| kids don't like to share-writing in scumbag tulip #2-#16 |
| #8 leave me alone. wanting, seeking, waiting, needing. what else can go wrong. when everyone else is gone. nothing comes back. nothing will last. lying, finding, hiding, dying. nothing here is worth trying. when no one wants you around. getting up get pushed/shoved back down. what's the use i've adapted to the pain. why would i want to change. why can't i stay the same. in time i'll see for now let me be. i'm tired of impressing, dressing up for someone who laughs at me. behind my back, in front of my face. a distasting taste going to waste. many have tried, many have died. wanting to choose, with everything to lose. i'm better on my own. i'm sick of everyone so just leave me alone. waste away in paradise. looked down with disgust, brought up with no trust. mislead to believe, no way to have seen. rejected fro the finer things in life. i didn't do what i thought was right. living your life i would never have had the chance to be. lucked out of being myself. my friends would rather hang out with someone else. i grew up on my own, i grew up living all alone. never knew how to give. not one good reason to live. on a island there is no moving away. it's hard to live for another day. but a picture of someone gave me a reason to put down the gun. sounds of her voice, gave me another choice. but somedays it's not enough, sometimes it gets so rough. but when something brings me down, i look toward her to bring me around. she made me believe in myself, she made me believe i was someone else. she is better late than never. she's the only one who will last forever. #9 (no) incoming calls. why do people do things to impress other people? what makes that person so great that you have to impress them? why can't you just be yourself, not impressing anybody for them to like you. so what if you have to impress someone to become his/her friend. to me a friend wont care what you like or the way you think or even the way you dress or the way you look. a friend will like you because of who you are. if you're nice to him, he's nice to you. just remember, no two people like the same thing. they may come close to liking almost the same things but not everyone will be the same. and if one of your friends likes everything you like, does everything you like he wants to be like you. i say he's trying way too fucking hard to be your friend. that probably means he has no friends. thats why he tries too hard to be your friend. a person that likes everything someone else likes is not really a person. i think he's just a clone. he lets you decide what he will do. what he will become. he's just a stupid fucking thing. who can't do anything at all. that person is really fucking pathetic. i'm pathetic, but not that kind of pathetic. i'm the kind of pathtic that i don't let anybody tell me what to do. i decide my life. i just have to find a life. i have to get out of bed, get a job, get a girl, get money, get a car and get the hell out of this place. fuck it for now. |
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