Oh woe is computer. My computer did the unspeakable thing yesterday, it crashed. I lost everything, my whole entire life was on the hard drive... My text files, my Michael Jackson pictures, my songs and videos. Fortunatley, just before it crashed, I saved all of my 1,000 MJ pictures onto a disk, just in case! Boy was I lucky. Now I must start anew with my computer. Maybe it is for the better. We'll see how it turns out. In other news, I have developed a strange blinking/squinting tick that I cannot control. People say it is from too much computer use, but what do they know? I just found out that my family will be going to Arizona for Christmas break... how can I control my pale skin in that environment!?!?!

July 20-27: Computer Banning

Something terrifying has happened. Something so bad it makes me want to abandon my parents and run away from home. Something so bad that I might not make it though it without some sort of emotional scars. My parents have banned me from the computer for one week! This was their form of cruel and unusual punishment for me eating in the living room when I wasn�t supposed to. I am so depressed now. Well my parents told me I have to get off now...So I�ll write more next week when my banning is over. Wish me luck!!! I'm going to need it...

July 18- A Trip to the Lake

Today I went to the lake cabin. It was a real struggle for my parents to get me out of the house, but with a few candy bars they succeeded. On the drive there, I was pretty shaken up because of the intense light. It was a pretty sunny day. It was good that I brought a lot of sunscreen with me. When I arrived at my Grandparents lake cabin, I was relieved to know that they had a computer there with the internet!!! I got on right away to check my mail and see how my website was doing. After a few hours of this, my parents said that it was time to do a little swimming. Just the thought of that made me want to crawl into a shoe box and die. As a sluggishly put on my swimming suit, I prepared myself for the monster I would soon have to face- the SUN. When I was done, I slowly made my way out to the dock. I had to admit that I forgot how good and warm the sun felt on my back! Nevertheless, I globbed on tons of sunscreen for protection. I had so much fun swimming that I forgot to reapply. When I looked in the mirror, I was horrified to see a small sunburn across my nose. Let�s just pray it won�t leave a tan.

July 25, 2002

I am all alone. My computer is my only friend. I cry whenever it freezes. No one understands my pain when it crashes. I hug my computer and worship it. It is my only friend, only friend, good computer, nice computer. No one understands me more then my computer does. I spend long hours on it. My online time 2 hours and 30 mintues.

I tried to cut down. The craving was to hard I didnt last 3 hours without going on the computer. My eye started to twitch. My hands were shaking, I couldnt breathe. I ran down as fast as I could to my computer and a feel of relief came over me...

October 2002

Lately I have been making very long hours on the comp, usually 4 hours . I felt very happy. My true paleness was released, My eyes felt really baggy and heavy- My parents think I need to cut back- But it is so addicting.
I am getting sucked in deeper into this pale kids world-It is fun.