's a friday. I know it's a friday because the students were not wearing their uniforms. I'm inside the classroom.. feeling so sad.. not minding what's going on around me.. People are talking.. i can hear them mumbling and talking.. but i don't know what they' re talking about. So I went out to the corridor stood there against the wall and waited. Then I saw mama jane. She was wearing her usual happy face, she's in her striped violet shirt & maong pants. I hugged her tightly and we went inside the room where the rest of our old friends are waiting. Then, I woke up and I missed her. =( haaaaaay!
We had a short chitchat in IRC a while ago... and now i miss her more! I don't feel like going to school anymore. I just want to stay here at home, clean the house, wash the laundry and live.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 5:07 AM|:. +
.:Tuesday, January 15, 2002:.
commercial
Happy Birthday to NIño! he's 26 years old now! woooooo hoooooooooo! Soon, he'll be ready to settle down and have a family of his own. i do hope that he'll invite me to his wedding.. what the heck, i'm going to crash it! hahahaha!
Mah b-day wish to the B-day boy:
May you get all the things that you want, may you live your life without having regrets and may you learn your lessons. i do care a lot bout you my pare! you be good ok?! and hope to see you soon, so i can give you a headlock! *laughs out loud* HEre's a kiss from me to you.. Muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!! Be Good always! Thanks for being my pare. ]:)
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 3:01 PM|:. +
waiting for love
There are times when I get tired of waiting for true, endless, honest to goodness love. I envy those people who have someone to held hands with, someone to share stories with and just simply spend days with doing nothing. The feel of being held securely in the arms of a person who loves you… enveloped in a warm embrace. The look, touch, and feel of love surround you. It envelops you. It makes you feel like everything is worth trying, makes you feel like you are capable of doing anything. Everything seems to be right. It gives you strength and courage to move on and live. Knowing in your mind and in your heart that he is yours alone and no one, not even the beauty of the day and night is capable of taking his attention away. Someone whom will always be there to have fights with & to make up with. I am still waiting for this kind of love…
Patience is a virtue they said. And waiting takes a lot of patience. I can therefore state that I'm not such a virtuous person afterall. I'm into instant things-- instant mami, instant coffee, instant noodles.. And all those things that don't need much time. Is there such a thing as instant love? Hehehe! I'm getting tired waiting for real love. Waiting… Dreaming.. Hoping.. Praying that one-day, I'll wake up and I'll be beside someone I dearly love. Beside the person who belongs to me as I belong to him, who is my significant other. *sigh* Love takes a lot of patience. Patience takes a lot of time waiting. Waiting makes me impatient. Impatient people seldom succeed.
darn..
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 7:18 AM|:. +
.:Sunday, January 13, 2002:.
Top Reasons To Have Sex
1. Scientific tests find that when women make love,they produce
double amounts of the hormone estrogen, which make hair shiny and skin
smooth.
2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering
dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores
and makes your skin glow.
3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that
romantic dinner.
4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches
and tones up just about every muscles in the body. It's more enjoyable than
swimming 20 laps and you don't need special sneakers!
5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases the body
endorphin into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and
leaving you with a feeling of well-being.
6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The
sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones.
These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy!
7. Sex is the safest tranquillizer in the world. It is 10 times
more effective than Valium.
8. Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages
saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that
causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.
9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can
release the tension that restrict blood vessels in the brain.
10. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a
national antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever.
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Sex anyone?! heheheheh!! Sex is that Good? CooL... ];)
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 8:27 AM|:. +
.:Saturday, January 12, 2002:.
commercial
HAPPY 40th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO NANAY SONS AND TATAY TING!!
waaaaah!! When will i celebrate my First Year anniversary?! dang....
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 5:46 AM|:. +
.:Friday, January 11, 2002:.
?
What if i put my old layout back?! hmmmmmm.. not too many people write me now a days, i don't know if they got tired of me or they're just lazy to use the navigation bar! *sigh* For your Information and USE!-- that thing above the frame -- the one that says, DARE TO CONTROL ME - that's the navigation bar! it's a drop down menu. This layout is BEST viewed in 800 x 600 setting.
I'm kinda hooked up with forums.. i joined a forum community.. it's in grabeh.com and i have a tagalog blog there. hehehhe!! no, the contents of the two blogs aren't the same. The people in Grabeh are friendly. I'm enjoying myself so much. This blog of mine is a monologue thingy-- whereas my blog over there is interactive. Two blogs with different contents, both updated daily. How life can be so sweet?!
