unspoken words.
i can say what i want to the sky up above. from my heart and my soul i speak out of love. the words from my mouth spoke out of truth. are the words that i can't imagine ever saying to you. i can say it to a stranger with all of my feelings. i can say it in my dreams to my very own ceiling. i can say it to an enemy or my best friend. i can say it in my head over and over and over again. i can say it to the cigarette smoke that's floating above my head. i can say it in a graveyard to all of the dead. i can say it to someone in a coma and mean every word. but the words i want you to hear will never be heard. i can say it to a crowd over the p.a. i can say it to someone i don't know to brighten up there day. i can say it to someone who doesn't speak english with all of my heart. i can say it to my mirror as i start to fall apart. i can say to god if he was even there. i can say it to the ground as i fall through the air. i can say it to ufo's from another different place. i can say it to the moon from the coldest parts of space. i can say it to a shooting star in the sky tonight. i can say it to the devil as i head towards the light. i can say it to a homeless person who is sleeping on the streets. i can say it to a new day when today and tomorrow will meet. i can say to an awe inspiring sunset or a breathtaking sunrise. i can say it to a girl i liked in high school as i try to drink her goodbye. but the words fall upon deaf ears as i don't know what to do. when the words wont come out tonight when i try to say it to you.
one minute and seventeen seconds later.
one minute and seventeen seconds earlier i was looking into the most beautiful eyes i have ever seen. was this all a dram. a dream i would never want to wake up from. and that is so very close to being the truth. i was in a trance. i was under a spell. i was frozen. i was memorized in the moment. i felt your glance thirty feet away. moving so close as fast as you can. without braking you were getting closer and closer. lights in my eyes and sounds all around. nothing came in clear, except for your eyes. thirty, twenty, ten, five and now so close i could feel your stare hitting me with such a force my knees gave in. the sound sounded like a bomb going off. a huge explosion making me freeze in a stand still. i fell through the air hitting the ground with a thud. making a dent in the concrete. parts of me was never so far away from me in my entire life. i was in shock. i was shaking. i was cold. i was motionless. i was bleeding out for everyone to see. i was screaming out for only you. hoping you would hear the words i wanted you to hear. hoping i made it out of this alive. as i laid there i was scared. wishing for your touch to tell me that everything was going to be fine. i was moving in and out of conscienceness. waiting for you, waiting for anything at all. i was looking up to the heavens above wanting anybody to tell me that this is not my time, not yet. but no one answered. i was screaming out for anybody, but mostly for you. in this time it was hard for me ot be aware of my surroundings. was i screaming out loud or was i screamng in my head. i just can't tell anymore. my eyes gazed over the sky one last time to see if anybody was there. but to my surprise just stars. nothing more, nothing less. a less than perfect night shouldn't be my last glance i was ever going to have. my last thought was of your eyes looking at me. wishing your eyes was my last vision, but to my conclusion in my head as i was looking in your eyes all i could feel was you looking through me. looking past me to someone else, someone more important, someone who wasn't me. after thoughts and thoughts of you and i running through my mind. one minute and seventeen seconds later i gave up and died.
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