Nov. 6, 2003
...I'm here, enjoying my time. The sights are great and I cant ask for anything else... My mind is far away from the stress. There no longer is this cloud that hangs over my head and for once I sit back and I take in... take in everything that is here without having to worry that my heart will beating any faster than a slow melody of flowers growing in May... Fingers calm, head light, and the muscle tense up on my face as an anticipation of a smile causes one to accidentally reveal itself. Five forty-five, six-ten, eleven seventeen... number that are meaningless when the only word I can think of is "now"... Ask me anything and I will say "yes". Pursue and I will follow... Lead and I will teach... Punish and I will endure... Cry and I will love..... Patience for the problems which cure too fast....
In the moment... everything can change... Forget what you know about life and love and realities and truths... in the moment, the world is yours to make.. especially when you don't expect.. and especially when you do... The is no sense, just choices and emotions that grow from no certain source... but from this certainty, the is no absence, just reality...
and then the moment passes.....