Ailes decided that she ought to try the entertainment world that she took a leave of absence from the Law Office she's working in, to work in a project starring Judy Ann and Dingdong Dantes. I thought she's going to act or something.. i even asked her about her role, she said "di naman ako ganun ka-jologs noh! nasa production staff ako. i handle the customes, parang designer..". She said she's confused right now that she doesn't know what to do..i told her that it's ok to try new things, meet new people and see new fresh faces. Maybe her luck is not in the legal field maybe it's in showbusiness. hmmmnn.. imagine ailes.. doing a bedscene? Hahahahahaha! i do miss my friends..... =(
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 9:17 AM|:. +
.:Thursday, January 10, 2002:.
THE SEX AND THE CITY DICTIONARY
Goodie Drawer
Everybody has one. Usually in a bedside table, full of condoms, a
vibrator and massage oil.
Laws of Dating Feng Shui
The ancient Chinese practice with the basic principle that a change
of location will result in a change of luck and dating good fortune.
Trysexual
Someone who will try everything once.
Re-Virginized
The belief that if you don't have sex for a year you can become re-
virginized and frisky.
"Everything But" Girl
A girl who does everything but....
Relationship Rear View Mirror
Relationships may appear closer than they are.
The Sex/Politics Link
Whether you're dating a politician or campaigning for a new partner,
sex and politics are inextricably linked.
Illegal Dumping
When someone rejects you before they get to know you.
Break-up Recovery Solution
It takes half the total time you went out with someone to get over
them.
The Cheating Curve
Someone's definition of what constitutes cheating is in direct
proportion to how much they themselves want to cheat. Also known
as "Quantum Cheating."
A Classic No-Win Situation
If you tell a friend to break-up with her significant other, and she
does, it's your fault. If she doesn't break-up with him, she knows
that you think she should and therefore can never speak to you again.
Co-dependent Coming
Faking orgasm because he's a nice guy and he means well.
Darwinian
If a man is over 30 and single there is something wrong with him.
They're being weeded out from propagating the species.
The Dead Wife Factor
The widower thing is a definite no-no. It doesn't matter how much of
a bitch she was alive, now she's dead and you're the bitch who can't
live up to her.
Deja-fuck
When you're having sex with someone and you realize that you've slept
with them before.
The Grand Gesture
If you break-up with someone and they just disappear from your life
all together, well then, it wasn't meant to be. But, if they make a
powerful declaration of their love, then you really have to
reconsider.
Low-hangers
Balls that hang so low they get in the way.
Manhattan Guy
A genetically mutant strain of single man that feeds on Zabar's and
midnight shows at the Angelika.
The Power Lesbian
Manhattan's latest group to flaunt their disposable income. They seem
to have everything: great shoes, killer eyewear and the secrets to
invisible make-up.
Urban Relationship Myth
Unbelievable fairytales concocted by women to make their love lives
seem less hopeless.
The Vague Gesture
Worse than no gesture at all.
A "WE" Guy
A man who refers to your potential future relationship by using "we"
statements (i.e. "we" can cook, "we" can swim). A man who fakes a
future with you to get what he wants in the present.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 11:11 AM|:. +
.:Wednesday, January 09, 2002:.
Today I'm celebrating my FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY with Bloggers! It's been a year since I started to rant… Hehehe.. In commemoration of this day. I would like to share to you a story. So what are we waiting for?! Let's get it on!
a cyber love affair
Once upon a time, (ahem) there was this girl who was lucky enough to have a computer and an internet account, she lives in a far away land… with her pans, chickens, dogs, and cats. She was so happy when she got a computer for her 18th birthday. "Finally, a computer of my own… now, I can find penpals around the world that I can speak to over the phone" she exclaimed.[Ok.. Ok! So she's not that well-equipped intellectually.. Don't mind it.] So she set her computer up and when she was all ready-- she went online. "now, now, now.. What am I going to do?!" she asks herself. She start to hit the keys and point the mouse and surf from one site to another… curious enough to chat with other people and filling up forms. She stayed up late that night. "Oh my, I'm so pretty and beautiful that they love me! They are adoration me. Who said I can't talk the english! I can talk it.. Fuck my english teachers, flunking me. I'm going to marry rich people and they will see.. Those people.. braggers." She said, looking at herself in front of her dresser. The next day, she went back online.. Looking for the people she met. They were nowhere to be found, yet she was not sad cause other chatters filled the gap. She was asked to tell something about herself.. She gladly complied. "oh, I'm Lucia.. I'm just debut last week.. I love to talk to people like you, you know.. and I love shopping.. I love to buy dress that is long but not the longest type.. And I love to …." She keep on typing & hitting the poor keys not realizing that the other person already logged out.
