to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Coming home from the rehab, I jumped right back in with the band. We had gotten rid of our drummer and brought in a new one named Joe Cucitro. My writing had changed from painful and sad to an angry message, directed towards my addiction and what it had had taken from me. Evil Tool was written about my heroine & crack addiction. It describes my feelings and resentment towards the power of the drug and the people that had came into my life as a result of it. I have to admit, when I first started writing the lyrics for this song, my anger was directed towards Kim, the woman I used to run with. Over time all wounds heal, but the scars will always remain. Today I am able to forgive her and move on with my life. I hope and pray that one day she will find peace and serenity in her life.
Works in my pocket
Money in my hand
I�m going downtown
To see the dealer man
Going to get high
Going to get right
Just me and my evil tool tonight
You said you loved me
That you really cared
Sedate me one more time
You make me steal and beg
I�m down on my knees
Comatose my mind
All I need is my evil tool
I cook my life up in a spoon
You lied and cheated me
Just kill me bitch
Kick me when I�m down
You want all of my life
And everything I am
Buried in the ground
Body�s burning
Head is turning
Crawling out of my skin
I can�t think straight
Carrying this weight
I�m sick once again
Pain runs through me
I want to be free
Anticipation runs high
That rush in my brain
Drives me insane
I just want to die
�2003 Fred S Mayoros Jr. All rights reserved