Dec. 17, 2003
2003 is just about wound down... and what is there to show... where in life are we? Are the goals met? Have we done enough? Is there enough money in the bank account? Are we happy?
With all these factor that we put onto ourselves in the measure of happiness, where does all the satisfaction lie? We try so hard to make life this enjoyable passage with different events and milestones that seem to make things have meaning, but we have lost this definition of what does or does not give us satisfaction. Everything has been so commingled up that things just look like smoke.
Step out of the hot shower and feel the steam around you...and when you go to look at yourself in the mirror..... all you can see is a faint outline of the reflection that stairs back... who sees the clearer image? What does it take to wipe clean the mist and see what is underneath....
So where has all the satisfaction gone to. Can it really be that this is how things turn out. We are destined to turn out like our parents. We have lost all sense of adventure and substance for life. There are no more roads to follow, there are only left over crumb to lay a path... To say that you don't fear loneliness is to accept that this is as good as it gets. I don't accept!!
I have step into my box and the thinking is all inside... hide me from this world I fear. Take me away so I can look out and not in... open a door that doesn't lead to a brink walls... but mostly, leave me alone so I can walk by myself to understand it all...
Of all the months that have gone by so fast... this one is going too slow....