| Continued....2002 |
| 7-5 My heart just broke Listening to your voice I want you all over again I don't have a choice My body longs for you My soul needs you My eyes cry for you And I can't tell you It's so damn hard To be alone Don't know how to approach The man I want to love I watch you drift away I see you standing there I want to pull you to me But all I can do is stare Maybe someday you'll Want me by your side Maybe someday I will be Beautiful in your eyes |
| 9-16 Sometimes I feel like I just need to go to a place where I can breathe. Where I can reflect on the beauty of this life, my life. Today is a day when I look back on all the things in my life. When I realize what I have missed and who I have been missing. My life goes at one-hundred and ten miles an hour, like it does for everyone. There is just not enough hours in a day to get all this stuff done and all it does is accumilate day after day. I am running and somehow forget to breathe in the air. Somehow forget to say thank you, sorry, give a pleasant hello, a simple goodbye, or most importantly, I love you. I have come to this reality that I cannot keep taking all the people and things in my life for granted. I selfishly expect for everyone to be here for me tomorrow, so I skip the hello and goodbye. I am still too shy to tell someone that I love them; like it will hurt me if I say it. I have reached the maximum of coldness inside. I have come to realize that my body is shaking, crying inside. Waiting for someone to come love me...and yet I cannot even tell that someone it is them I need. Them I am reaching silently for. So I laugh at love and pretend I do not need it. Even though all I want is for someone to hold my heart, make it warm again. |
| 9-16 So here I am Starting over in this familiar life Wanting to be with that one person... I'm slipping into their eyes I'm falling into this unrealistic dream that you and I are a possibility. What would they say? Those friends of mine; if I keep falling for that romantic smile. If I actually had the chance to run my fingers through your hair. If I finally opened up and told you of all my fears. That maybe you don't want me. Maybe i'm just not your style. But every time I look at you, my eyes quickly drift away. I'm so scared you feel the loneliness in my stares or see the the quiver in my smile. Because of you, I've lost my center. I've lost who I am. What would they say if They knew I needed you? What would you do, if I actually told you? |
| 10-26 I feel so rediculous I am so in love with you. I need you, I miss you I always wanted to be with you Everything I feel is drowning inside of you because You refuse to hear, you refuse to call, refuse to need me. I have never tasted love, But I have tasted you, Everything about you... You are the only one kind of love I've Been able to feel and I miss you so much. I am so sorry I let myself fall for you, for so long and so hard. It hurts to be in love when you can't love me back. |
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| 12-8 How many times have I let the world fall away? I let the sun turn black but it still gives me my day There is no excuse for feeling so cold For lashing out pretending to be bold Staring them down who do they think they are? So petite and beautiful I am just an unwanted scar Slowing down the world as the sun turnsblack giving me my night letting me format To my nights of loneliness much like my day How many times have I let myself slip away? |
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