"Drawbacks"
2-8-03
If anything can describe the situation here, it's drawbacks...not only is there some greater, vast horizon beyond my reach, but I am stuck in this shit hole of a town. -growls- There's got to be a law against this kind of thing...something that prohibits teens beyond the age of 19 to stay in the community where they graduated from High School. Or...A limit on how long you can stay in your parents' house. Or...how long you can keep the same Dead-end job. -grumbles- If only I could get beyond these drawbacks. If only Finances weren't so troubling. I need SCHOLARSHIPS! I NEED FINANCIAL AID!! HEAR MY PLEA! SOME DIVINE SOURCE! Please help me get on with my life....this is getting ridiculous! I've worked at Wendy's for (minus the 3 months leave here and there) almost 2 years! That is SICK! I tell you, SICK! It's disgusting. I make $6.30 an hour when I should be out on my own in an apartment in Salt Lake or Provo going to college and EARNING a living, not scraping the bottom of the fishbowl of life for crumbs of food. I should be preparing for dating and all that nice courtship shit that goes along with meeting other people and social situations. I SHOULD! BY ALL MEANS! Be out of the house, doing SOMETHING! Going SOMEWHERE with my life...but here I sit on my lazy butt doing what? Reading, writing. Working for mere pennies. Drops in the barrel of water. Where does all that money go? -growls- TO MY FREAKING CAR!!! AND TO FOOD!!! and if I were staying somewhere else, TO RENT and Insurance! BLAH!!
Thus I end my daily babblings before I kill something here. I need to....breathe....
