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kids don't like to share #5

last chance.
i will give you all that i've got. words that matter, words that meant alot. but now what do i do. i screwed up what i was going to give to you. i was put to the ultimate test. i tried to give you my best. so what happens next. i can't stress what i will always regret. a meaning for another word. but that is not what you've heard. the voice you were listening to was making no sense. intense, past the point of consequence. it was a mistake, the structure of that line was not meant to hurt. i'm such a jerk. all that work. with no pay off. i lost. you were the unforgettable cost. stupidity written on my forehead. i'm better off not saying what i've said. why are you walking away. was it something i said?

nerd nation.
a way to look back to all the good times we wanted. one glance, another stare has been forgotten. but we will always remember, forever, together. the looks on our face. we could never replace. the memories we had for them, but then again. the three or four four friends. we saw them walk with evey graceful step. we collect there smile, put it on our mind, but what will be next. four long years, walking behind, trying to find away to say hi. but we never found that excuse. even though we knew we would lose. we still felt the urge to walk by. to give them the most attention without letting them know our identity. just us three, when we disbanded from the rest of the flock. so we were stranded to do what we felt like and that was right to us, but there disgust was not bringing down our lust we had toward the nerdz. even though they never heard we kept talking about them. we dreamed but it seemed to be heading nowhere, but we didn't care. we just kept on doing what we felt. our thoughts have grown more deeper than we could have known. in some way shape or form we found a way to keep looking in there direction when we passed them by. even though we never got past a smile and a dream. we will always know what it means when we think back to those times walking on the grounds. we will always know what we found. and we will always who to look back on and smile. we will always remember those nerdz.

good times (times of yesterday).
and then again we think back to the past. wishing for better times, looking for a way to make it last. when we seek comfort in the days that passed by. and we don't really know why we try to keep the past alive. closing our minds to a future that we don't need, indeed, our past is where we want to be, but tomorrow is more than just a dream. not knowing what anything means. we have no idea what the next day will bring. so yesterday is only happiness you'll have, because it reminds you of all the good times you've had. forgotten is all the disappointments that the future will be. you can only see the times you've had when we were free, to decide what we want to do, what we felt like, hide and go seek, baseball and riding our bikes. to roam around without the hatred running in out minds. if we could find those times we will never have left it behind. with the world as it is today. there is no way to save those times of yesterday. we had nothing holding us down. we played around with nothing bad could be found. there was no binding agreements, no direguarding arguements. the future is our downfall. there was no worrying about the rejection of us all.

nothings changed.
i stepped outside to the world. my frustrated mind seemed to have failed. nothing became of me. my daily routine has turned stale. the life i searched for, never came in clear. the long life dream was heading nowhere. the mistakes that i made was haunting my every step. the hateful rejection i could never forget. and yet when i tried to remember the good times that i had. my thoughts just relived the memorable moments turned bad. another day has passed, another year is gone. apathy is the comfort that stuck with me for so long. my life is broken into pieces that is so rearranged. and when i look backat my life i know now that nothings changed. i know i deserve what this brings my way, because the same time next year i will be writing down the same thing i am writing down today.

until the time.
will i miss you, missing me. will you miss me, missing you. what had become of us two. did we give enough, to what we claimed was long lasting love. but since that day, we slipped away, from one another, from each other. our lives will never be the same. so we felt the shame. the losing streak, too tough to beat. too hard to leave behind. but our time was nothing more, i wanted before, but i know i can't have that. a matter of fact, we knew we could never go back. to make up, we gave up. there will never be us, but we still feel that we are missing something. everything, anything, for us to bring. together again. will this emptyness ever end. no one knows and the further we grow. until we regret, until we forget. like we never met. until the time. i'll be waiting until that day.