The meaning of decadence is: a becoming bad, immoral or impure. I wrote this song for my brother, whom at the time was heading down the road to destruction using heavy drugs (smoking the almighty YOM). I was on the same road myself but could not see it at the time. I have always been close to my brother and I have always worried about him and I still do today. Writing this song was my way of telling him � Hey, I love you, I care a lot about you, and I don�t want anything to happen to you, but you are fucking up bro!�.
You think you have the answers
You don�t know
Smoke the devils dick
Off you go
You don�t know yourself
Or your friends
Stab you in the back
Again and again
Walking in shadows all your life
It�s Total destruction of the mind
You could have stopped it long ago
Decadence now takes control
Take another trip a
Ease your mind
Can you see the light?
Are you blind?
Have you lost control?
Did you stray?
Life is all excuses
Mind decay
�2003 Fred S Mayoros Jr. All rights reserved
August 8th 1995 was a date that would change my life forever. It was on this day that Jerry Garcia lost his battle with drugs and alcohol. A huge void was left in my life and the only way I knew how to fill it was by consuming alcohol and drugs. Running hard and fast I chased the pain until eventually I lost my desire to play music and to live. Drugs and alcohol brought me to my knees and I now was ready to surrender. I was spiritually, mentally, and physically bankrupt.
Gods grace and mercy delivered me to a drug and alcohol rehabilitation center in Pennsylvania. It was there where I really took a good look at the life I was living and the devastation left along the way.