| kids don't like to share-writing in scumbag tulip #2-#16 |
| #10 unbelievable. i believed in you before, but not now or anymore or anyless you made my life turn out to be a mess. the reasons you never told me, you just made me see the future will never turn out to what i want it to be. with you and me will never be together. but instead i will be with another. not you, why did you do the things you did. it was very stupid you acted like a kid. an ignorant excuse, to use or even abuse. so now it's gone, why don't you feel wrong. feeling like we aren't meant to be. youu gave me back my apathy. the lonelines you took away. now it's back to stay, back today and the day after. you were her, you were my girl, you were my world. worlds apart, you stabbed that knife in my heart. i don't know when this will end. you took out the knife to stab it in again. i felt bad, i turned sad. when i think about the times we had. there is no we, for us to see, you made me believe that you can't believe in something that you thought was meant to be. suburban boredom. searching for what everyone wants. a house on the hills. a white picket fence. money that grows on tree's. a perfect, trusting wife. two wonderful, caring children. not a job but a career. power beyond your control. barking out orders. everyone obeying your every word. but that will never happen. it will never come true. you don't believe me. look at your one bedroom, roach infested hell hole you call home. gang members killing other gang members, drug dealers selling crack to the youth of america, kids killing kids, hookers spreading diseases for 20 bucks. knowing you're too scared to walk down the street. inhaling smog and gunpowder. holding your breath as you walk past another dead body. the smell of piss from the bum who's looking through your garbage. who's living in a big television box behind the dumpster in the alley. and now you know that the suburban life and the american dream will never happen. nothing will ever come true. it's all just a dream. too stupid to realize. have you seen all my broken dreams. why are people laughing at me. why am i hiding my face. in my place, have i've been replaced. disturbed for actions i haven't done yet. but i bet this something i'll never forget. lost in a world where no one knows my name. i had it before but i lost it again. tragic visions running through my mind. too stupid to realize i left it behind. to all i recall i'm counting down to my dismay. to me i wont see a message i couldn't convey. my life seems to pass in front of my face in a flash. there is no hope in a world that never wanted me to last. all the rules i was believing, all the truth was decieving. you never wanted me to survive. you never gave me a reason to try. all to you i have to prove. all to you i say fuck you. to all who said it everyday. to all who say today is the day. there is nothing that i have to find. too stupid to realize i ran out of time. #11 the new year the next has come to pass and another one will come to fast. how come were happy to see it come and when it's done. when the noise dies down. when the smoke clears out. when the people aren't around. we go back to what were use to doing. the daily movement and the people that we're use to seeing. we come to be, what we were last week. before the clock struck twelve. before we ever felt to rejoice our voice and our fireworks. out with a bang. we thank the year before. our promises that we made last year that we never kept. we never saw anything through. what should we do. we know that this year will be like the last. dreading another year, don't want it to come back. looking to the new year with broken hearts and fears. so what is your resolution this year? |
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