friends

So far my site has been including all the wrong people! I'm the star and my behind-the-scenes crew isn't even mentioned, but I realize that isn't cool 'cuz last night, my best friend Jessica and I were laughing our butts off over this stupid thing we found and I was just thinking that making fun of stuff and people wouldn't be as fun without someone who agrees. So let me tell you about the first time I met Jessica. We were in 4th grade in Mrs. Goad's classroom and she had on a dress and a bee-hive hairdo and these red plastic gummy bear earrings. I was shy and so was she but she sat behind me and we started talking somehow. From that day on, it seems, we were best friends, even before her hair grew out. *S* Jessica and I have only had one major fight and that was over Josh and Nathan in 7th grade... a million years ago. We used to think that one day we'd start our own babysitter's club and we faithfully read EVERY book that the library had and some it didn't. We were in the library club together and on the yearbook staff and we were basically sisters. We grew up together and made fun of each other and one day her parents just decided to move her from me. They took her like ten miles away, and she lives closer to me now, but she was out of state so we couldn't go to the same school anymore and it just ruined everything. Well, we thought it would, but we spend a pretty good amount of time together whenever we possibly can now. She tells me all about Aerosmith and Bon Jovi and I make her watch things like Crazy/Beautiful and stuff that she has no interest in. We buy huge amounts of food that we never eat because you can't talk and eat at the same time. We go to restaurants and sit for hours. She even had me coming to church with her, and we picked out the little kids that were us. Jessica and I do stupid stuff. Like, she and I can go to Wal-Mart and have fun. We know what the other is thinking and we just compliment each other. She wants to do everything and I have so I tell her no and give her all the bad points of every decision she wanted to make. Jess helps me through every situation and never falters to stand up for me or be on my side, even if I'm totally wrong. She makes fun of me for doing stupid things just so I won't do them again, and when I decide to do them again, she's once again totally supportive. Oh, and she laughs at this joke I made up one time; Why did the frog cross the road? Because he was hop-py! That proves what a friend she is.

Kendall was the next person I really liked. We met in 8th grade and I guess just used each other for support until we got through our initial meeting everyone else and pronouncing our genius. Kendall and I aren't like Jess and I. We both have other friends and we do our own thing, but when we're together, it's a mess! She always tries to make things better for me and we do stupid stuff, too, and we laugh a LOT! We come up with schemes all the time to ruin one person or another's life and to fix ours and beware if we don't like you! We like to eat when we're together whether it's Wheat Thins in C++ or Chinese food when we're waiting for a movie to start. We also have sort of a balance. I lean on her when I need help with something even if I can't help her when she needs the same thing and we're both creative although her skills in art are far better than mine. Kendall is my best friend, too. I don't know what to say about her because there isn't anything to desccribe our relationship -it just is... We're weird and smart and laugh at nerdy jokes and it's just good to know that I have her even if I only see her or talk to her once in a blue moon. Also, she thought the polyester thing was funny! Nobody else would laugh at that.

I guess I forget another of my best friends because she is almost a built in friend now. Just in case you don't know who I'm talking about, it's Andrea. Andrea calls me at midnight to tell me if she's spotted someone that she thinks I'd like to know about. She cooked for me until I got the knack of my french fry and pizza diet. She tells me all the good gossip from Carroll and she always invites me out with her. She drove me home after I'd been left at school by my ex-carpooling buddy even though she wasn't gonna come up here. She was my motivation to go to the gym for the whole three months I went and was my pilates coach. She shares her puppy, Prince, with me and invited me to her family's 4th of July dinner. Andrea is like my family now. She is the person I know I can always go to and the person I can sit and cry in front of and the person who hurts me the most when she cries. She's my sister now. *S*
You know, I wrote that over a year ago and I feel bad about the rift that has come between Andrea and I. It's hard to lose a friend. I hope that one day we can both grow up and forget the stupidity that made our friendship sour. I know I'm ready to forgive and forget and also to ask for forgiveness.

I neglected to mention my bestest boy friend in the whole entire world - Steven! Steven listens to me when I can't tell all my friends everything. He hears it all, often, I'm sure, he hears too much. Steven is my rock, I guess. He's the person I lean on for everything. If I need someone to go out with on the weekends or if I need someone to fix my computer or to read my poems or papers or quiz me on whatever subject I'm studying or to just let me rant and cry, Steven is always there. He is the one person I trust totally and completely. If I tell him something, it always stays between the two of us. I never have to worry about anything when I'm with him. He pushed me on the swings, too, and helped me go really high! He's the greatest guy I've ever known.

I have far too many other friends to mention by name, but I love you all and though I haven't included you as my best friend, you are. Danielle and Jennifer, Michele and Stacey, Stacey and Keena... all my governor's school friends, my entire hall at UVa... I could never love people more than I love the people who call themselves my friends. I never meant to neglect you or put you aside and hope that I will have you in my life forever. You've made me who I am - you pushed me in my wheelchair, lifted me through the mud, took me to the rodeo for the first time, gave me the courage to jump in the lake, made me question why the prom queen feels the need to include me in her daily activities,helped me learn to walk, let me be me. You are the most beautiful wonderful people in the world. I love you all so much, really.

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