The other day, a comment was made to me that I think was highly offensive. I guess it was supposed to be some sort of compliment, but the person who said it had no right to even hint about what he said and that just made me kinda think bad of men in general for a while. ?????????????I'm over it now, but I will never speak to that person again if I can help it because of the rudeness and I think that a boy should never do that. He should never put a girl in a position that she should feel any sort of shame or ??regret for talking to the person. It's a strange thing....
But on to the other purpose that I want this page to be used for at this time - a list. I used to have a list about what I wanted in a man, and I guess I took it down when I met Blaine because I knew that he and I were fated. There was no question that he was the one for me. And I don't doubt that now, but I just feel like I should document the kind of boy I wanted and kinda still want for a husband. And I'm not saying this so that I can go find another but so that if Blaine sees this, he can see what I want and will know how I feel. There will be no question as to what I want or need or expect. So here goes:
1. I want someone who is firmly rooted in God. I want someone who will help me to not be led astray. I want a person who can help me to read my Bible at night and pray before I go to sleep and go with me to church. I want someone to share my religion.
2. I want someone who is madly in love with me. I want him to notice the small things. I want to constantly be on his mind. I mean, I know that isn't possible,but I want some proof of this. I guess that's the way that I will know that he really is madly in love with me. And I expect him to be madly in love with me. I deserve no less. By showing me, I mean, I want him to hold my hand when we go out instead of walking in front of me. I want him to suffer through holiday shopping with me and let me look at things, not just spend hours in one store for him. I want him to buy me a pack of gum because I said I wanted some two days ago.
3. I want someone who believes in the things that I believe in - that education is extremely important, that tolerance is something that should be practiced for all people whether they fit into our belief system, race, religion or not. I want someone who will help me grow as a person and who will not resist what I want to teach him and who will teach me things that are beneficial.