Pushing me away...
October 18, 2004 at 9:38 p.m.
I suppose anyone who's reading this is wondering about the long absence. Well, I was distracted. I get like that sometimes.
So I guess I decided that I needed something else to work on. Homework, RPing, Achaea, Lusternia, and writing and such just weren't cutting it anymore. I missed have a site to update, oddly enough. << Though I'm sure it won't take long before the HTML gets to me.
Anywho, because I lack the motivation to rewrite anything I've been in the mood to rant about, here is another journal entry from my hand-written journal. I'll probably type those up here a lot.
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10/15 - I'm getting really sick of my mom. She can't go a day without accusing me of either not eating, or accusing me of not eating properly. Lately, I've been eating better than I have in God only knows how long.
How can she accuse me of not eating when I specifically ask her to buy me health food? What is with her?
I'm not anorexic. How many times do I have to go over this with her?
I was once, and that has left internal scars that will never completely heal!
We got into a big argument over the summer, where I flat out told her everything she had missed, including my year of anorexia and depression, the year where I wanted nothing more than to slit my wrists and throw myself off a bridge. I know damn well that I am far from sane. But I am not nearly as suicidal as I once was, and I AM NOT FUCKING ANOREXIC!
... Rawr.
It just pisses me off. I wish she'd lay off already, and focus on her own damn problems. I'm perfectly capable of taking care of myself.
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Okay, so maybe I'm still working on that taking care of myself thing, but I'm bloody trying. I'm stubborn, determined, and trying to make this whole life thing work. And so help me, I will!
-Kaiya-
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