Apr. 6, 2004
5 years passage.
And in under 48 hours, there will be a freeness I have not ever felt. As a lost sheep amongst the darkest of woods, here is a road I did not foresee. This was a transition a could not prepare for.
5 years at my first post schooling job. A real job in the real world... and now all to end. These are step that seem easy for some. Those who have flipped many times see it as just business. They see it as just opportunity to move onto something better in their live. Money or power, whatever the motivation, the ease to leave a job that you live at for 50 hours a week just doesn't seem so simple. Call me sentimental, it is not just business. Like your first long term girlfriend.... and now you must say goodbye. Silly isn't it. But these were the early years that you understood what a person can be made of. What a young eager rookie is willing to endure. The hardships that the timers will put you through to toughen you up. Is this the real world now? A new view? A new agenda? No more lines like "great for experience". No more excuses to stay and pretend to work while you surf job posting websites.... Cuz now you've got those lines. Now things have changed. That resume seems so much more appealing in this bleak marketplace.
Well, the goodbyes are prepared. The road to independence never looked this way. This step is more like a leap. One that I wish I could step back from. One that I wish could be made in another lifetime.
On Friday when I wake and look outside my window, the world will have an extra glow to it. It'll be a familiar that I can step out to and freely explore like I once did...