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I start to notice that the sun is starting to set just that much earlier each day. It's not quite as warm as it use to be from the day before... These few months are just passing by without notice... I'm afraid that soon the summer will end and again the bitching begins. The bitching of the weather and the change and how there is no more time for anything and how nobody ever hangs out.... The bitching.. I know the days are just what we make of it but there never seems to be a beginning to it all and the end just seems to soon. 2 weeks...and we'll be in Cancun. Excited? Hell yah. But it just seems like we have never really started the summer yet, and as the plane lands back in Vancouver, we'll be in September... already. I still have that childhood anguish when September roles around. Sort of the unofficial end to summer although the weather is still blazing outside. Just sort of that month where it's time to wine down and get back to the real, boring things of life.

These days that we pass just seem to be filled somewhat empty. Maybe we are just always trying to top off that glass so often that in doing so, we spill everything. We strive to be content, but all we do is raise the bar higher... I had a good talk with a friend who is leaving to work elsewhere... As tears rolled down from the eyes, I did not realized the pain of leaving. Looking at this life that we have from within the bubble makes us very oblivious to the pain of leaving. I do see the family, friends and familiarity of leaving it all. I do see the lost love, missing romances and reality checks that will be absent. But from where I sit I am not that person leaving and I don't feel what the tears are filled with. All I see are the opportunities that are presented when you are placed into a different land. How your mind expands. The experiences. The money (if not spent all on booze and traveling). I can imagine what courage it take to leave the familiar and rock the boat. Throw in the wrench and see what happens. See how strong the human will can be and how far it can take you. I love to preach to others on the power of travel. The power of escape and the pursuit of knowledge and experience. The forceful abandonment of what you know to reshape yourself into a new better person. The ability to look beyond the box. The ability to not be afraid....

I just wished I had that courage myself.......