June 29, 2003
Driving three hours for coffee..... Some do, some don't.... who care??? Well some things make sense and some things are just plagues with issues that no one every really understands. Why are we always trying to understand. I know I try. I try all the time. Things just happen and there really is no sense to it all, but on some level, there was always some sort of motive so people are always trying to understand. Hey, how do you think shrinks make all there money... It the truth that is put together from a bunch of BS.
I'd like to think that when someone does something, they did it for a reason. I'll ponder it in my head for hours, I'll sit sleepless with the thoughts stirring, I'll try to figure theses things out.... BUT...... I find myself doing this to myself and my actions. Why? Why do I do the things I do. What do I think the why that I think. Why?? Maybe things just happen and there are no answers. They just are. People are just people. Messed up masses of the confused trying to put together something resembling life.. ending up looking more like pudding. If everything had an answer, then there would be no process for leaning. Understanding that there need not be a answer.... there cant be an explanation for the obvious and that silence is the best answer for a yes or no question.... theses are the only truths... figuring that out is only the start...
understand???
Sometime more confusing than these writing......