How It Turned Out For Me
Well I thought it would be about time to tell my mother that I was Pagan . I mean I've thought about telling her before but then I rememberd how she would react and I chickened out . So one day I decided I was going to tell her ( but not to her face , I didn't want to deal with her reaction right away ) so I created a whole web page , telling her about my beliefs how I got into it , and alot of other basic information , and links to other web sites . So i sent her an E-mail with a link to the site . She followed it as expected but not when i had planned for her to . She signed online about eight at night , I was in the living room watching T.V. and from out of no-where She spoke "What the hell is this crap " She didnt even bother reading down the whole page and she got angry and reacted just like I thought she would she started asking me questions but didnt want me to answer them ( I dont know what that was about ) but most of you know ( if your an open witch ) whats its like to try to have a conversation with someone who only believes what they have been tought , and will not listen to anyting else that contradicts those beliefs . So she told me that i wasnt allowed to believe in this stuff , and i told her that my beliefs were mine to decide and not hers . She told me that she wouldnt buy me anymore books " you see by now she linked my beliefs to the books i ask her to buy me at the book store , she was ok with me exploring other religions just not believing in them . Eventually we dropped it and we havent really talked about it well she had a link to Aurens Circle in her saved mail and in her favorite places well I deleted them both . She didnt notice . I just didnt want her to remember and then for us to fight . So It didn't turn out well for me , but i have a lot of friends that it turned out well for . I guess they dont all turn out like the stories you read all over the web . Thats probly because people dont write about stories that dont work out . Well I thought I should write about it . This is not to discourage people from coming out . I just wanted people to see that things dont always turn out as expected . My mother knows now and I wouldnt have told her another way it turned out as well as it could have . well Im not really good at ending stories so... END . |