*snip-snip*
It's been months since she packed her bags from the real world and she decided to live in cyberspace. When err.. Mr. Right barged in her life. She met him online.. They hit it off and started to talk everyday. Lucia was able to fulfill her dreams.. She was able to get a penpal that she can talk to over the phone. Mr. Right is much older than Lucia.. He is everything she could ever want in man.. he has everything… He owns a business, nice, funny, intelligent [he even tutored Lucia in English when they talk over the phone] He asked her to send her pictures and he instantly fell for her.. One day, Lucia asked him "When will we mate meet?.. I miss you so so so very much already lalabs! *sigh* you don't want to meet me? " So, Mr. Right Agreed.. And he turns out to be one ugly guy… Lucia never did ask for a picture.. it was enough that he calls her and they talk. She was so disappointed that she was shocked all throughout the meal. Mr. Right sensed the changed and decided to let go of Lucia. She fell in love with a faceless guy, she had her own visions of how he would look like.. but never did she imagine that it would be this bad. So, she went home.. called the Internet Provider.. "Good Evening, this is Lucia… I want to stop the Internet. Thank you." she went to bed crying and brokenhearted. "I wanna dead! I wanna dead!" she wailed.
Mr. Right was never seen in the chat rooms again… last time I heard he made it big in the business and had a plastic surgery, went to Hollywood and now is known as Brad Pitt. Lucia, well..Lucia is now an English teacher.
The End
Being a victim of cyber romance myself, I don’t condemn people who fall in love with their chatmates. Trust me, I never did intend to be in a situation like this, neither did I see myself hanging out with a machine. Touching not a person's hand but a cold mouse and keys. Looking not into someone else's eyes but in a screen. Sharing not laughter but "Hahahas" and "lolz", kissing with "muahs" and "tsups". But nevertheless, it brought me joy, a temporary happiness that at one moment, I was able to share myself with others & they were able to share themselves to me. Liking a person not because she is good-looking or rich or anything, but liking them because they are such likable and nice persons. I've had cyber love affairs and some are simultaneous, so when its time to parts ways, I had multiple brokenhearts at the same time.
I never did imagine in my entire life, that I would be hooked with the net and chatting. I didn't see myself staying most of my time glued @ my desk, laughing like a jerk and talking to faceless people. It was not in my plans to fall in love. Not in real life, certainly not in cyber space. So I held back for as long as I can. I controlled what I feel. But then the time came that I can no longer deny it, I gave in. My affairs were brief; it was with guys my age, older or younger than I was. I do care for a lot of them but I don’t know if what I felt was love, I care about them though, boosting their egos when they need it, and I spend time listening to their woes.. Sometimes giving advise.. Sometimes, just lending an ear. Maybe I'm just using the cyber love affair as a means of staying on-line. It gives me an excuse to stay in front of the pc and burn our phoneline. All I know is I'll be online for as long as I want and not a day over. =) more rants in the future.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 12:24 PM|:. +
.:Tuesday, January 08, 2002:.
Boobies
My right boobs begun to itch early morning… it was darn irritating… I can't scratch it the way I want it 'cause when I do it starts to tingle. Hehehe ok, I'm going to admit it-- I got nothing better to say. I can't concentrate. I don't know what's with my areola right now…. Hmmm… I remember I got this copy of different picture of boobies. [How I wish I got a scanner] Boobies of different shapes and sizes.. Papaya, pomelo, cucumber, coned.. Etc. etc. What is it with boobies that drive men crazy??? They seem to look at a woman's bosom first, then the butt, the body, the face and then the personality. But most often than not the bosom is enough to catch attention. Hey, men got breasts too.. Though they are not plump like those of a woman, they are still breasts - they got the areola thingy and the nips. Hehehe! We got flat chested women don't we? Hmmm.. Men's ideal breast is characterized as plump, firm and pointed. But I do know and understand that breasts are just part of a woman, they are accessories and they compliment a woman. We can't even use breasts as sex identifier since gays now a days got big boobs as well. Hmm… do men have preference when it comes to boobies? Do some like cucumber shaped? Papaya is a favorite I know.. Hehehe… do they like coned shape? Boobies, bumpers, chests, bosom whatever they are called they are still breasts, piece of flesh that can be use for pleasure or nurturing. =Þ ~
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 10:07 PM|:. +
.:Monday, January 07, 2002:.
oh my…
The new millenium is for the women… it's their time, time to have equal treatment, equal opportunity.. Time to let them do what they want, when, where and how they want to do it. I am aware of ladies climbing the executive ladder faster than men could ever could. Women are liberated now a days.. They speak their mind.. Do things in a liberal manner, some usually jump from one bed to another.. Initiative enough to ask a guy for his number or go out. Even capable of multi-tasking [having simultaneous boyfriends], they are sexually active though they are not married. And society has come to accept that fact. What I can't seem to understand is the fact that a man still wants to marry a virgin girl. Isn't that a bit odd? They'll jump, hop and dally with lots of different women and yet they want to marry a virgin, such inequality. A man wants to marry a virgin girl and a woman doesn't want to marry a virgin boy. But how can one marry a virgin when those men keep on dallying and making out with all women they can have a contact with? It confuses me sometimes --- whether its worthwhile to stay a virgin or not-- sometimes I think that I'm missing half the fun and waiting for fucking Mr. Right is bullshit. What if Mr. Right comes when I can no longer do acrobatics … Or I'm too old for it, that just thinking 'bout sex makes me tired. Sometimes, I get this urge to just do it and get rid of it for all I care. But before I do that, sense would knock me on the head and make me realize I'm not yet ready for such intimacy. Yep.. Isn't that funny? At 24? Who would have think I'm still… err a Voltes V member… Am I a late-bloomer? If it is so, maybe I deserve the Best in tardiness award. Somehow I manage to let the people around me to believe otherwise… I'm such a Good actress plus the fact that I read a lot and my friends tutorial lessons of course… Hehehe!
I think its alright to classify women in 3 types-- the liberated--the discreet--the conservative. We all know what the liberated women are capable of doing and we know how boring the lives of the conservative women are The "discreet" type of women are the type that doesn't do much in public.. They just stare at you and lure you with that look.. They exude mystery & seduce you with body language. Smile and glances are her weapons. Before you know it-- you are hooked by her charm and endless wit.. makes you feel like a conqueror when in fact you are the one being conquered. Never assume that women doesn’t know the games that you play… in fact don't assume anything. And never, ever underestimate the power of a woman.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 8:01 AM|:. +
.:Saturday, January 05, 2002:.
tarot
There's a phase in our lives where we wonder what lies ahead in the future.. Where are we going and basically what our fate shall be.. Tarot [pronounced as ta` roh and not ta-rot okies?] is one way of having a glimpse of the future-- it can tell us the possibilities of life. There are moments where I don't believe in it… but more often that not, I do believe in them-- hoping that the good readings will come true.. And the bad ones? To hell with them!
If you believe in fate, the tendency is that you believe in fortune telling. What happened to me that I suddenly decided to write about the Tarot? well… same as with mythology… I'm really interested with the tarot cards.. How it affects a person's life, how it can make you understand your present situation. Jane is good at reading the cards, she's very comprehensive and concise. I tried reading the tarot -- and I got a headache afterwards, I have to glimpse at the book for me to understand what 10 pentacles means and what it mean when its facing away or to the person. I don't think I'll be able to develop the so-called thrid eye. Besides, I don't want to open it. Hehehe! I don't want to see dead people lurking around. Living people who look like dead are enough, thank you. The tarot can tell you, your future as well as your past. How you came to be the way you are. However, having some kind of a "tip" should not lead a person to be lax in life. It's still up to the person how to work on his goals. The readings are but possibilities of your future, not the future itself. Okies.. In short, I had a peek of my future-- hmm… it was stated by the cards that my mother has a strong influence on me.. I am carefree… to damn carefree that I don't worry bout the future.. I'm going to meet a mature man, a wealthy one at that.. and well.. We're going to hit it off. [Hehehe!] There's one set back, he has a black side. Maybe he's working for the mob or something to that effect.. Dang, hope it's not black as mine but then who said I have one? I don't have one!! Really! I'm the kindest person you've ever met!! Promise!. What else? It's possible that I'm going to be one rich woman… but then I have to overcome all obstacles just as everybody else. I can't wait for that day!! Woooooo hoooo!
Somehow, it is true that for you to be able to be absolutely happy-- you have to be in the right situation, with the right people at the right time. That is what you call LUCK. Fate is destiny. Destiny is Future. Future is now.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 1:54 PM|:. +
.:Friday, January 04, 2002:.
what a nice day..
Bon Jour, kulasisi! I just got home from my old school[s]… Hehehe, I'm not going to need my receipts afterall… I got all the clearance that I needed. And I got with me, my Transcript of Records from FEU. Now, I'm going to handcarry it to Lyceum on Monday at the same time getting an honorable dismissal to be submitted to PLS. I bought 2 books.. Tax law review and Codal of Commercial Law. I finished all my transactions at 10 am. ];) Awesome huh? Thereafter, we waited for Tatay at his office. I'm so tired and feeling so hot, maybe its due to the weather.. kinda hot today. The sun is out and not too much cloud in the sky.
Guess that's about it.. I do hope that things will go smoothly from hereon. I'm so happy.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 3:02 PM|:. +
.:Thursday, January 03, 2002:.
countdown to bar 2002
I'll be going to my old school tomorrow and start to process my transcript of records… I lost my receipts and permits.. waaaaaahh!! I can't remember where I put them.. so many things happened that I stopped paying attention to my things. ]:( 'wish that there won't be any problem regarding my finances or else I'm in big, big trouble! So I need to wake up very early tomorrow.. my nanay and I would be going to Quiapo Church [first Friday mass], then to my old school. Hope that everything would be all right and I pray that I would be able to overcome all assholes I'm going to face tomorrow. Hehehe!
Yesterday, I realized that it's January already and I'm 7 months away from BAR 2002! *quivers* so what did I do? I grabbed all my notes and old books… would you imagine, I got a huge bag full of cases, what jurisprudence I really can't remember.. I got to have review books for Civil Law, Commercial Law, Criminal Law, Taxation Law, Remedial Law and Political Law. I got to study seriously now.. or else this laxity of mine will cause me my future.. Do hope that I would find inspiration to read, read, and read. Maybe, I should move & lock myself inside the other room and leave my sister here by herself. I think that would work for me… no TV, just a radio, and no load for my cellphone… just me, my books, my old notes and my tons of cases. Maybe then I would be able to re-read all those pieces of paper.. Just pray tell that I don't go insane and set my things on fire.
Btw, mama jane called me up…. ];) it's just so nice to hear her voice… it rejuvinates me…refuelling my soul with bitchy things!! hehehe! we talked about the weather, her life as a new yorker, my boring life here, the people we hate and the people that we just want to laugh at. I do miss her company so much.. wish we could spend time soon. *yawns* so that would be all for tonight my everdearest kulasisi..
bonne nuit, mademoiselle.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 10:51 PM|:. +
.:Wednesday, January 02, 2002:.
resolutions
Hmm… another year is over and it's time to make another list of resolutions that's very unlikely to be done. Nevertheless, I'm still going to make one just in case I got the nerve to live by the rules. Resolutions are rules, and rules suck. You have to understand that I don't break the rules, I bend them.. That's why I can't remember a time wherein I was able to do my New Year's resolutions. Anyway, here goes: [I got to be truthful here.] *thinks very very hard*:
1. Cut down the intake of carbohydrates, sweets, alcoholic drinks and sodas. [arrgghh!! I'm going to die! Why don't I just kill myself!]
2. Study seriously. Attend review classes everyday. USE the frigging library..
3. Never use the Internet ever again. use the Internet wisely. [shit!]
4. Be Stay faithful. In thoughts. In words. And in deed!
5. Before saying anything, I should stop. Think. And say it nevertheless.
6. Stop being makulit, be content with what I have and realize that there are things that I'm better without.
7. Should strive to get the things that I need badly. [such as clips… tons and tons of them.. successful life, and adoring husband-- nyehahaha!]
8. Stop feeling sorry for natural-born losers. [such as *gags herself*]
9. Stay bitchy and if I can help it, be bitchier 'til I become the bitchiest person on earth!
10. Keep on writing stuff…without apprehension whether people like it or not. Though the feeling of people liking it is nice, I have to keep the entries real and uncut and I won't change that just to please the knack out of them! Just in case they don't like what I wrote-- "go get your own journal, shnucker!".
11.Not to stay up late. [special request of my nanay].
Throughout the year, people come in and out of our lives. You leave or they leave you.. Whoever leaves first, one thing is for sure--- both of you are never the same again. Another year has ended, learn from your mistakes, value the lessons and live your life to the fullest. Time has won another battle.
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 9:35 AM|:. +
.:Tuesday, January 01, 2002:.
welcome year 2002
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Time to say goodbye to the year of the snake and say hello to the year of the horse!! Yey! Yey! They say that it's going to be a better year,.. hmm, better year? I do hope so.. It's also a year of Romance-- meaning it's good to say your vows [applicable to certain signs only]. The year 2002 is a year of lust, people will get into short affairs and lots of illicit one at that. These shall cause lots of pregnancies and the percentage of sexually transmitted disease will be high.
Wishe(s): do wish it would be a better year for my family and me. Cheers!! *drinks Mule*
Wish all my enemies rot in hell! Hehehehe-- kidding! *winks*
Here is my new layout, the iframe is courtesy of julia of asia-mami. com. =)
posted by .:|[-koni-] @ 12:42 AM|:. +
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